I follow back from @girlprince-extraordinaire and post my art on @scaredy-draws // Ask me about my rebel Ivan AU // Or send art reqs // I do art4fic or art4art trades alongside the reqs // I have fanart reblogs queued
I DON'T HAVE TWITTER. PLEASE ASSUME I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED ON TWITTER at any given point no matter what the situation is. ASSUME I DO NOT KNOW THE DRAMA.
@scaredy-draws and @girlprince-extraordinaire are both my blogs, and I am ScaredyKurov on AO3
My owed art list is always long, you're always free to add to it. I prioritise mutuals and trades over requests. I trade with everyone not just mutuals, but we'll probably become mutuals if you trade with me anyways.
I welcome any sort of interaction! Talk to me! DM me! Tag me! I have post notifications off for any post that got more than 100 notes so please feel free to send me asks!!!!!!
Feel free to ask for my discord, especially mutuals because I would much rather talk there! Tumblr dms don't always work so feel free to send an ask or dm my aforementioned blogs too.
Here is a masterpost of alnst fic recs (TBA)
My name is Kurov. I am an adult. I like Alien Stage, angsty fanfiction, edgy music, and the English language which is not my first language. I usually only analyse character traits and not visuals but feel free to talk to me about anything Alien Stage!
BYF All my rockemo posts are tagged #rockemo so in case age gaps bother you either DNI or block the tag. If you're curious about why I have such an AU in the first place, I already answered that here.
Here is a tag key!
#kurov.txt | Original posts
#you're the one who called | Inbox tag
#kurov.png | My art + occasionally fics
#kurovreads.txt | My analysis or critique of alnst
#kurovs fav arts | I like all the art I reblog but I wanted a tag specifically for art I'd like to return to from time to time.
#kurovs fav fics | same deal ^
#kurovs fav posts | Mostly analysis posts made by other people, sometimes just Really Accurate jokes/memes
#kurovs nest | Fics/Art that were made for me (trades/gifts/etc.)
#long post | I don't like to crowd people's dash so I tag long posts!
My AUs and other stuff that also need organising:
#IndustryPlant-Rock!Ivan | He kinda became the name of the AU because that's the only part that differs from the usual rock ivti AU.
#Post-Karma!Ivti | Specifically my rebel!Ivan AU, not the general headcanon one people have.
You can also click here if you want to see it in chronological order of posting
#hallucikurov | These are my fucked up, not too canon postings. Guilty pleasures if you will. Please feel free to block this tag, I will not be trying to appear normal when using it.
#hallucivanposting | He needed his own tag.
I add content warning tags for slurs for the comfort of others and I'm not interested in discussing who can and can't say them, idc (the tags are #cw f slur/#cw d slur)
I also add warnings for #cw flashing lights and #cw bright colours (COLOUR SPELLED WITH A U) for those who need it
I do not add warning tags for spoilers, gore or nsfw and that is on purpose.
If you need anything else tagged, feel free to send me an ask, dm me, or even comment directly on the post. I don't bite unless you ask me to tag blood/gore/nsft
happy mother’s day to my mama the best mama in the world.. i drew mama io and baby till as an old photo of me and my mom when i was like 2 years old… i love my mom
i also haven’t drawn traditionally in SO LONG i literally have been too lazy to pick up my sketchbook, the last time i drew a fully painted piece was like A YEAR AGO. and ive been studying my butt off for 2 weeks straight.. just 2 more exams and i’m done .. and then i have my dance and spanish final.. heh guys what if i write my spanish project about alnst
ALSO THE SPROUT AT THE TOP IS LIKE THE PALM TREE PONYTAIL
ivan’s birthday art this year was definitely a bit of a surprise, and of course the fandom’s reaction was to go insane over this, because ivan is one of the most popular (and covered up) characters and so you get a lot of posts thirsting over him. (i am not immune to this. you can see his belly button actually)
the fact that he’s presented this way at all is super interesting to me though. it’s a subtle 4th wall break and i really like that it’s been consistent throughout the entire series: you, the viewer, are part of the audience. the segyein are objectifying and dehumanizing them, and so are you. YOU ARE PART OF THE AUDIENCE.
it is also extremely telling that they do this the MOST with ivan. he’s the fan favorite for a reason, both in-universe and in fandom. we like his aesthetic beauty, but the allure is part of his persona. and what i mean by “this” are the glamour magazine shots. because sua and luka are both pretty and have their own fanbases, but neither of them have art like this. sua doesn’t have any like this, even though we know she did advertisements while in anakt garden. luka has glamour shots of his own, but they’re much more detached/artistically oriented than ivan’s, with logos displayed both on the magazine and on himself too. ivan's a commodity, as it were. a lot more accessible than the lofty “prince of the stage” luka.
and ivan knows he’s hot and knows exactly how to wield that to his advantage. the short one page comic in the bday post & the anakt garden kit show him as seemingly a playboy type.
what makes this more interesting though, is that while he may be aware of how other people perceive him and how to use that to his advantage, he doesn’t actually believe himself to be all that attractive. like he knows objectively that people find him attractive but he personally doesn’t think that he is… which is probably one of the most human insecurities one could have, but he doesn’t have the words to understand that feeling.
but also… he has to. in this cutthroat world, he must play his role perfectly or else be discarded. he’s not like till, with his raw musical genius, or luka, who’s already won a season and the fanbase to support him. so of course he has to sell himself.
also, given everything about the karaoke scene, and also knowing that ivan has had r18 fantasies about till, i wonder how much he resents that 1) he allows this to happen to himself but also 2) the fact that he has desires towards till at all. like he just submits to the segyein, but he knows till wouldn't. and they don't understand what kissing is and their sex ed is basically only as far as a biological function, so i think this would just reinforce his warped perception of himself and his desires as perverse or disgusting. in his eyes, these desires make him no better than a segyein.
Hey! Just a reminder! AO3 does NOT have an app. This garbage was made by theives who steal fan artist’s work and sell it back to you.
“Oh, but it’s free!” There are ads. They are making money off of this. They are stealing from the creators you love and you are hurting those same creators if you use this app or any similar app.
App acts like a browser but paywalls offline reading while reviews state it’s full of intrusive ads and lacks basic functionality such as commenting. Do not use this app. Use the ao3 website. The app uses Gen-AI content for imagery on categories and is essentially forcing people to pay if they want to read your fics offline.
By the way you don’t have to pay anything to read fics offline. You can do it for free using easily accessible resources that don’t cost anything.
You do not need to pay $1 every week, $2 every month, or even $18 a year. It can be done free! By anyone!
You can also turn ao3 into an app itself by adding it to your Home Screen. You don’t need to download shady apps.
oo re;sketch requests i'd love to see something for any variation of ivti about either of them processing/expressing abuse from the segyein. sorry if this is a bit too open or vague ghdsjghdsh
Couldn't imagine it in a single piece/illustration format but uhm !! Got a bit carried away
CW: Child sexual abuse, incest, rockemo
Till's trying his best
Ivan is trying not to think about the fact that he lost his virginity to a 15 yearold with more experience than him :thumbs_up:
This scene takes place a few days after Till's 18th birthday
Hallucivan is a hallucination, fullstop. He's not Ivan. He isn't partly Ivan. He's not a ghost, apparition whatever. I'd like to think most people are aware of this, and at least know that this guy V
is not Ivan. But I feel like even people who know this forget that THIS GUY V
ALSO ISN'T IVAN. Till forgiving Ivan is not indicative of anything about Ivan himself, it's Till's perspective on him. Till not seeing Ivan again after forgiving him is indicative only of Till's inner peace, not that Ivan's spirit is finally at rest after being misunderstood (<- genuine take I saw lmao)
I point this out because people keep woobifying Ivan and using Till's forgiveness as a Gotcha to say he's still morally sound. Till choosing to empathise with his lifelong friend doesn't mean said friend was justified in all his actions. I'm not saying he's evil either!! But like, how do I put this... Growing up in torture nexus doesn't mean you get to assault someone else about it.
So often I see people using victimblaming rhetoric to explain away the R6 kiss (such as "It's okay because his intentions lie in self sacrifice, which is pure" or "it's okay because Till likes him/because ivti is canon in AUs") and I don't think people realise the real world harm they do by perpetuating those ideas.
I check the alnst tags a lot but every time I do I realise me and mutuals are the only ppl posting abt this series in the tags anyways. I could feasibly stop checking forever
The unnamed AU™ has a name now yepii!! I came up with it like two hours ago.
No Escape AU
Drowning talk? Ivan trying to drown Till but not really? ↓
I love the image of Ivan holding Till's head under the water while they bathe.
Then he pulls Till back up and cradle him as Till desperately gasps for air, terrified and confused while Ivan is just laying soft kisses on Till's shoulders like he didn't just almost drown him.
I really wanna draw that second part but i can't be bothered to learn to render water do I'll just hope someone does it for me ✌️🥹
hate it when you see something in media that has great kink potential so you skedoodle post-haste to ao3 only to discover there's none fic left beef and then you have to sit there going oh I see I'M the pervert weirdo I'M the problem with society and everyone else in the world is going to heaven with a hundred innocence dollars preloaded onto their ole fashioned wholesome funtimes themepark fast pass card like fuckin oath man
