[halo-above-the-void]

i will remedy this. i want at least one of my projects to "succeed" (aka be completed in general) but shit keeps getting in the way. hard drive failures. car accidents. illness. now that i have a better idea of what the fuck is actually wrong with me i realized i was essentially waiting around to get worse until who knows what because nobody showed any urgency in my decline.

found a new drive but have to sort out life stuff first before i can continue. i draw EVERY DAY but it was at the point i couldn't hold a pen for a month and barely got out of bed. i Have to manage it all thru this to get out.

I AM GOING TO SUCCEED

[halo-above-the-void]

damn i look at this place and EVERYONE i followed is gone. nobodys making things anymore. everyones been sick. its all ground to a halt. what the fuckkkk

[halo-above-the-void]

moment of clarity.

just had what was probably the biggest revelation of my entire life. not in a state where i can explain it the way i want to right now, just know that it took a visit to the ER only to be treated like im fucking stupid for knowing theres something extremely physically wrong with me. so im not dead yet, even though i wanted to be and felt like i was going to be when they discharged me with a fucking suicide hotline print off after belittling me for seeking out the literal last available option i could think of for help. america is great!

[halo-above-the-void]

wow!! tumblr is just twitter now? SO COOL

I HATE THIS WEBSITE

BYE

[3liza]

every single time I install some indie software like for vtubing or any other specialized use I have to join another fucking discord because no one is putting their documentation online anymore. it's a serious problem. and discord is impossible to navigate. search doesn't work, threads are invisible if they haven't been bumped recently, no one keeps up with listing where things are or even maintaining a basic FAQ. this situation is really really bad and no one is going to understand exactly how bad it is until discord collapses and deletes all this shit off their servers

[toastbutteregg]

[passionpeachy-deactivated202312]

This might be harsh but I think those who equate “good character design” to “character I would fuck” and express outright disgust at designs who dared to fall outside their conventional beauty norms should be trapped in the amulet for a thousand years. minimum

[moishe-pipick]

[holdvilag-archive]

men with longer hair if you hear a voice that tells you to cut it that's the devil talking. you have to ignore it at all costs im not joking

[finder-plus]

PSM (PS2 & Playstation Magazine) Vol. 5 Issue 46, Jun. 2001

SILENT HILL 2

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[floridamanandwoman]

The worst part of living in Florida is it’s so fucking flat you can’t even find a hill to die on.

[border-collie]

Not to be a shit stirrer, but as I’ve been doing more research into canine structure, especially as it applies to sports, I think the biggest thing keeping show line border collies from being as successful as working and sport lines in the agility ring is the fact they are bred to be pretty heavy boned. Heavy bones at best don’t have any benefit in agility and at worse slow you down and increase the risk of impact related injury. Sport lines tend to be very fine boned for the breed and working lines can vary but tend towards medium to light bone overall with some strains heavier set giving both subgroups a structural advantage over show lines even if structurally show lines tend to be more uniform. I actually disagree that a lack of drive is the reason show line border collies don’t do as well in sports, people compete with lots of breeds that have different levels of drive and energy, but at the top levels of all these breeds, it’s the lighter built individuals dominating.

[grison-in-space]

Is there anything to my vague sense that there's a slightly more upright shoulder assembly in the showline dogs as well, or is that just spillover from watching them mostly in the show ring? The heavy coat doesn't look like it's super helpful, either. But yes, I think you're very much right about bone. There's always going to be a fundamental trade off between speed and bone.

From a conformation perspective, I really wish that there was more emphasis on admitting that good, fluid movement comes from more places than just a floating trot at a consistent speed that is easy for humans to match--and that not all movement types correlates with each other in quality. It's especially stark for breeds that aren't necessarily supposed to be "trotting breeds": if your breed's function is to be constant starting and stopping at high speed, changing direction and sprinting and then stopping abruptly, why in the ever loving fuck do you think you should primarily evaluate gaits at an even extended trot? Collection is going to be super important, so why isn't collection being evaluated? (Sure, it's hard to show in a conformation ring, but imagine a display of movement built on a dressage or reining pattern. It's not hard to imagine how that could be done easily in dogs using a heelwork to music model.)

And of course collection at speed is going to be hugely important for both working BCs and for agility dogs, based on the nature of the sport. By contrast no bench can prioritize collection because they're not really ever allowed to see it. Handlers are trying to hit that perfectly controlled extended trot whenever you're looking at motion, even on dogs for whom an extended trot is not a particularly natural pace (eg sighthounds).

The pinnacle example of a conformation tradition that becomes so extreme it eschews collection completely is probably benchline American GSDs and their valorization of the maximally extended flying trot, and I think we've all seen what kinds of trade offs that extreme loose movement can bring. There's a definite tradeoff between reach and control in terms of even a trot.

Anyway, my other point is that bench bred BCs are selected to move prettily at a pace and speed that is totally useless in an agility ring or a sheep trial. More, they have to be capable of an extended trot that is slow enough to show nicely in a ring setting alongside a handler. There's this whole other dimension of selection on their movement that is totally orthogonal to the question of good movement at liberty and at speed. And I think that's also almost certainly playing a role in agility outcomes.

[halo-above-the-void]

i love to capture my imagination. at gunpoint.

[halo-above-the-void]

[halo-above-the-void]

honest to god met my husband by posting a fucking meme. try humor based relationship you learn so much about somebody by what they laugh at it Really Works! now only 5 easy payments of $9.99 CALL NOW

[toodotnil]

please enjoy Poki as he found the meat I'm defrosting

[nap-hime]

Oh defrosting meat, we're really in it now

[carrioncrowprince]