hampden wisteria

nothing in my soul if not obsessive, of course chloe • she/her

[julieandthemothman1]

[hampdenwisteria]

francis forever was my top song on spotify wrapped - francis abernathy i did this for YOU

[hampdenwisteria]

ethel cain profile pic change on spotify…. it’s happening to everyone

[greyskies-starrynights]

The Secret History destroyed my life like what do you mean I can't drink wine and study classical literature and spend the nights in a countryside mansion with piano echoing through the dark halls and break through the confines of humanity in a bacchanal and commit a string of murders and try to escape but eventually kill myself in a blaze of glory, ultimately shattering the lives of the people around me? That I can't escape the cognitive mode of experience and transcend the accident of my moment of being? That I can't lose my self, lose it utterly? What do you mean I can't live without thinking?

[snckt]

violet was right btw. a ribbon in your hair does help you troubleshoot life’s conundrums

[in-the-depths-of-solitude]

[hampdenwisteria]

rip richard papen you would’ve loved the doors

[motherrcain]

[electronicruinsfire]

i don't think you understand how important it was for me to see david bowie be mentioned in the secret history but at the same time it pains me greatly because now i cant imagine francis abernathy as 1976 bowie

#tsh #thesecrethistory #richardpapen #henrywinter #francisabernathy #camillamacaulay #charlesmacaulay #bunnycorcoran #darkacademia #literature

[hampdenwisteria]

THIS SO SO REAL

(i still imagine francis as 1976 bowie anyway though)

[apricusapollo]

I feel sick

[urfavoritedcwhore]

“it’s starting to smell like pumpkin spice!”

“it’s starting to smell like scary movies!”

no.

it’s starting to smell like, the snow in the mountains was melting and bunny had been dead for several weeks before we came to realize the gravity of our situation.

[mullberrywood]

secondhand 1992 viking edition of the secret history by donna tartt

[plaid-poppies]

“For if the modern mind is whimsical and discursive, the classical mind is narrow, unhesitating, relentless.”

Donna Tartt. The Secret History. 1992

[hampdenwisteria]

“- It is not a quality of intelligence that one encounters frequently these days. But, though I can digress with the best of them, I am nothing in my soul if not obsessive.”

— Donna Tartt

[gummygrim]

ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to be a stressed adult male protagonist splashing water on his face in the bathroom

[papenesque]

i love. people. i love the beautiful ones (everyone), i love people who read, people who listen to music, people who speak, people who don't speak, people who bite their nails, people who overthink everything, impulsive people, shy people, confident people, and people who are everything in between. i love spectating life, a viewer in the cheap third stage seats with the bad view, observing, imitating, adoring. the beauty of individuality makes me giddy with excitement, with the vastness of it all. the world is a work in progress that everyone is participating in: how many paintings, buildings, love letters, photographs, keepsakes, have been created on this earth and left for us to find, particles of love left behind by those before us. i am in love with it all. to know me is to know the millions that i am. to love me is to love the world and all that is beautiful in it.

glory be to god for dappled things

[boywithskull]

Francis Abernathy is such a fantastic character to me, because he’s not outwardly violent like Charles, nor increasingly cold and self-serving like Henry, yet he is just as shallow. I often see the sentiment that his ending is so tragic and how he was forced into that unhappy, het marriage. As he expresses in his suicide letter, Francis ultimately succumbs to his own lack of moral strength and failure to act (“Forgive me for the things I did but mostly the ones I did not.”) Obviously I will acknowledge that the marriage situation was unfair — no one deserves to be ousted from their family for their sexuality. However, it really was not his only choice. Just as Richard comes to realise (and is quite disgusted by), Francis would rather remain trapped than have to get a job, provide for himself, and make his own life. It reminds me a lot of Julian’s ending, and how Richard says he could at least respect it if Julian had turned them in, since it would show some strength of character, but his running away only exposed how weak-willed he was all along. Perhaps Francis has a better moral compass than Henry, but his failure to use it renders him just as at fault for everything that happened. As always, Francis values his comfort over his happiness. That’s his fatal flaw.

[soulmvtes]

i know its the middle of summer when i have a breakdown about who i am and the passage of time