Labyrinthine

complex, intricate, mazy, tangled

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Try lang natin! Hahaha.

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Train to Busan

Woooh finally! Haha. Actually, we planned na manood nung Monday since its holiday, and walang classes. But, ayon di natuloy coz i got sick 😷 so we re-sched na lang ng Saturday, but fate was on our side haha lol.Wala kaming first class yesterday, and yung susunod is 6 pm pa. So we grab the chance na manood before the class starts. Haha.

Okay na sana eh, nakabili na sya ahead ng ticket kaso nalate ako hahaha. So di namin nasimulan yung movie. Saklap bes.

Yung part na , sumakay na sila sa train yung naabutan namin. The movie was so good. Hindi kami fan of horror movies but we both love yung may mga zombie. So we really enjoyed watching.

Ang ganda ng storyline, because andaming nafeature na stories, hindi lang sya about sa Zombie something, pero andun din yung father -daughter relationship, and yung sacrifices we make for the people we love.

Grabe lang bes.

At first, sarili lang yung iniisip. Yung wala kang pakialam kung anong mangyyari sa iba. But habang tumatagal you learn to value each other.

Gusto na naming umiyak sa sad part ng movie, kaso nga lang yung mga kasama namin sa theather ang ingay -.-“ nakakainis. Pero wala naman kaming magagawa that time. So we enjoyed the movie kahit na may mga magugulo.

It was fun, yung marinig namin yung expression ng ibang movie goers. Except lang talaga dun kay kuya na ubod ng ingay. Hahahaha.

Ang sarap ulitin ng ulitin. Worth it ang bayad bes. 💓💓💓

P.S. di ako magkkwento about sa mga nangyari sa movie. I dont want to spoil. I want you to feel every scene of the movie. 😛😛😘

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Hold my hand and never let it go .

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I just wanna be with you. Period. It doesn't matter where, as long as you hold my hand.

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Falling but not really.

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We could get quiet in between talks but silence doesnt matter..

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It felt like were next to each other even though were miles apart.

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LABEL

these past days have been so tough. as in super! i have been through a hard time, accepting, absorbing  everything that goes in my life at the moment. it was hard because , i wasn't prepared for it? and i wasn't really expecting it to happen.

so here it goes...

Labels...

labels are for things, aren’t they? i guess so.

 but lately ,i have realized labels has been used for humans too. we all have been labeled with different things, maganda man o hindi. masakit man o nakakatuwa. yes. labels have different effects sa ating lahat, it can motivate us. or it can pull us down

i have been labeled before.. and it was not a memorable experience but it thought me a lot.. and i wasn't expecting , that i will be labeled again with same title i was given before..

ano yun?

MALANDI.

I think girls would relate to this.

 being called "malandi" is hard to swallow most especially if you feel you didn’t really mean to be 'malandi" (you know what i mean? HAHA.) its like being misjudge.. you have been called something you are not and that what makes it painful.

for me, it was really painful. 

painful because i couldn’t explain myself? painful because it involves certain friends? painful because  i have been the “mean girl” and it was really painful because you got to hurt other people too because of the decisions i made due to this PAIN

and it was painful, this label... i am pertaining to, came from a friend. a friend that i was always telling or updating my life to.

i got mad.

i was blinded by my pain that i forgot what really matters..

and that is the fact that...

you can't please everybody

everything you do and you did not do, people will say what they want to say. and sometimes people judge by the level of their perception..

kung ano lang yung nakita nila, narinig nila o kung hanggang saan lang yung naintindihan nila.. yun na yun

people easily judge others, but they hardly see the fault in themselves.

and we all have personality issues... and it causes other people to pull each other down. 

life has been a competition it has been a series of competition between others. where in fact it should be a competition within ourselves we should always strive to be the better version of our past self.

and that is what i was trying to accept...

but this Friday.. my pain seems to have left me.. because i surrender everything to Him, to God. the Perfect one.

i was moved by every word.. by the songs i sang thru my heart.. i felt God's perfect love to an imperfect person like me. we all have are flaws. and we are not perfect, our lives has been a collection of  multiple failures.

but whatever we do.. we are always perfect through the eyes of God. kahit gaano pa kadilim ang present or ang past natin.. He always sees the brightest among those dark days. He always see the positive.. He accepts everything.. everything, flaws and all. physically, mentally or emotionally God sees , accepts and love us no matter what and whatever people label us... it doesn't matter to Him... because He is the only person who can judge us , He is the rightful one.

and when we feel that love? the perfect love.we feel perfect too, we feel amazing. we feel confident

and that's what makes all my pain go away,,

i cried because of the pain.. but it felt good to cry, because you are happy. because you felt God's blessing its like he is talking directly to me, telling me how amazing and lovable i am,

and because of that i wont settle for anything less.

Being loved by you Lord, is just so wonderful!

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A Letter to Myself

hi. kamusta ka na?

okay ka pa ba? 

Masaya ka na ba?

Ilang taon na rin no? ang dami ng nagbago sayo, Mula sa isang bata na walang alam kundi magstay sa bahay buong araw para magbasa , ngayon, you have become a lady. A lady of doubts... fear... a lady full of questions... naimagine mo ba na after 19 years of existence mag-eend up ka  sa kung nasaan ka ngayon?

Ngayon, sa harap ng laptop. nagbubuhos ng emosyon. 

 galit?  inis? o saya?

 aling emosyon ba ang nababagay sayo ngayon?

marami ka ng napagdaanan sa loob ng 19 years. may masaya, malungkot , nakakatakot at nakakaiyak ka nang experiences. at lahat ng yon ang naging pundasyon sa kung sino at ano ka ngayon. 

alam ko minsan nararamdaman mo na wala kang kwenta. na minsan naman pakiramdam mo gusto mo na lang mawala.. at madalas nararamdaman mong di ka pa sapat, di pa sapat mga ginagawa mo.. di ka sapat bilang ikaw...

nakakapagod na di ba? nakakpagod na maging ikaw. nakakapagod ng ibigay yung lahat mo sa mga taong di naman handa ibigay ang 100% nila sa iyo? o di kaya, sirain yung pagkakataon na maging parte ng buhay mo.. NAKAKAPAGOD.

ikaw kasi yung tipo ng tao na mas inuuna pa yung ibang tao kaysa yung sarili nya. YOU CARE TOO MUCH and LOVE TOO MUCH, masyado mong binibigay yung buong puso mo sa iba. kaya kita mo? dahil sa kakaganyan mo, nasaktan ka at pakiramdam ko masasaktan ka uli. at the end of the day, ikaw yung maiiwan with all the questions and doubts. alam kong madalas mong tinatanong ang sarili mo kung ikaw ba yung problema. kung ikaw ba yung may diperensya. ang hirap sagutin di ba? kasi kung ikaw lang, lugmok na lugmok ka na kakaisip,

minsan dumarating yung time na hindi mo alam ung saan ka ba lulugar. hirap kang magdesisyon, kasi ayaw mong may nasasaktan ka. ang hirap piliting balensehin lahat. kasi either way may negative pa rin talaga.

ikaw rin yung may ayaw na ikinukumpara ka sa iba, pero ikaw naman ang gumagawa nun sa sarili mo. down na down ka na. ang baba na ng tingin mo sa sarili mo, magtira ka naman ng konting appreciation sa sarili. 

ayoko ng pahabain pa to. kasi alam kong masakit na, para sayo to.

please maging masaya ka naman. yung totoong masaya. piliin mo naman maging masaya. 

wag kang mapagod mabuhay. darating yung panahon na maliliwanagan ka sa lahat ng to. maghintay ka lang

huwag kang sumuko. laban pa,

kayanin mo pa.

kasi laban mo lang to... ikaw lang...

magtiwala ka sa sarili mo,,,

be your own hero..

you will not be saved...

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Little Things

isang text message.. isang yakap…  a silly joke…one genuine smile from a stranger o kaya, yung may makapansin ng ayos mo.

  Yung mga simpleng bagay na to.. it makes you smile. right?  everyday in our daily lives, we are looking for things that will make us happy. One of man’s goal is to find happiness. Some are lucky enough to have already found what makes them happy and some are still trying to find or define what is happiness. 

Pero san nga ba mahahanap yung happiness na yan? 

Money can buy happiness (?)

   People have spent all their lives to be happy, and hindi lang time but money is well spent too. Its like happiness can be bought. .We have found happiness in our treasures.mapa- gadgets, clothes, bahay at lupa (ganun teh! agad agad haha) and etc , Nakakaramdam tayo ng sense of satisfaction kapag meron tayong bagong gamit or nabili natin yung matagal na nating gusto.and it means so much more kapag pinaghirapan mo talaga yung pera na pinambili mo. As like what my dad have said a few years back, “nakakawala ng pagod kapag nakikita mo yung bunga ng paghihirap mo” . Happiness isn’t just bought by money, Happiness is bought through hardwork.

Happiness = LOVE

 Love creates happiness in all of us. The feeling of being loved, the idea of falling into it makes us all jiggly and carefree.(sino bang di sasaya dun di ba?) Love is being appreciated , It is a feeling of acceptance,flaws and all. Love from your family. Love from friends. Love from someone special. Happiness has been defined by another person. Being happy meant being accepted and appreciated. It meant love. 

Happiness = SELF

    Eto siguro yung kokontra sa sinabi ko na “ Happiness has been defined by another person.” (haha. sinabi ko tapos kokontrahin ko rin -.-”) should we be dependent sa ibang tao para maging masaya?

My answer? 

No.

   We shouldn’t depend our happiness to others. Happiness can be established by one self. It starts within ourselves, with positivity, optimism and confidence. happiness within oneself starts with accepting that we are human beings. OO teh, tao ka lang. You are just one human being capable of doing mistakes or making bad choices in life. We are not perfect. and when you start to accept that fact, you will be contented. Self- appreciation, self -acceptance and self -contentment is what happiness means to an individual.

So anong meron sa “LITTLE THINGS” na title? 

hahaha. eto na. kalma. mahaba na ba?

HAPPINESS IS EVERYTHING UNDER THE SUN. 

HAPPINESS IS EVERYTHING. PERIOD.

    We should start to change our perspective of happiness. Happiness is not all about the big things. It isn’t always about financial stableness, or attaining the so called “relationship goals”. HAPPINESS IS THE LITTLE THINGS OF OUR EVERY DAY. 

Because at the end of the day those little things is all that matters. let us live our lives for the small things. Let all those good things pile up. It will make you live easier everyday. 

Happiness is achieved on a daily basis. We make our own happiness. happiness is right where you are. Accept where you are and what you are and make the best out of it. Make the most out of everyday of your life. There are so many reasons to be happy.

Find it. Feel it. Make it.

be crazy, be who you are. life is too short to be anything but happy.

be happy, the one who’s reading this . Because you deserve it

XOXO

Faith <3

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Mapapagod ka rin…. Tulad nila… Aalis ka rin.

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We meet. We talk. We become friends. I get attached. I fall. You don’t. We drift. We become strangers.

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People can be a source of hope or despair.

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P.A.A.S.A

Paasa.. Bakit? Hindi ko maintindihan kung paano mo nasabing paasa ako. Dahil ba naging mabait ako sayo? At namisinterpret mo yung kindness na yun? Siguro ganun talaga no? Kahit ano pang ikilos mo, o kaya sabihin may mga taong mammisinterpret yung ginagawa mo. Iwas na iwas akong masabihan ng ganyan. Kasi ang pangit pakinggan. Pero ano ba dapat gawin ko? Sungitan ka kahit ayaw ko? Maging mataray ako sayo? Hindi ka tulungan kapag may problems ka? Wag kang Damayan kapag nallungkot ka? Kasi mahirap gawin yang mga yan. Kasi sa simula pa lang, WE ARE FRIENDS. We we're... So I can't help to be nice at you. Pero eto na nga, we end up sa ganitong sitwasyon. Na ako tong paasa at ikaw yung pinaasa. Which I didn't expect. Because I made things clear , sinabi ko sayo na, I can't give love. Not now. Hindi ngayon kung kailan marami tayong priorities and obligations sa family and studies. Hindi ko kasi kayang pagsabayin. Pero sinabi mo nga, titigil ka na. After three years of waiting. You made your choice and I accept that. I thought that was the end. But you revealed something I didn't want to hear from you . something I didn't imagine you would do. Because you are (were) one of my best of friends. I have shared with you my life's ups and downs. My secrets, dreams and passions I opened them up to you. Because I trust you... Three years of friendship and why wouldn't I ? But I was wrong. I was wrong to have trusted you.. You invaded my privacy. I have handed you the weapon to break me. And you chose to do it. So, farewell my friend turned stranger. You're now somebody I would walk pass by.. I won't say hi because I know you wouldn't either. We will become strangers who met and just left each other with some memories. For now I'll be closing the doors. But I know you know where to find the key Question is..... Would you? Would you step up? Because I wouldn't .. I will just watch you and wait.