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Ah there is was, a little smile that made it all the more worth it. He as happy to finally see that maybe some words got through, or maybe she was faking it⌠but it was better than not knowing at all.
âThereâs nothing wrong with being weak, it would be a pretty scary world if everyone was strong and able to muscle through everything donât you think? But⌠I think things would be very different. But itâs not like we wouldnât be able to change with them. Maybe our families catch us up on everything, maybe the changes will be hard to accept for awhile but⌠we make it through. Eventually weâll get used to the new world weâre in. Maybe thatâs optimistic of me but⌠itâs not like weâd have any other choice right? We evolve, we adapt, we find a way. I donât think two years of radical change will break usâŚâ Â
That was relatively easy to answer, the second one question or rather the second set of questions⌠that was a bit more than the painter could reliably answer.
âHmm⌠well those kids were pretty nice to us at the start, and they warned us that going back might not be a good idea. So maybe this is supposed to be some kind of retreat for us? It only got turned into a killing theme park once Monokumi showed up. Maybe she showed us those things to make us want to kill⌠she said she hates us so maybe she or whoever she works for wants revenge for something we did? I donât know why the âhigher upsâ chose to spare Reizei-san, is he involved in this somehow? Like a spy or something? Or⌠ugh I donât know. Itâs hard to tell fact from fiction anymore⌠literally. Is this some fantasy world or a simulation? Are we dead or alive? Are we really⌠us? Or are we what we remember ourselves to be?â Â
So many questions and yet no real concrete answers. He wished he could abate Mayumiâs worries but they just kept on coming. Â
âWell sure I donât have to do this but I want to Mayumi-chan, câmon you really think that Iâd go around listening to peoples sad stories and worries because Iâm forced to do it? I care about you all, and as painful as it gets sometimes and it weighs on my hearts I think Iâd be worse off if I didnât at least check and make sure we were okay.â Â
But he ought to not overstep his boundaries. Â
âThat said, Iâll leave you to it. Wouldnât want to miss you making a miracle menu item after all. Iâll be off, I do have a few other people to check on but if you ever got any questions or anything, Iâll be around. I might be wandering to take some time off for myself but Iâll be around.â
He gives one last chipper smile before turning on his heels and heading for the exit. Though something seems to stick in his head that forces him to stop before completely leaving.
âOh and uh⌠sorry about what happened at the end of the trial. I know you donât like anyone but uh⌠it was the wrong place and wrong time for that sort of display to happen. And uh⌠Wakana-chan will be coming around to say the same.â Â
Well he didnât know that actually, but if Arisa came around and asked things like that then he needed to make sure that his basses were covered.
âSo⌠no hard feelings on that right?â
God he felt like such a jerk right now.
âYouâre really optimistic about all of it... Iâm kinda jealous. Youâre not really wrong, though... I guess once we leave we donât really have any c-choice. We have to... we just have to try and fit back in, right?"
She got up, took a deep breath, smacked her face and then turned to find her knife and bring it to the sink and start cleaning it off.
â......but... while weâre here... I think maybe youâre right. Maybe... Monokumi hates us? Maybe all of this is... revenge. But if it is... I wish theyâd at least let me remember what I did, rather than... tease it all out like this. This is... too cruel. Itâs just too much, no matter what happened.â
She grabbed a sponge and turned on the water, pausing slightly and turning her face away as Jito got to the awkward part of the conversation, clearly stiffening up.
âIt.... Wakana-kun doesnât have to apologize, and you donât really, either, I guess. Y-youâre right--I donât like anyone. Itâs not--you were both just relieved, or something, right? I-itâs not a big deal to me, and itâs fine if you guys wanna kiss more and stuff.â
From behind, her ears were burning red.
â..........youâre really nice to everyone... sometimes, itâs like you feel like you have to be nice to everyone. So... you donât really have to be. Itâs alright if you donât. And... you can just... do things because you want to, and be selfish, and... not worry about everyone else, sometimes.â
â...I told you, didnât I? Y...youâre really, totally not cool at a-all. So... I donât care much about it all.â
â.....if you come back tomorrow, Iâll h-have something for you to eat, so we wonât have to do all this again.â