this isn't really doing what I hoped it would
so it would happen that writing down the things that freak me out and my worries and concerns and neuroses doesn't really help me feel better about it. it actually just makes me more aware of those things and causes me to spend more time thinking about them. which is great. maybe it would work within the framework of someone helping me deal with those problems, but without it I'm just getting worked up about them. so yeah. I don't think I'm going to do this anymore. also, I find myself self0censoring for fear that I'll tell someone about this. blah.












