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INFJ / fluent in silence

[happylittlehermit]

This Floridian is officially moving to Seattle in June!!!

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how has this girl not blown up yet!? only 19 and releases this banger? crazy debut, feels like three songs in one. I cannot stop listening

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self expression is a beautiful thing, a thing I have not yet mastered

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I hope it goes really well for you and is everything you hope it will be and that the challenges simply end up being growing experiences that you look back upon fondly.

Aw, thank you! What I kind thing to say.

[happylittlehermit]

How is Seattle?

Haven’t moved yet! Flying out in April to tour apartments :)

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latest beach house banger I’m obsessed with

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Notified leasing office that I won’t be renewing my lease ✅

Started to pack up items I don’t use daily and created a donation pile ✅

Ordered some packing supplies ✅

Started to list items to sell on FB marketplace ✅

Bought my flight to Seattle to tour apartments in April ✅

Took off from work ✅

Shit is getting real, folks. 🌝

[happylittlehermit]

That feeling when the rest of your meetings for the week get cancelled 🤩🎉💃🏻

[dark-romantics]

~ Augusto Cury

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Rue and I wish everyone who comes across this post a very happy new year 🎆 🐶💜

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Ethiopian jazz may be my new favorite sub genre of music.

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After what has felt like the longest day of work, I’ve never felt more excited to take an edible and rot in bed for the rest of the night, oh my god. Maybe I’ll finish watching Asteroid City but I kind of want to rewatch Carol and The End of The World. That’s how good it was.

So grateful to have the next five days off too. I feel like the short xmas break did almost nothing to cure my burnout. Time to recenter myself, create a vision board for 2024, and figure out what the next 8ish weeks are going to look like. :)

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I may be on an Ottessa kick 🌝

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Ive been mulling it over the past few days, trying to figure out where the best place to move to would be, turning to places like Reddit for guidance, even considering living out of airbnbs for the foreseeable future until I make a commitment somewhere, when the answer is honestly so obvious (if you know me).

Washington.

Reasons why this makes sense:

I have family there, so I wouldn’t be totally alone.

In the last 8 years or so I’ve visited twice, so I’m somewhat familiar with the area that I’m considering.

I love it. Absolutely, wholeheartedly love Washington state. I have always felt at home there, more than I have ever felt in Florida. Maybe it’s the foliage and backdrop of mount Rainier. Maybe it’s the overcast skies and seaside views. Maybe it’s just something in the air. I don’t know. For some reason or another, I have always felt myself pulled there.

Cons, maybe:

This would be a huge move. I mean it’s literally across the country. Although I’m a very self reliant person, being that far away from my family makes me slightly anxious. Only slightly. Still. This isn’t really a reason not to go for it. I know I can do it and I’d be fine.

Work. I would have to change my hours to 7am to 3pm which honestly doesn’t sound so bad seeing as how rue has me awake at nearly 5am every day anyway. This is doable and a few of my coworkers actually do this. Plus, I would have the afternoons to myself.

Story time: this move was actually suppose to happen when I was 22. My parents (well my mom specifically) and I weren’t getting along at the time and after my first visit of the state and finding myself absolutely enamored, I announced to them that I would be moving across the country. I remember the looks they gave me, how small and guilty they made me feel for wanting to experience something different, so guilty that they managed to talk me out of it altogether.

But maybe this move was suppose to happen now. At time where I’m much more confident within myself, much more responsible. I’ve done harder things before, much harder things, and have always survived. I can do this. Also, I’m nearly 30, what my parents think or say about my decisions shouldn’t and hasn’t had any weight for awhile.

[bread-lowph]

😭 (source: https://www.newyorker.com/culture/the-new-yorker-interview/jon-fosses-search-for-peace)

[happylittlehermit]

The lease on my apartment that I’ve lived in for three years now ends in March. I don’t intend to renew, as I’ve outgrown the space and my Rue deserves more, but I have no idea where to go next. I have about 70 days to make a decision.

The safest option, and the option my parents desperately want me to take, the option I hate the most, is to move to the city where they reside and get an apartment with my sister, who I hardly have a relationship with. The only benefit I see here is that my monthly expenses would be reduced slightly. My mental health would suffer greatly. I also know in my heart that this isn’t the right move for me. I need my space, independence. It’s where I thrive.

The next option is to remain in the city I live in and find another, slightly larger, apartment where my work, living, sleeping, and kitchen space aren’t all blended together. I cannot do a fourth year of that. Nothing holds me back from doing this. The only reservations I have is that I’m so tired of the area I’m in and a change of scenery would do amazing things for my mental health.

The final option is the dream option. The scariest option. The one I’ve always wanted. The one that’s finally within reach. Moving out of Florida and away from everything I’ve ever known. Finally. Only thing is…I’m experiencing intense analysis paralysis here. Where the fuck do you go when you can go, in theory, anywhere?

Universe, please give a girl a sign. 😪

[happylittlehermit]

romanticizing my life wherever I can