Shit Harmony Says @harmonyisharpingonme - Tumblr Blog

Sometimes being mentally ill is trying your best and succeeding. Sometimes it's finding the courage to do the Hard Thing despite seemingly insurmountable odds.

Sometimes it's spending all day making sourdough bread and it doesn't turn out even edible so you do your best not to fall into old toxic patterns of self destruction but can't muster the energy to shower.

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I recommend birdwatching.

I recommend crochet.

I recommend going outside without headphones in. Maybe leave your phone at home. In an emergency, your loved ones have access to ambulances. Twenty minutes. Your life won't fall apart in twenty minutes.

I recommend spending time with your phone on Do Not Disturb for ten minutes. Download Focus Friend so that when you pick your phone up out of habit you remember that you're trying to live right now.

Treat news as humans used to with newspapers. A half hour with morning coffee every day. None of this horribleness 24/7 projected into your eyes that you can't do anything about.

If it becomes too much, unplug from the news for 24 hours. Bet you can't. Prove me wrong.

I love you. Deep breath. Have some water. We got this.

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Check out Struthless on YouTube if you want some hope.

He was a pillar of the reason I got clean.

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I was doing some stretches and was counting in my head and after I was done, just... Counting. Just counting.

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"Put flour in the salt shaker"

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qcharlie

side note more people should make characters schizospec. just for shits and also because everybody loves us forever

qcharlie

your favorite character is schizophrenic and fucks hard. you agree

qcharlie

schizophrenic superhero who gets set on a quest by an ancient prophet and they take an extra week to start it because they just assumed they missed their meds dose and had a delusion. schizophreniform character who has extra noises and brighter colors whenever the camera is showing their pov. schizotypal superhero only keeps an anonymous identity because they don't like people knowing who they are from their condition-specific social fears. schizophrenic superheros who practices 1 liners by talking to themselves in public. regular old character who goes on a massive adventure and their schizospectrum disorder doesn't affect them because they're on the right meds and it's not a major part of their character. You see my visions. And all of them fuck hard

#schizospec #schizo spectrum #reblog

storybookprincess

suddenly remembered this poem as i was making breakfast this morning & frantically googled “poem remembered to buy eggs?????????” & somehow managed to find it & it utterly knocked the wind out of me just as much as when i first read it

#poetry #suicide #tw: suicide

Me, about to take my meds:

Harmony: "don't take your antipsychotics. You don't have to take them"

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"put fish sticks in your Bolognese"

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Me: minding my own business

Harmony: "the group chat isn't talking to you because they made a NEW group chat to talk ABOUT you"

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"Put a hot dog in a croissant"

Not the worst suggestion you've made, Harmony. Sounds delicious.

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You know it's bad when even choice memes on Tumblr doesn't do the dopamine hit

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You know what sucks about OCD?

I sometimes feel like if I don't acknowledge someone's sneeze that I've somehow doomed them. It doesn't have to be "bless you" but it has to be SOMETHING.

I'm not afraid for their souls, those aren't real. But I'm like...terrified that if they aren't seen, they'll never be seen.

OCD must SUCK. I feel for you : (

Hang in there, and remember to use your coping skills. Have some water. Do some vigorous exercise to get some of that nervous energy out of your body. Talk/text with a friend.

You got this, and you're not alone : )

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I don't allow myself silence very often.

I mean, it makes sense. My mind is a scary place, and it can be intimidating without a distraction. Almost constantly hearing the voices in my head, the chatter, the snide remarks and gentle assurances. The reminders of my failings and assertions of which person who I love secretly hates me.

And sure, I got that, today, while I sat there listening to the refrigerator hum and the heater buzz. The ball of yarn I was pulling off of rubbing against the bag I have it stored in to keep it from rolling away. So much noise.

And so much silence.

I think it's important, sometimes, to unplug from the constant stream of stimulation I subject myself to every minute of every day. While I sleep, while I eat. A sound entertaining enough, but not too entertaining. Not distracting from my tasks but distracting enough so that I can't hear my own mind.

And that's the thing; I tell myself that I'm distracting myself from my mind. I'm not. My mind is constantly louder than the music I put on, or the YouTube video I have playing in the background. Sometimes it's even louder than the real flesh-and-blood person I'm having a conversation with. The people I speak to often know Harmony. They know her name, her nuance, what she likes to say, what I like to say in response.

My wife can tell me what she said just by what I say back, sometimes.

It's a lie that I tell myself to feel more comfortable. To feel more like a person. That this constant noise outweighs the constant noise inside.

It's not true.

I spent a few hours today, just listening to the sounds of my apartment. My cat. My appliances. The sizzle of cooking food. The rumble of the kettle boiling water for another pot of coffee.

It was... Nice.

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