Love Me Goodbye
Have you ever thought about someone that you love the most? I’ve thought about it a lot actually. Since I was forced to move to move to the states, I had to say goodbye to the love of my life who I broke his heart. It wasn’t my plan to break his heart. That day, I was going to accepted his offer of marrying him. We were going to get married because I was pregnant with his child. Of course we were young to get married but we knew each other since per-k and we started dating when we were in middle school.
We had it all planned out till my parents found out about our plans they forced me to break up with him and tell him that I never loved him. Which wasn’t true. I loved him with all my heart. I still love him today. It still hurts seeing the look on his face when I told him those lies. I wanted to tell him that I didn’t mean it and that it was all set up by my parents but if I were to do that, I would lose my baby. It was hard to chose between love and a child. But I chose the child over love.
Thinking that when I’m older, I will go back and live our lives like it was before. One day I got a hold of his number and called him just to hear his voice. Nobody answered so I waited till I heard his voice threw his voicemail which brought tears to my eyes. Boy how his voice has changed. I can just remember when he was beginning to hit puberty. I can still remember the first time that we met. I was seating by myself doing homework and then a curly haired boy comes overs and asks if he could sit next to me and thats how we became friends.
“Mummy? I want to visit daddy.” said a curly head little boy. I gave him a weak smile. He doesn’t know that his daddy is touring the world and that doesn’t know that he is a father. I never got the chance to tell him that. I regret on not telling him because when he does find out he ain’t going to be happy and very upset. “Baby, daddy is very busy with work.” I said to him. His eyes got sad. I know he wants to see him so badly. I miss him and want to see him badly as well. I remember one time I called his phone just to hear his voice and I wasn’t expecting him to answer the call.
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I picked up my phone and dialed his number for the third time this week. It ranged and ranged, then i heard a voice I thought I’d never hear. “Hello?” he said threw the phone. I was to scared to anything mostly was I didn’t know what to say for the most part. “Hello?” He said again but this time a little more meaner. “I know your there I can hear you breathing. Who is this?” this was my chance. “Hi. Harry. It’s been forever since I heard your voice.” I said. There was silence on the other line. I began to think that he hung up. “You there?” I asked to him. I heard shuffling then a door closed on the other end.
“Who is this?” He asked again. Well here goes nothing. “This is Becca, Harry.” “Becca? I don’t know any Becca’s.” I groaned, I forgot that my parents changed my name when we moved so nobody can find me if they went looking for me. “That you do. Um do you remember a girl named Taylor?” “Yes. I remember her. Why are you asking?” “It’s Taylor.” the line went silent yet again. “Before you go asking if this really is me, yes it’s really me. We were best friends well dating when I left four years ago. You were going to ask me to marry you before I broke your heart.” I paused. I can feel the tears coming but took deep breathes to calm myself down.
“T-Taylor?” I heard him whisper. I smiled weakly. “Yes Harry it’s me.” I can hear sobbs coming from the other end. “H-how you been? I’ve been looking for you. I thought I lost you.” I chuckled a lot. “I’ve been better. I know. I’d seen all the papers. You don’t know how much I wanted to call you, but I couldn’t.” This is going well than I excepted. “Taylor it isn’t that hard to pick up your phone and told me you were alive.” If only he knew how much I wanted to call him before my parents took my phone. “I tried calling. Every time I tried my parents took my phone away.” I can tell he was confused about how my parents. “I know your probably thinking why my parents were an issues. It’s hard to explain over phone.”
“Well can we met somewhere or go out for a coffee?” My mood shifted when he wanted to go out. “Yeah, sure. Just text me the details.”
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Every since that conversation, my mood shifted from depressed to excited to be seeing Harry again after four years. I didn’t tell him about Aiden yet because I don’t know what he will do. But Aiden is going with me when we go meet Harry tomorrow. Aiden has no idea that he will be meting his dad tomorrow and I plan on keeping it an surprise. Aiden comes running into my room like he seen a ghost. “What’s wrong buddy?” he looked up at me with tears in his eyes. “Mummy? Does daddy love me?” my heart broke. “Of course he does. He loves you very much. Why would you ask such a thing?” he cuddled into my chest. “Daddy is never home. I miss him and I want to see him.” I shhhed him bringing him closer to my chest.
“Baby, like I said earlier that daddy is very busy. I miss him too. Let’s get some sleep. We have a big day ahead of us.” I tuck us under the blankets and turned off the light.
