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vent acc. they/them agender lesbo who's ame, cassie, ari (c09) and melinda sordino in disguise

[i--dontcare]

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[harushiia]

23.10.2025

coming back here feels like the calmest way of relapse. my small night light hitting the walls in the dark as i type in a state where a feel of emptiness ... tumblr hits different in the dark, you know ? i feel so empty nowadays. losing a huge part of myself-- my girlfriend, my love-- is definitely a part of it. I mean, how could someone say they loved me and would marry me and never leave me, just leave me? Do they still love me? or did they lose interest. I could've been a better and less insecure partner, but nooo i just can't fking shut up. everyday i come to school, feeling empty, feeling like a hollow hole is crawling into my throat and heart. the only reason i like going to school is because i don't have to think about how alone i feel without her and i don't have to think about food either. without her, my life feels too free. It made me open my eyes to the fact that i'm in the real world. I feel like a flower that hasn't been watered and left to wither. like a building that was being constructed but got abandoned midway. like an assignment that never got finished. like a drawing that failed to meet the expectations of the artist so it was torn out of the book. I didn't want to feel like this or that anymore, I want it all gone. but i want to make some nice last impressions before it all. I miss feeling loved and thinking I had a future, at least a good one. I miss fantasizing about her and it feeling real. I love her, still. I lied, i can't move on.

[umaimiau]

[snjhp]

[danielwaldorf]

Leighton Meester as Blair Waldorf in Gossip Girl Season 1 Episode 11, "Roman Holiday"

[harushiia]

sk1nn1

i love the feeling of feeling my collarbones and people noticing my changes and worrying for me. I love the attention ...

[samywings]

i hate food. i hate being fat. food is just a temporary pleasure. it’s like being in a toxic relationship. i wish i could be skinny. skinny like the other girls. thighs the same size as their legs. perfect waist. clothes that fit. a world that loves and respects you.

[cagelabyrinth]

[harushiia]

back again

back to create more chaos

[m11anaelia1]

The feeling of sucking in the stomach from hunger is just so comforting god

I wish i could be hungry forever

[the-real-loser-otaku-girl]

jirai media recommendations (feel free 2 suggest more)

some r still ongoing btw

-Young Adult Matters

movie (2021)

tw: sh, substance abuse, bullying, violence, gore, prostitution, death, sa, homelessness, sexual content, abuse, profanity, unwanted pregnancy (prob more im forgetting)

-Tomorrow I’m gonna be someone’s girlfriend

manga (2019-2024) and tv show (2022-2023)

tw: sh, profanity, sexual content, violence, substance abuse (again prob more im forgetting)

-Kairiki Bear

musician

song suggestions: darling dance, bug, failure girl, villain

-Isana

musician

song suggestions: Menhera Janai Mon!, Loved Smoothie

-Sensitive Boy

manga (2022-2024)

tw: sexual themes, sa, sh, violence (prob more i still need 2 read it ngl)

-Sentimental Death Loop

video game (2023)

tw: death, partial nudity, sexual themes, profanity, sh, suicide, violence, gore,

-Needy Streamer Overload

game (2022)

tw: sh, sexual themes, violence, substance abuse, blood, profanity, death, cults, vomiting (prob more that im forgetting)

-Strawberry Painkiller

musician

song suggestions: Bloodsucking Dreams, Grave Skull, Thousand Knives, Sugar Truth, Pharmakeia

-Candye Syrup

musician

song suggestions: idol of death, sweet suicide, C♡S.I.S

-Hookah Haze

game (2024)

tw: death, terminal illness, stalking, substance abuse (its just hookah im pretty sure but still gonna include the warning lmao)

-Magical Girl Site

anime (2018) and manga (2014-2019)

tw: bullying, violence, suicide, abuse, blood (prob more i havent finished it)

feel free 2 suggest more! out of all of these i suggest young adult matters, kairiki bear, nso, and strawberry painkiller the most!

[oph3liaaa]

Our game “Love Angel Syndrome” is finally out on itch.io !!

Check it out and follow us on @LilyByteStudios on twt for more info. 🎀

[harushiia]

Yuuna sprites coz yes

[machi40h]

[malama-art]

CUBISM

[girlcalledwhatsername]

This shouldn't even be need to be said but don't fucking report people who express being suicidal. I don't care how much you think you're doing it for someone's own good, it does NOT help us it only harms further

READ that AGAIN

You are ACTIVELY harming those people when you try to be a goody two-shoes and tell on them when they get suicidal

Don't fucking report them to social media app features that have the report for self harm option. Don't fucking call a suicide hotline on them. Don't fucking report them to therapists, paychiatrists, cops, controlling parents or partners

It does not matter how uncomfortable it makes you - this isn't ABOUT you - it doesn't matter how much it goes against your cute little saviour complex thinking you're being oh such a wonderful kind heroic person by "saving" someone from themself.

When you report a person to any of those places it heavily risks hospitalisation and incarceration. Where I live it's technically still a crime to attempt suicide, they never overturned the law. And if you think being in a ward might help them - do everyone a favour and go check out the actual conditions in the wards and talk to psych survivors about how they actually are. Otherwise shut up about things you have no experience with.

Everyone should have a right to autonomy, especially bodily autonomy, and you don't have to like what they do with their own body for you to know not to take that away from someone. It's not your place to judge, it's not okay to be moralistic about bodily autonomy suddenly because you can't handle the reality of mentally ill people.

And it's not fucking okay to lock us in and remove us from society just because our disorders are too fucking ugly for you to look at.

If you absolutely have to help just talk to a suicidal person if they're up to it, just ask them what will help, and if you can't do that then leave us the fuck alone you snitches

And don't come at me with the law, if you had to be an ally to mentally ill people, to queer people, to women, to any kind of marginalised people, historically a lot of it has always included standing against the law and with us.

STOP REPORTING US

[bloodigutz]

people are still wearing those paper clothes for weeks straight even if they rip or get stained, and ppl still think wards help?? they never have. it's no different to when they had us in museums for the public to stare at.