Beaches, BeneTint && Buttercup

My 3 Great Loves. This Is The Beginning.

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After The Ball & Beyond

Hello, I was on hiatus for health reasons and lack of laptop. my motherboard fried and died. but anywhoo...

we left off at the ball, it was beautiful and magical yada yada.....

2 days after the ball on November 23, 2015 Jerry was diagnosed with a stage 4 cancerous brain tumor, a Gliobastoma.

we went to San Francisco and he underwent treatment, we had a ball getting to know each other again. we wined and dined... we sight saw it was so much fun.

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On March 23, 2017 Jerry Took his last breath.

I loved him to the very end.

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Hellur!! I know it’s been AGES it seems, I know the 3 readers who actually follow me have been waiting. but jumping right in, it’s that time again that's right!! Dun Dun Duun, BALL SEASON!! 

What We Wore:

Buttercuppy!!*: Styling a New and Improved Dress Blue Uniform Complete With Blood Stripe && Chevron && a Sparkly New EGA Buckle && New Leather Cover. (Not Shown)

Me’Lisa Lashon: Custom Ankara Dress By Legaci Clothing, My Shoes, from Forever 21 Ages Ago. Clutch && Hair Jewelry By Claire's Accessory Store. Arm Decor, Flash Tatts! Yes Y’all, They’re Fake. I Loved Them && This Dress!! I LOOOOOOOVEE This Dress.

I got the idea from @mindofkye on IG. Her dress inspired my dress && it was (IMPO) the most creative dress at the ball. I loved dancing with my husband && a few friends. I had a Ball!!

Last Words:

Me’Lisa Lashon:

I Can’t Wait For Next Year’s Ball

Buttercuppy!!*

Ball was dope, wife's dress came out perfect so that's all that really matters. Had a fun time even though we were fashionably late but the important people didn't notice. Definitely had a blast with me and my boys and it way better than last year.

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WELCOME BACK LOVE.

HOLY CRAP ITS BEEN A GOOD LONG WHILE SINCE I LAST WROTE. I’M WRITING IN CAPS ONLY BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE IT AND I CANT SEE THAT WELL,I WONT BE WEARING MY NEW CONTACTS UNTIL THE BALL WHICH IS 2 WEEKS AND SOME CHANGE. MUCH HAS CHANGED BETWEEN BUTTERCUPPY!!* AND MYSELF, WE’VE GOTTEN BETTER BY SO MUCH. THE STEPPING’ OUT HAS CEASED AND WE TALK MORE ABOUT OUR FEELINGS AD WHAT NOT. I KNOW THE 3 POSSIBLE READERS ARE LIKE “WHY YOU STAY’? BUT WE ARE MARRIED AND I DON’T BELIEVE IN DIVORCE, NEITHER DOES HE. ALSO I KNOW I WANT A LOVE THAT LASTS. LASTING LOVE ISN'T PERFECT AND NEITHER ARE WE. ALOT OF FOLKS WANT A LOVE THAT LASTS LIKE THEIR GRANDPARENTS BUT DONT REALIZE THAT THE LOVE THEIR GRANDPARENTS HAD WAS NOT PERFECT. YOUR GRANNY HAD OUTSIDE KIDS SHE RAISED AS HER OWN. THE KEY IS TALKING AND HAVING AN UNDERSTANDING OF WHATS NEEDED AND WHATS NOT. INSTEAD OF BUYING A NEW HOUSE FOR A BROKEN BULB, I DECIDE TO GET NEW BULBS AND LIGHT FIXTURES.

THE BALL IS APPROACHING AND I AM READY. JUST DOING SMALL MINUTE DETAILS, LIKE GET MY NAILS AND HAIR DONE,I’M ALSO THINKING OF GETTING MY LASHES DONE.

MY DRESS IS CUSTOM MADE AND ABSOLUTELY AMAZING I CANT WAIT TO SHOW YOU GUYS.

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your beliefs

i believe in magic and all possibilities. i dont believe in white jesus. i believe in egyptian and greek gods.

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a moment

a moment of what? a moment can change absolutely everything. everything can change in a moment.

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your bestfriend

i have 2. my sister and icey. they're mine and not yours and absolutely perfect. i love them girls to the death of me. they're hilarious and awesome moms. we can all just be. ya know. i miss that a lot out here. 

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your day

my day was pretty chill. im training at my new job. its decent. i mean actually im not happy but the check is better than my last jobs checks. i guess that's the price you pay to make someone else happy. i get an hour for lunch and its right behind the mall so im reliving my mall rat days as well as frequently eating hot dog on a stick. i really like that place.

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a few missed days

so i missed a few days. i started a new job and was training so i didn't have the energy to muster write even speak English correctly. im about to just blog vomit all the ones i missed. so get ready for that.

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your definition of love

my definition of love... unconditional, and faithful. period. 

its simple really. like so simple.

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what you ate today

so far... cookies. I ate 3 cookies. I’ve had water as well.

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your parents

my momma is my everything. EVERYTHING. ALL THINGS. THE ONLY THING. shes beautiful, vulgar, sexy, funny, shady, religious, crazy, scary and just life. she perfect to me. like literally.

my daddy did drugs and chose them over his family. fuck him. high key. we don't talk but maybe 2 times a year. his birthday. even though he aint call me for mine ever. the other time is just a call to see if he still alive. aint like he got much to give in death. he remind me of the one line “...and when he died all he left us was alone...”

my stepdad made me hard. he made me callus. he drank and was violent. he was abusive. I got so many bruises those years. He did get better. after my momma left him. I’m glad tho. we get along now tho. were very much alike. were both hardened by life and tend to only look out for us and those closest to us. He definitely good people to have on your team tho.

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NEVER EVER FORGET.

B2K. 

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Awwww look at them

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Memories

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My cousin had too many posters of them lol

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BECAUSE. REASONS RAZ-B’S LIPS AND J-BOOG’S HAIR AND OMARIONS NAME BELT AND LIL’ FIZZ’S  OVERBITE TYPE REASONS. 

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your first love

Harrison. My First Love. Black Love Perfected. His Little Gap Tooth Smile. His Accent. He Would Make Love To My Mind Daily. Foreplay Was An All Day Thing. He Made Brushing His Teeth the sexist shit ever. i mean my god that man was a fucking god. he was beautiful, smart and a poet and he loved god. he loved me. i loved him. it was true. I was his world. his rib. he told me how He prayed for me. i never had a man pray for me. hell I haven't nothing that special and spectacular since. He is my One regret. He’s the reason I fight for things i want. I didn't fight for us. I should have. I wish I Had. I Giggle at How My Life would be different if we shoulda coulda woulda...

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introduce yourself.

My Name is Me’Lisa (Mah+Lee+Sah) im 26, Married && Thats It.

Theres Nothing Special about me. I Love words. always Have. I love My Skin. i mean my melenin is magnificent. its absolutely stunning. i love big sweaters, deadpool and harley quinn. tigger is my favorite character. i love to cook and eat. i used to paint. i miss it a lot. i just temporarily misplaced my creativity. i live in hawaii. its beautiful and terrible. i love sayings like that. a beautiful and terrible thing. that describes my life.

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words

you ever sit back and realize that the word love is completely and utterly misused every single second? like if you say it enough it means nothing after awhile. its just a empty carcass filled with lies of forever...

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Jesus I Missed Tumblr.