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[hatemeto]

[hatemeto]

[untamedunwanted]

“Learn to give people up before they hurt you beyond repair. Even if they tell you they will change. Even if they tell you that they love you. Just remember, love isn’t meant to be permanently damaging. Love is meant to aid your healing.”

— Nikita Gill

[accidental-muse]

the truth is

god knows I am as flawed as anyone, but the truth is really important to me. like it’s probably the most fundamental basis of my entire personal ethical structure. i’ve talked a lot about it. this blog’s existence, when i started it to account a relationship years ago, it was based on the principle of honesty, above all. with myself first and foremost, but with anyone reading it, too. how I feel about the truth is probably why I also deeply abhor and distrust a person who lies, or who justifies for those who do. to me, a capacity for honesty or lying is first on my checklist on a person’s character, and whether or not I want them anywhere near my life. it’s a very simple equation that requires no extra, bullshit pontification or unnecessary complicating of the matter. i’m a smart, intuitive girl, and I will always find the lie.

most days, i show up here. primarily now, i post things that make me laugh. i want those things to make you laugh, too. 

but sometimes, especially over the past couple of months, when i fill my blog up with those absurd and stupid things, it’s not because i want to laugh. it’s because i am trying so desperately not to feel the rest. because everything else hurts so fucking much that it goes beyond the telling of it. 

so, this is what i know how to do, and, here’s a truth:

i feel like there’s a hole in my heart, every single day.  i wake up in the mornings and i put my best foot forward. i’m acutely aware of what i’m missing the goddamn second i open my eyes, and it takes every ounce of my energy to fight against letting the heartbreak of that knock me right back down into bed.  i don’t have a lot of stamina right now. my sleep is noisy and busy and full of erratic dreams and what feel like universal messages and even if i sleep for nine hours, it doesn’t matter, it will feel like i only slept for two, if that. i get on with the business of living regardless, but the truth is i do it through this.

i thought this was all improving, that i was healing, but the truth is, it’s gotten worse. it’s a grief that keeps growing, expanding, like it’s a kind of breathing entity. and i’ve felt like i’ve been living in some state of grief since 2015, until i worked my way own out of that and arrived at a place where i could feel proud of that work, and what remained of those dark clouds finally parted last winter and bloomed into something that felt otherworldly and beautiful and full of eventual promise. something that i chose, and all of my part in the responsibility that comes with that.

the truth is, the holes in my heart, in those very different but specific person-sized shapes, they aren’t closing. they just keep getting bigger. i feel like i’m missing an entire chunk of my soul, and other times as if half of it is being poisoned, and the truth is, it’s the worst feeling in the world. there are days that it feels like a deeply, debilitating, physical ache, and i don’t know what to do about it. and on the worst days, it makes me feel more desperately sad and exhausted than i think i’ve ever felt before, especially when it runs up against everything I said in the first paragraph of this.

today, and to be perfectly honest, most days lately, that’s what the truth is.

and i’ll probably just come back here in a minute and post something funny. please know that i do that because i truly love laughing, not only for the escape of it, but because feeling joy is one of the most inherent and true parts of me, and it’s a part of me i love sharing. 

i don’t want you to shy away from laughing with me, because of everything else i expressed in this.

but, i did need (which is very different than “want”) to say something about what the truth is.

thanks for hearing me.

[hatemeto]

What I do for fun

[naturaekos]

“I think it’s important to realize you can miss something, but not want it back.”

— Paulo Coelho

[poetryatmost]

“How foolish of me- to expect to be loved for who I was, and not what I was.”

— Poetry At Most

[late-nights-and-daydreams]

“I could never blame you for destroying me, because I’m the one who let you do it.”

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[hatemeto]

That’s what’s up!!

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Savannah

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Savannah area

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Savannah

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Whoo, Savannah!!

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[hatemeto]

Savannah

[sunflorally]

if they loved you, they would change their hurtful, bad behavior the first time you asked. if they didn’t, they’re going to keep doing it and keep taking advantage of the fact that you believe they will. they’re using your feelings to their advantage, which is toxic and manipulative. the best apology is changed behavior, and if they aren’t willing to give that to you, you should probably let them go.

[hatemeto]

Friaday finally here after long week

[moondust-and-dreams]

“I can’t bring myself to look into the eyes that saw everything I was and decided it wasn’t enough,”

15:00 - I was never enough, was I? (moondustanddreams)

[hatemeto]

[hatemeto]

Sometime I wonder will I ever grow up

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Functional tweakers with jobs

Does anyone else handle their shit?!

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Yep

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Fuck yeah highly functional member of society by day tweaker by night

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Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!! note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignore Number 3 You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. So wherever you go always you have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something.. You will not get anything without hardwork! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others. Generally you are not a cool person. It’s not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone’s attitude then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. 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But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kind of looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family & friends . If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further… Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5 !!! note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignore Number 7 You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above. You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life. Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime. It’s probably the Lord given you all sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don’t, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok? You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person.. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!! Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!! note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignore Number 8 You are a very strong personality, there’s no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say “this is what”. You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life. The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others. Well. once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and you! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems such as : the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents. You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!! note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignore Number 9 Hey…you guys are the incompatibles people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally… You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life.. But when you achieve what you have done, it’s always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off. You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children. Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice. You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration. Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2

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accurate..

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