MoonDust

All original poetry written by myself - please ask before posting on other media. Words for the ones who feel weak, the ones who feel alone, the ones who need someone to put into words exactly how they feel. I understand, and it will be ok.

[moondust-and-dreams]

“I’m staring at the wall and I’m trying to remember the shape of your lips and the shade of your eyes, and exactly where the freckle on your nose is. But all I can see is the cracks on my wall blurring into many, and all I can feel is the ache in my throat as I try not to wake anyone with the sound of my heartbreak,”

23.12.20 22:49 - I miss you. (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“The reason we hold onto someone for as long as we can, even when they’re not in our lives, is because they are a part of who we are. If we let them go, that part of us dies. And isn’t that what life is all about? Trying to survive at all costs? Even if it breaks our heart over and over again?”

18:20 - If we let them go, we think we die along with the memories too (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“When you finally let someone go fully, it’s not a sudden release. It’s silent and gentle, like falling asleep and waking to realise that your grip has loosened on something you thought was your lifeline. It goes unnoticed, until suddenly you’re looking back for the first time in months and remembering the pain that used to latch onto your heart. But this time you turn away and no longer linger on what once was, taking another step forward without even realising you’ve lifted your foot,”

(22:46) - And that is when you finally breathe again (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“You don’t miss what you never had, right? So how is it possible I miss you with every inch of my soul, even though I never truly had you?”

19:18 - I’m missing you again, and it hurts just like it used to (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“You were a monster. One with eyes hard to look away from, arms that held me tightly and lips that fed me slowly to death with poison. Now I know why we can be the cause of our own heartbreak, too foolish to know we are walking into the jaws of a liar who looks like everything we’ve ever wanted. Until it’s too late. And you’re never the same person again,”

9:30 - Nightmares of you remind me how easily I let myself fall for a monster (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“I rang you last night. The alcohol flooded my brain with memories of you and made me believe you would still be there. You didn’t pick up. And that is the only answer I needed,”

12:23 - Is this the closure I needed? (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“How is it that I can stand surrounded by people who want me, and yet I will always reach for the one person who will never reach back and take my hand no matter how much I am offering?,”

11:44 - You always want what you can’t have (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“I say I miss you. But I don’t. I miss the you I used to know. You can’t miss someone who stands in front of you who you no longer recognise,”

23:35 - You can’t miss someone if the old version of them no longer stands in front of you (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“You hope that the ache leaves eventually, after months of heartache and crying at midnight. And it does leave, I promise. But even 3 years from the day they left you, the scar is still there. It sometimes leaves you aching for days over what once was, bringing the memories with it before it subsides for a while all over again. I know it will be back, just like you. And I am never ready,”

13:49 - It always comes back when I least expect (moondustanddreams)

[goldenangelll]

i have always been too much for someone or not enough. i’m either too loud or not loud enough. i am a walking contradiction. a full glass or an empty one. there is no balance in me. tell me, what made you leave? my devastating fire or my lack of heat?

- l.r // i am never half empty

[moondust-and-dreams]

“Maybe we had to part ways so that we could relearn how to love right again. Maybe we lost sight of real, pure love and needed others to remind us what it felt like. And maybe now we can finally return to love each other as we first started out,”

16:10 - Maybe we forgot how to love properly after destroying each others hearts (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“I’d give anything to crawl into your arms and feel them wrap around me whilst we fall asleep, just like we did those days before you released your grip and left me reaching out into the empty space of my bed each night,”

20:55 - I’m reaching out for someone who’s not even there anymore (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

An old one. Yet I can still feel the exact pain in these words to this very day 💔

[moondust-and-dreams]

“There are some things that will never change. Like the colour of the sky on a warm summers night. The way the birds sing to wake up the world in the morning. The feeling of the water on my skin as I dive beneath the waves. And, letting you back into my life again even after every time I vow I never will,”

23:44 - Some things I wonder if I’ll ever change even when I promise myself I will (moondustanddreams)

[ink-and-oceans]

“A few months ago, I could never have imagined finding someone who made all my past heartbreaks feel worth it. Someone who makes my heart swell up despite all the holes and whose hands fit mine so perfectly and hold mine so tightly. I didn’t know that anyone else could give me something to lose again and have me be over-the-moon happy about it.”

— tara love / and i am. i am so happy about it.

[moondust-and-dreams]

“That’s just the thing, I know I’ll eventually get over you. But that’s not what breaks my heart, it’s the thought of how many long months of agony I know I’ll have to go through to forget every precious moment between us,”

14:52 - I know it ends, but it’s how long it takes, isn’t it? (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

“You were my bad habit. I stopped you from ruling my ways after so long. But we all know bad habits only come back when you’re at your weakest. And that’s when their grip on you is strongest,”

11:28 - Just one more time I promise (moondustanddreams)

[moondust-and-dreams]

13:11 - A new series of visual scrapbook poetry for new beginnings - I hope you all enjoy this next journey ✨ love, moondustanddreams x