Havok

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[havok20]

About Me

I’m Havok, I’m 31, and I write, RP, create 3D animations, 3D modeling, draw (digitally and traditionally). This is now a personal blog, my RP blog will be up in due time, but due to the amount of work I have to do with my last stretch of university I do not have the time to RP right now, however I still want to interact on Tumblr, so going forward this will be my personal blog where I nerd out, talk about games and stuff that I like, create and share fun projects I'm working on, as well as some spicier topics. It's still an 18+ blog and will still contain sexual content and mature themes, but the RP stuff will be moved to a new blog by the end of the year.

I am in the games industry as such I am an aspiring indie dev for both video games and table top RPGs and I can't wait to share the fun stuff I come up with. Hope you enjoy this journey and hope you guys enjoy what I have to say. Though do bear in mind I have a knack for venting and ranting. I'll do my damnedest to minimize the amount I do here, but sometimes I feel really strongly about something I gotta make my voice heard, so apologies if that puts you off.

[slutwifeworld]

Reblog if your wife or gf has a free pass to cheat on you whenever she wants, with whoever she wants, however she wants.

[havok20]

I very much don't subscribe to idol culture, but I do like VTubers. And I've recently been introduced to Apricot (Froot) and if I did subscribe to idol culture, Froot would 1000% be my kamioshi. She is my favorite above all, with Zentreya being a close second. Then Mouse. And Matara would be higher if she wasn't so mean to Bricky. But Froot is my absolute number 1, she's adorable, sweet, and extremely talented! Anyway, Froot's new cover is up on spotify! Go show some love! :) https://open.spotify.com/track/6jdTgbS9UOy8ZIHSBCwiJR?si=c5005d7e8a6147fe

[havok20]

Something that just sort of bothers me about the modding communities for Skyrim and Sims 4, is that everyone who does like remeshes and replacers for characters just make them look like IMVU 1.0 characters, like how that an improvement? Just because they look shinier and smoother doesn't make them look better, you take out the normal map details and you take out characteristics. Also why make these games look like an objectively worse game? Sure Skyrim's graphics might be a little dated by todays standards, but to me Skyrim SHOULD be stylized, and if you HAVE to improve the character meshes, then why not use FO4 body and face meshes? That I would consider to be Vanilla+ Skyrim.

[d--r--a]

[havok20]

[havok20]

Stop Killing Games Vent

I love how people who are NOT in the game development industry are coming after PirateSoftware for not supporting the Stop Killing Games Initiative. Thor's entire point is that this broad stroke "solution" is not helpful in any meaningful way. If the petition is given any credence whatsoever and such laws are passed based solely on the demands of the initiative, it would destroy live-service games. So WoW, FFXI, FFXIV, Runescape, EVE online, Siege, League, Dota, Counterstrike, TF2, Overwatch, Destiny 2, literally anything made by King, Sea of Thieves, and so many others that have done nothing but provide good health to the industry, disregarding toxic practices in isolation which only minorly effects the industry health, will all be affected. At best, this will cause live-service games to be regionally removed, in which case the people who signed this petition without using their heads will realize they made a massive fucking mistake and entire countries' worth of gamers will pay for it. At worst, live-service games are done, they are removed from the industry due as a whole because no one reads the fucking ToS and understands the difference between a service and a product, so all MMOs are done, MOBAs gone, online FPSes gone, Battle Royale games gone, Survival games gone. All because of The Crew... Are you fucking kidding me?

The Crew has had 2 sequels since 2014, the initiative points to The Crew's player base, AT PEAK, not during the time of closure, it has since dwindled to less than 1000 players per region. And if the game simply isn't bringing in any revenue it's too expensive to maintain. Now everyone who claims Ubisoft could just release the server kit for The Crew, but that has sensitive proprietary code. They would have to make The Crew's code and the server code open source. Ubisoft doesn't share shit, and I'll tell you why. Developers who make their own shit or modify existing shit to bespoke it to their game do not want their code leaking. This would provide hackers and bots the opening they need to infect games and create a worse player experience. No one wants that.

The projects that are going behind Ubisoft's back to revive the game by going passed the DRM and into the code and trying to create private servers without legal permission are breaking the law. They are breaking international copyright law. It is illegal. If it was a game that you owned in some capacity and not a licensed purchased game that's a different story, but this is a game you paid to play through a license. Violating that license can see you be fined in the hundreds of millions, and potentially a prison sentence. Thor is 1000% correct in this, that the issue is games being advertised as single-player experiences with multiplayer capability, The Crew, was not, but they are actually fully online, and you own nothing, because it's a continuous service, not a product. Every source says in an asterisk that an online connection is required to run The Crew, and the "sources" that say it was advertised as single-player with multiplayer capability are just crybabies who faked the source via "Trust bro I was there for it." The issue is in ToS. if you didn't read ToS that's on you, not Ubisoft or any other publisher. What's within the ToS is what Thor is saying is the issue. Live-service games inherently are not a product you can own like offline single-player games. They are a service, a continuous service that you purchase a license for. You never owned The Crew, but the ToS didn't make that obvious, THAT is the issue that Stop Killing Games should focus on, not forcing publishers to keep a game up despite doing so is flushing money down the toilet.

What you need to understand is that the video games industry is a business. A business that has been VERY consumer friendly. Consider this, in the 1990s and probably even before then a new release video game cost 60 USD. It has been 60 USD until 2020. Where the MSRP for a new release game went up by 10 USD. Understand that this doesn't cover the cost of production like it did back then. Games are incredibly resource expensive between asset management and manpower, and with the industry continuing to ramp things up with graphical fidelity, performance, multiple console optimization and if you add in online functionality especially if you have dedicated servers, that cost adds up fast. This is an industry that costs as much if not more than the films industry and globally, it makes a fraction of how much films make. Yet, new releases have always been 60 USD until recent times. This means that the industry median has always, ALWAYS put the consumer first regardless of how expensive it is to make the product, not only that but most games don't even break even anymore, 1 million units sold isn't going to cover the cost of a video game with online capabilities.

Further, if the intention of the initiative is to completely eradicate live-service games, to that I have to say, who the fuck are you to dictate what I have on my machine? Or how I spend my money? I pay a sub for FFXIV I put in money into this game to help keep it active, will it eventually close down? Maybe, more likely than not, it's the fate of all live-service games, but you won't see me pissing and moaning when it does.

And to the people attacking Thor, fuck you. He's been in this industry and worked with the worst and some of the best for over 20 years, he has an intimate knowledge you could never have. I'm gonna take his word over some pissant who's throwing a fit over a 10 year old game who's playerbase basically died off in 2016. Especially when there's TWO OTHER FUCKING GAMES STILL LIVE. From a business standpoint the resources used to maintain The Crew was too much for the publisher to keep up when they could divert those resources into one of The Crew's sequels and create a more stable and optimized experience. Ubisoft is a piece of shit company, I'll never debate you on that, they are scum, but asking a publisher to continue to maintain a game that brings in no money and it's over a decade old is complete selfishness. Thor is right, and IF this initiative DOES make it to court and bills ARE passed, then prepare for more region locks, more layoffs, and more studio closures. As a developer myself that sort of future is horrifying, and the people who signed this petition and the petitioner themselves will be to blame. Where will you be when the industry loses roughly 1/3 of it's manpower due to this blatant ignorance.

[havok20]

Dude if the hurlocks are that big I can't wait to see the alpha hurlocks or hell ogres must be massive!

[havok20]

Imma be honest, when I do warrior playthroughs, I'm gonna have a hard time resisting the urge to dropkick everything.

[havok20]

With the new combat stuff revealed all the people who recently started theorizing that the archdemons and the Evanuris are one and the same are proven wrong. (I mean they were proven wrong from the start because if they were the same, by all accounts Elgar'nan would already be dead with the death of Dumat in The First Blight since they fulfil the same role in their respective pantheons)

I will however say, that it's interesting that Ghilan'nain has her own Archdemon. I wonder however if it's Lusacan or Razikale, or if it's an Archemon emulation like Corypheus commanded.

[havok20]

This man is spittin. I may not agree with everything he says, because I'm far more critical of Dragon Age Origins than he is, but yeah. I can't find any outright flaws in his logic.

[ask-shane]

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[viralfrog]

[djuvlipen]

Hey

I know there are many, many things happening in the world right now and there is only so much time, energy and money people can invest in social justice but with the advance of fascism in Europe - 84 fascists from 12 different countries were elected to the European Parliament this year - and with the news of a 15yo Romani teenager dying during a police confrontation in England last week, I have compiled a list of different human rights organizations dedicated to helping Romani people in Europe.

Please donate if you can!

🇪🇺 Roma Education Fund

The Roma Education Fund (REF) is an international foundation established in 2005 and dedicated to closing the gap in educational outcomes between Roma and non-Roma. With an active and growing network of representative offices across Central, Eastern, South Eastern Europe and Turkey, REF provides grants and scholarships to entities and individuals who share its belief in quality, inclusive education and desegregated schools and classrooms. The Roma Education Fund is active in countries such as: Hungary, Montenegro, Romania, Serbia, Slovakia, Switzerland, Albania, Croatia, North Macedonia, Turkey, Bulgaria, Bosnia and Herzegovina, Kosovo and Russia.

🇪🇺 European Roma Grassroots Organization (ERGO)

ERGO Network mobilizes and connects grassroots, national and international organisations and individuals who share a set of core values to create the courage, capacity and  opportunities to combat antigypsyism and Roma poverty; strengthen Roma civil society participation in decision-making at grassroots, national and European level and commit governments and European institutions to effective social inclusion and anti-discrimination policies, standards and funds for Roma.

🇪🇺 European Roma Rights Center (ERRC)

The ERRC is the largest transnational Romani rights organization in Europe. They provide judicial and financial help to Romani people facing poverty, police brutality and racist violence all across Europe

🇷🇴 Resource Center for Roma Communities Foundation (RCRC)

The operational activity of RCRC includes training programs, consultancy and comprehensive community development in Roma communities. The grantmaking activity of RCRC has involved managing grants and scholarship programs, including the administration of the European Union’s and EAA grants programs focused on health, vocational training, small infrastructure and income generating activities.

🇨🇿 Cesta Von

Cesta von (This Way Out) organization is based in Slovakia. Their Omama program works with the very youngest Romani children in particular. Their aim is a big and important one – extricating the inhabitants of the segregated settlements from the vicious circle of intergenerational poverty. The program targets the development of the intellect, motor skills and social skills in an attempt to increase the chances of children from socially excluded localities at living better adult lives. One of the main conditions for choosing the Omamas is that they must be Romani women who know the excluded locality well (source).

🇪🇸 La Fundación Secretariado Gitano (FSG)

The FSG develops all kinds of actions that contribute to achieving the full citizenship of Roma persons, improving their living conditions, promoting equal treatment and preventing all forms of discrimination, as well as promoting the recognition of the cultural identity of the Roma community.

🇪🇸 La Asociación Nacional Presencia Gitana

Presencia Gitana is dedicated to confronting and correcting negative opinions about Spanish Romani people. They promote all kinds of initiatives and projects to ensure that Spanish Romani people's basic needs and fundamental rights are met and guaranteed, work to promoting Romani culture and advocate for the providing of historical reparation for Spanish Romani people.

🇫🇷 ANGVC

The ANGVC (association nationale gens du voyage citoyens) is a French Romani-led organization whose goal is to fight anti-Romani racism and to improve the living conditions of French Romani people and travellers. They provide judicial help to Romani people victims of environmental racism and police brutality, organize workshops to raise awareness about anti-Romani racism and are now leading a project dedicated to educate people about the Romani genocide, which still hasn't been recognized by France.

🇬🇧 Roma Support Group

The Roma Support Group offers free advice for Roma communities on financial inclusion, debt, welfare benefits and housing. They promote Romani arts and culture, fight for the improvement of mental health within the Romani community and helps Romani people victims of racism.

🇬🇧 Romano Lav

Romano Lav is a grassroots Roma community organisation based in Govanhill, Glasgow. They organize youth-led events including artistic and cultural performances, workshops, exhibitions and educational events.

🇬🇧 Luton Roma Trust

The Luton Roma Trust provides advice to British Romani people about housing, employment and education, helps them find jobs and accessing healthcare.

[djuvlipen]

over two dozen posts on the 'romani tag' in the past 20h because the MCU cast a white actor to play a romani character. what were you all doing two days ago, when the french police murdered a romani man? what were you all doing last week, when the british police forcibly took five romani children away from their family, resulting in the death of one of them? do you only care about romani people when we are fictional? does your interest in antiracism begin and end at media representation?

[havok20]

Seriously, the Romani people are a beautiful people who deserve love and respect. They have been through hell much like any marginalized ethnicity. I think the priority should be helping real life Romani people and making horrendous events like these more known rather than piss and moan over character casting. People don't talk about European racism much these days because everyone's more concerned about media and American racism, when there are people suffering all over the world due to ignorance regarding the Romani.

As someone who recently has taken a huge interest in the Romani people, their culture and history, I am here to say. I support the Romani people. End Romani Hate.

[good-fwiend-in-wome]

[havok20]

My only concern is that I have no idea if Lucanis is gonna be another mage racist

[havok20]

I honestly gotta get this off my chest. A few years ago I binged the original Evangelion Series (End of included) and while it was a bit of a mess and it was rife with subtext and depravity, I found myself falling in love with existential anime. I do not fancy myself an anime fan these days, I make only a handful of exceptions. But I think my biggest issue with Evangelion is, there was no reason for Asuka to die.

Buckle up, this is a bit of a long rant.

Let me explain: Just before the two montage episodes ending in Congratulations Shinji, it is revealed what an S2 Engine was, and that Seele had learned from the mistakes made with EVA Unit 03. That much was established when Kaji was killed. That S2 engines were effectively the core of angels, the source of natural AT Fields, and the source of an angel's ability to regenerate in seconds even from an otherwise fatal blow. Kaji revealed that Seele had succeeded in creating artificial S2 engines that would function exactly the same as the angels' but without the angel consciousness (Hell in some continuities he straight up leaked Seele's plan to attack NERV). Misato knew the mass produced EVAs had artificial S2 engines. Literally all it took when Asuka took to the field to fight them off was Misato telling her, "These are exactly like angels, destroy the core and they won't be able to regenerate." Because survival was everyone in the NERV facility's priority (well everyone except Gendo). Asuka being at full sync with her EVA, faster than ever and more powerful than ever, there's no reason for her to have died over a war of attrition. The knowledge was there, and I think this is what people refer to when they say Anno is good at writing depressive allegory but when it comes to consistency and continuity he's dogass at it. Literally the hail mary they needed to survive was in their fucking hands and they just said, "Nah let the ginger with daddy and mommy issues die a Pyrrhic death."

"But Havok, Asuka needed to die for Shinji to ascend and become the object of Human Instrumentality."

To that I say, that's piss poor justification, when you consider Anno had Shin Godzilla killed off at it's 5th form when he confirmed and showed artwork of 8 forms, there's no reason for Human Instrumentality to have actually happened, the worst didn't have to happen even if you have the whole 9 yards planned out. In fact Shinji's reaction to Asuka's death had little to nothing to do with Rei fusing with Lilith, with the intention of making Shinji a god instead of Gendo. Also to the best of my knowledge the same could be said for the mass produced EVAs. The way I understand it the MPEs were 100% artificial therefore had no inherent connection to Adam, Lilith, EVA Unit 01, or the Spear of Longinus (they had their replicas but that's all they were), they were purely made to be the executioners of EVA Units 00-02 should there be any resistance from the EVA pilots. So their ritualistic "suicide" when Instrumentality happens is at best pageantry on the studio's part. Like sure they had dummy plugs modeled after Kaworu's thought patterns but that's literally just logic to make them controllable so they don't go berserk like the angel that possessed Unit 03, nothing inherently mystical that ties the MPEs to the 3rd Impact. They were not made with the 3rd Impact in mind and that's what I think people tend to forget about them, not only that but there's a shit ton of continuity errors in the film itself with the MPEs being shown regenerating but later showing the exact same injuries they had before regeneration.

I don't know if these same issues plague the rebuild films (I've only seen the first one and I don't remember much of what happened, and I do plan to go back and watch all of them at once) I would hope in all this time Anno had enough experience to recognize these issues and work them out (given that I know the rebuilds are not one-for-one remakes) I would hope the issues with the MPEs and Asuka's death are tempered and if Asuka does die, it actually has a purpose other than shock value, because that's all it was, was shock value, it served no purpose in the 3rd Impact. Shinji was already emotionally compromised if that was a necessary part of it. The only, THE ONLY justification I could think of, is Asuka was killed so that she didn't try to save Shinji from Instrumentality. To which even then, that's not a diegetic reason that's a "it's canon deal with it" reason, it doesn't justify Misato withholding VITAL info about the MPEs and the S2 drives (which in itself is out of character for Misato bc her entire priority was getting Asuka, Shinji and Rei into their EVAs so they could escape the NERV massacre, and probably bring Seele down.) I understand why the last 4 episodes of the series (last 4 is including the two episodes that make up End of Evangelion) are regarded with such vitriol. The writing is all over the place, half of it doesn't make sense with the larger continuity, most of the visual production went to unnecessary shock value visuals, and epileptic seizure inducing montages of flashing light and color (that served no real purpose). And the English dub censorship is beyond infuriating, and yet...

I still love Evangelion regardless. The existential horror of fighting off angels who destroy, only to learn the reason they do so is because of Seele meddling in celestial affairs and making NERV their patsies. The faint hope that Gendo and Shinji might actually heal their broken bond. The fantasy that in another timeline these kids are allowed to just be kids with no existential threat from the angels, or Seele, no first, second or third impact. The three times Shinji is shown genuine love is from an angel that was made to start the third impact, to a woman who lured him in with her body and wiles only for her heart to break when he gets absorbed by EVA Unit 01 for a short period, to a girl who disliked him but secretly loved him. The fact that after such a horrific sequence of judgement Shinji needed affirmation that he wasn't dreaming any longer. And even if Shiji and the reborn Asuka don't get along immediately after the depraved actions of Shinji and him failing to get to her in time, there's still hope that they connect on a profound level that goes beyond some shallow repopulation obligation. The people who died in the third impact are able to return from the primordial soup that is the oceans of LCL when they're ready. The last scene while being a morbid recreation of the biblical birth of humanity, is a sign of hope, that whatever future is ahead of the two confirmed living humans, they have the capacity to heal, forgive and love. Despite everything that I hate about End of Evangelion and the last 2 episodes of the serial, I can appreciate the bittersweet ending that can go in any direction, be it Asuka leaves Shiji behind on that beach to stew in his loneliness (which would defeat the purpose in my opinion), or her show of love for him IS her forgiving him and showing him he's no longer dreaming. Whatever the case may be, I genuinely love that final scene. No more monsters to fight, no more government agencies, no more fighting for survival.

While I'm very vocal about how much I detest the last two episodes of NGE and End of Evangelion I still love it, and I'm glad that in the wake of the rebuilds Anno has said that while he is finished with the Evangelion universe, he has opened the floor for other creators at Studio Khara to make their own sequels, prequels and alternative continuities in the Eva universe and that I think is the greatest thing Anno could've done with his legacy. I look forward to any potential creations they make because they are talented people and I hope only the best for them. I might be part of the problem in wanting more interpersonal dynamics between characters in conjunction with the kaiju fights and less of every character is a lonely sadsack and they cope with deflection, humor, eroticism and angy masks. I hope they come up with some genuinely great stories that make me believe that Shinji can be redeemed that Rei was not wrong in picking Shinji.

Now my last point of contention is not with Evangelion itself but it does relate to Asuka, and it's that I genuinely hate it when artists draw characters who were killed being fucked (or r-worded) by the person/thing that killed them. It's why Aerith x Sephiroth doesn't work. I don't see how anyone can get off to that morbid shit, and Asuka basically being gangbanged by MPEs is one of the lowest of the lows I've seen fanartists go. Not only due to the fact that she's 14 when the MPEs kill her, but also that someone thought it would be a good idea to have her getting railed by those monstrosities in the first place. Whoever rendered those images/animations you need help (and by help I mean you deserve a prison sentence, or strung up by your toes with your head in a potato sack and punched in the nose and mouth repeatedly, bc I'm willing to bet you're into some very illegal and immoral content). Anyway sorry for the rant, I just really needed to get this off my chest. Looking forward to watching the rebuilds and I might share my thoughts once I'm done.