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» nagi is a very introverted person so he's not familiar with the concept of romantic relationships
» as much as he enjoys being around you, confessing his feelings never really crossed his mind
» it comes with the risk of rejection, which would make things awkward between the two of you, something nagi wants to avoid
» until he got invited to blue lock
» he felt like it was the perfect time to do something about his feelings. since he'll be away, even if you reject him, you both will have time to get over it
» and so one day, he asked if he could walk you home from school, because he has something important to tell you
» he was definitely surprised at your reaction to his confession
» "i'd love to go out with you some time"
» he was so worried all this time that you'd reject him so now that you returned his feelings, he doesn't really know what to do
» "actually.. i got invited to a training camp for soccer, so i'll be away for a while" he looks away, kinda embarrassed that this happened a couple of days before he leaves
» he gave you the sweetest smile when you reassured him that you don't mind and you'll support him from afar
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» unlikely nagi, bachira doesn't take confessing so seriously
» being his cheerful self, his feelings came off as playful, even if they are genuine
» "y/n you were so cute cheering for me today, i could actually fall for you~", "you came to see me? be careful not to catch feelings for me?~~"
» it's all fun and games, his tone was never serious so you could tell he was just teasing you
» until one day, when you decided to watch him practicing on his own, but you noticed he was rather moody that day
» once you arrived there, he was leaning against the wall, hugging his knees as you heard him asking himself, "am i... weird..?"
» he wasn't aware of your presence, until he felt a hand caressing his head
» "don't ever say that again" he raised his head at the hearing of your voice, obviously shocked to see you there
» you started rambling over how talented he is about the sport he loves so much and that he has to keep believing in himself
» without thinking about it, as you kept talking, bachira bluntly said "i like you"
» after realizing what he said, he quickly tried to cover it by laughing nervously and adding "just kidding"
» though he didn't fool you this time
» he was shocked to say the least when he felt your soft lips on his cheek, before you confessed your feelings back
nate would ponder about the thought of telling you for a long time. he probably thinks about it all the time, even when you first met. constantly wondering how’ll you react.
it’s more of a curiosity. he’s curious of your reaction. would you be surprised at the secret information. or heartstruck at the trust he’s showing you by telling you his name.
it is likely sudden or out of know where when he tells you. you could be telling him about your day when he’d suddenly interrupt you blurting: “y/n. my birth name is nate rivers.”
his confession is so out of place and sudden that you’d think he’s fucking joking! you’re so startled that you actually though that near of all people was making a joke.
depends on your reaction if he’d confirm this to you. if he didn’t like your reaction to the information and thought you weren’t read he’d play it off as if he was “joking”.
if near indeed did like your reaction he’d elaborate and simply explain how he thought it was time for you to know, that he trusted you enough to know this classified info.
— mello (mihael keehl)
is cautious about telling you, but not because it’s you, he’s just a cautious person. he doesn’t like things coming back to bite him in the ass, so he takes his precautions.
you all remember that one scene when mello traveled to the spk hideout to get that photo of himself from near (my memory kinda hazy ngl)? like i said he takes precautions.
constantly convinces himself that not telling you is best. you could be targeted or kidnapped for knowing his name! that thought made him convince himself for a while.
mello’s real worries are you knowing his true self. he just…wonders if you knowing personal things about him will drastically change your relationship and views of him.
his reasoning may sound silly, even to himself but he likes how simple things are. mello just has trouble taking that next step in a relationship, opening up more to one another.
best way is to just not nag him about the name thing. accept that he isn’t willing to open up quickly, and to not take it personally. at least that’s what matt told you.
eventually, with time he’ll tell you. likely in the time where he’s emotional or in de stress and needs your embrace. it’d be done quickly and sharply, a little falteringly too:
“Mihael…” he blurts before elaborating quickly. “it’s m-my name, it’s Mihael Keehl.” he whispers before sighing, turning away from you. “what’re you smiling about? what? are you happy that i finally told you my bullshit name huh?!”
— matt (mail jeevas)
on the outside, matt seems carefree about the name thing. he comes off as being the most reckless about hiding his name out of mello and near but i think that’s wrong.
if i remember correctly, it was said that matt specialized in technology! he also did mostly hacking jobs for mello during his time in the mafia and from what i know about hacking it’s all about concealing your identity!
so matt would be more on the winds about right? whenever you ask him about his true name he’ll laugh and play it off, but your question will stay on his mind for a while.
matt completely understand the consequences of you knowing his name. hell, matt didn’t even know nears true name, only mello’s since he told him when they were kids.
this thought actually makes matt think if he trusted you like he did mello? could he trust you like mello? you’re his s/o, yet you know almost nothing about his identity.
does he want to take the next step with you, this step that may make him trust you more. matt ultimately decides to tell his lovely s/o. would wait until you ask him again <3
“it’s Mail, pronounced mile. i noticed that a lot of people tend to pronounced the name wrong. well that doesn’t matter anyways.” he rambled. “fully tho, it’s Mail Jeevas.”
matt makes it known that if you’re reckless with this info that he could be killed by kira or from his other enemies. totally not trying to intentionally scare ya a bit (-_^).
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