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mikodrawnnarratives

Tumblr stop putting community posts on my feed I don't want to see posts I can't reblog

k1nky-r0b0t-g1rl

How to vent about the same problem multiple times without people wanting to beat you to death with hammers

humunanunga

haziel669

Me when I ended up working on the creative project i didn’t wana work on bcs it was for school

daisywords

"came back wrong" what about Came Back Afraid. You used to be brave. Too brave maybe, defying the odds at every turn, a fighter, cocky, playing with fire, first to throw yourself at the enemy. Until one day it all caught up to you. You came back, somehow, but now you know all too intimately how it feels to lose, to die, to be destroyed. Now you flinch and freeze and cower at the slightest provocation. Who even are you now if you can't be brave? The grave may have let you go, but the mortal fear still grips you tighter than ever.

#This is what I feel like #This is me #This is how I felt after losing muscle from being so long in the hospital #This is how I felt after my face changed from medicantion #This is how I feel. I was strong and better and I was not like this #I'm afraid of falling #I'm afraid of walking too long #I used to do marathons #Play for hours #Now I'm scared #I can't

This is a prison, a curse, I want to eat and thrive and I can not. Eat hurts, medicine make me not look me, hospital no school, no exercise. I just wanna human

luckyclaw

Ayoo just to preempt the inevitable dumb takes we’re about to start seeing;

I am PRO-WOOL

I am PRO-LEATHER

I am PRO-BEES

Fuck the idea of replacing durable, sustainable animal products with cheap, flimsy plastic that doesn’t bio-degrade. Agave nectar and other artificial sweeteners are expensive, labor-intensive, and destroy the environment to be farmed.

Do not buy into pernicious marketing campaigns pushed by dickhead organizations trying to stay relevant, like PETA.

#I super hate vegan leather #My mom bought me a jacket #Lasted two years.#Her jacket from the 80s?#true leather and will probably outlive me

wonderstruck

If you see this you’re legally obligated to reblog and tag with the book you’re currently reading

#the color purple

ivy-michaels

I'm asexual and i swear to god i have a better sense of the moral implications of sex than 95% of the allos on this site.

ivy-michaels

sex is a morally neutral act the only thing that matters is consent and it doesn't have any moral effect on anyone not directly involved thank you hope this helps next question

ivy-michaels

I can already hear you saying "but what about safety" and my response is that i'm not a cop and it isn't my business if people do dangerous shit with each other so long as they're both okay with that

helenestica

Showing your favorite song to someone is so embarrassing lol what if I get a bad grade at my own taste and interests....

privartidahos

you dropped something

#the holdovers #angus tully #the holdovers 2023 #This is so yummy

queenjulia24

HOLD UP HOW WAS I NOT AWARE OF THIS

lichpire

was gonna leave my comment in the tags but tbh i’m silent enough about this as it is.

seeing stuff like this is so upsetting because these terms were well known and widespread in the ace community but because of exclusionists many people stopped using terms like this because they felt uncomfortable and unsafe.

i loved these terms when i was in highschool, i loved the feeling of community, but i lost that because i didn’t feel comfortable openly and proudly calling myself asexual.

they’ve hurt so many people and damaged our community badly and i will never forgive them for that. we deserve to use our own terminology and feel safe within our community.

atasteforsuicidal

sometimes i notice i haven't seen "grace" (grey-ace) in a while and consequently wonder if i made it up.

slenders1ckn3ss

I remember ppl - even other ace ppl - saying the card suit thing was "cringey" and "straight ppl aren't gonna take us seriously" (sounds familiar?) So i guess the community wound up abandoning it. We were also having severe issues at the time with aces being stereotyped as "childish/immature" for associating things like cake, dragons, and space with asexuality, plus in general as most aces just don't "get" allosexual things in media and irl. We were starting to be viewed as ignorant, virginal, childish, losers, etc. I haven't seen an ace-cake thing in a good while now.

This was the infancy of exclusionary influence on us. I didn't realize it did more damage than just closeting us. Whole symbols and terms have been lost. Community has been lost.

cobraonthecob

I remember three-four years ago I got myself into the ace community on Insta, and I came across these terms. People in these circles would talk about cake, space, dragons, and the black ring on the middle finger. Then, a year or two later, ace content fizzled out (I thought it was Insta’s algorithm figuring out that I knew all this and didn’t bring me the old stuff) and young aces had no idea what any of these were - including the black ring. Finding out young aces had no idea what the black ring meant nearly snapped my heart in two - I proudly wore the black ring, I drew characters with it, and it was my quiet way of communicating to others what my sexuality was. I was baffled at the lack of knowledge - and it turns out that exclusionists got their hands into our community and snuffed us out.

Anyways, we need to bring this back. I thought the card suite thing was cool, it taught people the different ways people can experience attraction, I loved making jokes about preferring cake, I loved wearing the black ring and talking about it with my fellow queer people at my highschool QSA club.

haziel669

These used to be big things?! Genuinely, maybe three years ago I saw a post about using a black ring and I thought it was a very small thing, maybe made up by the person I saw the video from. I never realized it was an actual thing!

I have seen the cake and garlic bread stuff, but I didn't know about the spades symbolism, the dragon or space stuff, it sounds so cool!!!

I always saw the big amounts of content regarding other sexualities and never a lot about the ace community, I'll be honest, it made me feel isolated and like I was the only one or the one out of place.

#asexual #asexuality #ace #Young ace #It so interesting getting to learn about my own community!!!

I'm like, finally secure in my gender, I'm a girlboy, that's it, She/her, he/him, yes I will wear a full face of make up while wearing the most frat dude outfit ever and I will still use he/him when I'm in the prettiest sparkly dress, It's my gender, I control it and y'all can't do shit about it, I will still use my birth name and my masc name, they're both me. It's all me. I'm Haziel and I'm *her* and as much as people complain they can't change it because I won't change for them.

#rant

daftpatience

slow down for your disabled friends. thats like a bare minimum kindness that we shouldnt have to ask for. i love that youre so quirky and walking fast is a cool personality trait to you and all that but i bet you can count your physically disabled friends on less than one hand

haziel669

This has been happening to meeee, i’m not disabled, but after a long medical episode I had to relearn to walk and I still am not up to speed to how I was before, and I also get tired more easily, so I’ve been begging my fast walker friends to slow down a bit and (thankfully) they do most the time, but I have to remind them constantly 😅