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Personal blog 18+

[somewordsarebiggerthanothers]

[medleyofmind]

my firsts post... this is some of the methods my system uses to tell me they're real. we've mulled it over and felt like sharing it because the community on tumblr has helped us a lot with understanding and accepting things. <3

[061325]

shout out to plurals who dont suffer from intense memory gaps but do suffer from a strong disconnect from these memories. you can remember things generally well, you know what happened before you switched in, you know youre supposed to feel a certain way about it, but you just dont feel anything. maybe you remember it like you really were there, or only vaguely, like someone told you about it second hand, but either way it just feels so different from you. you know that “you” are supposed to have some sort of feelings connected to this memory, you know it happened to “you” but it just doesn’t feel right. this experience is very normal, its okay to feel this way, and even though it’s incredibly disorienting, you arent any less plural for being able to technically remember.

[moved2mindwrms]

shout out to plurals who have little to no distinction between alters!

shout out to plurals who cant communicate internally!

shout out to plurals who have only a few alters in their sys!

shout out to plurals who dont have obvious switches, or noticeable differences when anyone is fronting!

shout out to plurals who have doubt or think their “faking”!

shout out to plurals who dont feel like their “plural enough”!

shout out to plurals who have a front stuck alter and hardly ever see or hear from anyone else in the system!

shout out to plurals whos parts are just them!

shout out to plurals who cant tell where they end and someone else begins!

none of these things make you not plural or any less plural than anyone else! you ARE plural, and just because your plurality doesn’t look exactly like everyone else’s doesn’t make your plurality “wrong”! your experience as a plural being is valid! your plurality is really and dont let anyone (including yourself) tell you any different!

[shamebats]

I recently discovered r/CPTSDmemes.

[flakops]

“guilt tripping”

[furiousgoldfish]

I'm starting to be aggressively lonely. If you stand between me and my loneliness that's crossing a boundary. Get out.

[furiousgoldfish]

parents will be like "We're good parents! We did our best!" while their child is alone in their room, terrified of footsteps, unable to conceptualize being loved by anyone.

[d-i-d]

sometimes suffering is just suffering it doesn’t make you stronger it just hurts

[raz0rw1r3]

guy(s) who doesn't know he's plural yet:

yeah i just rlly like stories where someone has another person/personality inside that's a manifestation of their anger and stress. I just relate to it a lot. for no reason. I also like headcanoning characters as systems. for no reason.

[depressedquetzal]

The being a "singlet very interested in systems" to finding out you ARE a system pipeline is real

[gentlewindchimes]

"im probably faking being a system" mfs after their name and gender/identity continues being unstable no matter how much they ignore it (im mfs)

[shatteredmirror-sys]

people need to talk about socially acceptable abuse more. it's literally why we're a system. the spanking that people refuse to believe is physical abuse when there are multiple studies showing it affects kids just as much as any other type of physical abuse. the way a parent might talk down to their kid their entire life and make them feel like they cant make any choices themself or be independent that they only notice when someone else points out how their parent(s) talk too and about them. the parentification of the oldest kid(s) when they have a single parent. the unnoticeable praise towards the "easy" child that all the other children pick up on. the neglect the "easy" child has to go through. a kid being punished for going to their parent(s) when they mess up and need help. not being taught how to clean or cook or do laundry or even how to wash certain parts. it all destroys a kid and it was all socially acceptable in my family and in the communities i grew up in.

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[mypronounsarehehehaha]

[cataplat]

cooking with trauma

[furiousgoldfish]

abused kids reaching late teenage years: it seems I have trauma symptoms, which is odd because nothing traumatic had ever happened to me... sure I don't have many memories of my childhood but I am sure that everything that happened was 100% my fault and also normal and I am supposed to be strong enough to be over that and it was a long time ago so. That's all good. Now. I need to hide these trauma symptoms or my parents will kill me.

[babymorte]

i know they say no one is coming to save you but why the fuck not