ellie mckinney

head above walker meet ellie --- one time bartender; now just trying to avoid being walker chow indie twd oc: multiverse, open to plotting, please see bio and guidelines for more information. Mun is 21+

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           an actual laugh, an honest-to-god, lighthearted LAUGH            escaped his lips at her words, the grin lingering on his face            all throughout her words. he thought about sitting on a            kitchen table, eating cereal with CALM in the morning, &&            the image seemed so distant && strange it was actually            hard to BELIEVE it could have been something normal to            do at some moment of his life.

                          garland nodded at her words, GLAD to see they were on the                           same page. that had been a part of the soldier’s life even before                           the apocalypse, his mother’s words SUDDENLY ringing within                           his brain, telling him to go step by step, rush won’ ever le’ ya                           nowhere, boy. the smile turned WARMER at the memory && at                           ellie’s words. ’ that sounds good to me. it’s quite obvious by now                           that we can’t PREDICT anything that may happen to us — step                           by step, that’s the only way. ’

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She raised both brows at his peel of laughter.  “Oh, so  that is what that sounds like huh?  I didn’t think you had it  in you,” she teased.  “Thought about tickling you at one point to see if you could even laugh at all but I figured that  was not playing fair.”  It was obvious from the way she  spoke that she was pulling his leg.  There weren’t really  many opportunities for laughter with the way things were. She’d just have to appreciate those moments when they could just do it.

       “Step by step,” she repeated as if it was their mantra       (well, it really was).  She tilted her head, smiled a little.       “So, in our bid to do things that way, why don’t we figure        out our next step --- it’s obvious there is not a lot left        here.  So onto the next one?”

[heartlesspresley-blog]

’ oh well, maybe i am OVERREACTING — but tell me you haven’t thought you needed a drink lately. ’

[headabovewalker-blog]

“Just a little --- and yes, I’ve thought about it.  Maybe even  scrounged around hoping to dig something up.  I don’t think I’d cut a throat for it but it would be nice to just...get a tiny bit wasted and forget for a moment or two.”

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         the hurt man was helped by another && dragged out of the house in a rushed way, && garland HOPED he hadn’t burst his kneecap, otherwise he could as well say goodbye to SURVIVING in the apocalypse, where your legs could be your best friends. a deep breath filled his lungs, still holding the gun && aiming towards the slightly opened door, in case any of them CHOSE to try another intrusion. he could feel ellie was somewhere near him, which HELPED him feel a lot more confident — backup was always something to feel GRATEFUL for.

         a couple of minutes passed like hours, && when ellie spoke, his shoulders DROPPED slightly as if he had just let go a HEAVY burden. he walked towards the door && carefully looked outside — nothing. whoever they were, they seemed to have UNDERSTOOD this wasn’t the right place, they weren‘t the right people to mess with.

         he lowered his riffle && felt his hands SHAKING ever so slightly, a knot on his throat for a moment. he turned his hands into fists, && then stretched his fingers, repeating the motion several times as the shaking diminished. turning around to face ellie, he gave her a small grin.

         ‘ just try to stay away from the WINDOWS, just in case. && we’ll have to keep watch during the night. ‘ the last part was almost a THOUGHT said aloud, as he closed the door.

         ‘ let’s check those multiple cans, then. ‘ && let’s hope NO ONE ELSE comes here.

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The worst was over --- at least for now (there was always another version of worst waiting around the corner).  

Ellie watched him as he moved to ensure that they were now truly alone.  She never asked him a lot of questions about himself.  She didn’t want to seem like she was prying but sometimes she wondered.  Everyone brought something with them into the new world order.  Even if they tried not to.  

Right now she could tell he was rattled.  It wasn’t overt but she could tell.  She hung back, glad that they had managed to hold onto this place.  They needed it --- even if it was only for a night.  She realized she was chewing on the bottom of her lip and wondered if she could say anything that would help with whatever was going on inside of his head at the moment.

In the end she just smiled.

“No windows and we’re keeping watch.  Sounds reasonable,” she stated with a quick nod of her head.  She turned on her heels and headed back into the kitchen.  From the cupboards she pulled their bounty --- a few cans of soup and some black beans.  She scrunched her nose at that and then looked over at him.  

She can’t stop herself.  She has to ask.

“Hey, you okay?”

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Noah was sick & tired of these fucking things, this was all the government’s fault, if they had stopped fucking around with experiments then maybe everyone would still be alive & there wouldn’t be dead things trying to eat live people, He had almost gotten bit taking down the last walker but thankfully the leather of his jacket was not easy to pierce. He caught his breath when they were all dead & his gaze moved to the woman’s knife then to her face then down to her neck when he noticed it, BLOOD. He pulled a rag from his back pocket “ I’m not going to hurt you, just checking ” he admitted before he proceeded to wipe the blood off her neck & that’s when he noticed she wasn’t bitten, it must have been the walkers blood “ you’re good, you alone out here? ” He questioned as he took a step back & pushed the rag back into his back pocket, he’d have to clean it later.

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The adrenaline was still kicking its way through her system and she wondered how long it would be before she felt normal again (because right now she almost wished there was one more of those damn things that she could lash out at).  When he told her he wouldn’t hurt her, she immediately tensed.  It was so easy to slip into the defensive position, so easy to look for the bad and just miss the good.  She told herself that he didn’t just save her ass to kill and then relaxed her shoulders.  Her heart was still pounding because what if he found something? What if she had been so caught up in the moment she had missed that split second that would end it all?  “Oh thank God,” she breathed and then couldn’t help but swipe her hand across her skin just to be sure.  She finally focused on him and gave a quick nod.  “Yeah.  Just for a day or two.  Not the smartest of moves but sometimes you don’t have a choice.  You alone?”

[headabovewalker-blog]

Apologies

For the general slowness of the past few weeks.  Combine sickness with a messy work schedule and you get little time to do anything fun! I promise you it won’t always be like this! 

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WOW. && i mean WOOOOOOWWWW. it’s not even been a month with garland && i can’t quite believe there’s already 100 of you around !! i’m really happy i decided to make his blog && come back to the twd fandom, && we’ve felt so welcomed && great i can’t even. SO, this is just a small list of that people who’s made this start so goddamn amazing ( if i miss someone, i’m sorry, but i’m only human ).

GARY’S SQUAD. aka he would kill for ya && so would i.

@unbreakableamy , @sxbrevive , @mackenzie-williams , @liabxlxty , @borntcdiie , @nanlanmo , @shesboundtolose ( and all your babes ) , @headabovewalker , @madeiit , @survivingthedemonsinside ; @galaeus ; @littlexsongxbird , @thesheepthatcriedwxlf , @deadfighter

THE MUNCHKINS. aka come to us because we stalk the hell outta you && we should rp more.

@junebcg , @zenredneckarcher , @beaniesandmachetes , @dclilah , @asskickergrimcs , @battingbeauty , @sonofalexandria , @safekeepiing , @deadcye ; @halfyourshit , @badelements , @the-tophat , @disownedwhisperer 

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     “I didn’t say anythin’ about VIOLENCE.”He said in a matter of      fact tone. “We can do things the NICE way first, tell them that       this place is ours and if they don’t like it then we resort to       violence.” He said with a slight shrug. 

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“No but it felt pretty heavily implied,” she pointed out.  She  wondered if he meant to come off that way or if he didn’t  realize it.  “--- telling them that isn’t exactly the most  peaceful way about it.  You don’t think there is some  middle ground to be found here?  Some way to work  together?”

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Clementine looked up from what she was working on, and that was cleaning her gun because the last time she had planned to use it the damn thing got jammed up. She nodded her head and returned a small smile. It was hard to smile when she couldn’t think of anything to smile for except to return the greeting. “Nice to meet you Ellie,” She started and set one of the gun parts down. She liked that the other didn’t approach her like she was some little kid that needed an adult to look after her, or that she didn’t try that careful kid voice, the voice that adults used to talk to little kids when they were upset or something.  She had respect for this woman already. “How are you?”

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A few years ago seeing someone like Clementine so easily handling a gun would have been a cause for alarm but now it fit.  And it was a good thing really that she had a handle on things already.  Ellie supposed it came from the experiences she had had before she made it to this place.  Of course that wasn’t the good thing.  It sucked the life out of you and made you feel older than you probably should.  Still, at least Clementine wouldn’t have to rely on someone else when push came to shove.  “Likewise,” she stated and she leaned against the deck.  “I’m...doing pretty good all things considering.  Had a good night’s sleep and something decent for breakfast.  I’d feel pretty silly if I complained.  What about you?”

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Hope was programmed to know others by their vocal tones, by how they acted, the movements of their bodies, the small quirks in their features. She kept her grip on her gun as she watched the other woman not lowering her gun just yet until she heard her speak & came to terms if she was good or bad. She gave it a minute before she slowly began to lower her gun ‘ if you don’t hurt me then I won’t hurt you, deal? ’ she questioned as she moved the gun, she slid her gun into the back of her pants before she rose her cup of coffee back up to her lips taking a sip ‘ I’m Hope, want some coffee? ’ she questioned ‘ have you tried this stuff? it’s delicious ’ she admitted taking another slow sip.

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“Sounds pretty damn fair to me,” Ellie agreed.  Her eyes stayed with the other woman’s gun, watching as it was shifted out of sight.  She did the same, a sign of good faith that the two of them could figure out where to go from there.  Whatever she had in mind, it certainly wasn’t what followed.  The introduction caught her off guard, causing her to raise a brow.  “I’m Ellie and coffee sounds good,” she stated as she moved further into the room.  “I’ve been drinking the stuff since I was fourteen.  You sound like you just picked up the habit?”

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. @headabovewalker .

“ Y'wanna know MY opinion ?”

In the accompaniment of sarcastic hint of smile which lurked from the corner of the survivor’s lips, Shane sniffed, letting his gaze embrace the NEW community.

“  This place’s BULLSHIT.

    Maybe you got those walls,     food, shelter, but that’s A LIE, man.     This place’s a LIE.     ‘bet ya don’t even know how to handle the gun,     ain’t mentionin’ THE WALKERS.”

With a languid shook of the head, Walsh gritted his teeth, causing the pain that posioned the male’s temples as soon as he dipped his SELF.

Sooner or later this HEAVEN will FALL. Like always…

“ so, why dont'cha make some cookies,    pretend that everythin’s FINE and leave    the job US, huh ?”

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No, she didn’t but he looked like the kind of man who was  going to give it anyway.  Ellie raised one brow and took a  deep breath, reminding herself to play nice.

{there was bound to be hiccups with the newcomers --- after all, there had been a bump or two when she arrived}

And there it was --- the crux of his issue.  He probably thought this place was some version of suburbian hell.  

“Bullshit, huh?  Okay, fine.  Think what you want.  Of course you’ve been here long enough to fully understand the place, huh? Or do you always go off snap judgments?”

Like the ones he was making about her right now.

“You know I was out there right?  Wandering around before I got here.  I know about the dead.  Know how to handle a gun too.  Probably not the best shot but I get by.   Oh, and I am shitty baker.  If you want  rock hard cookies just let me know.  In  meantime, I’m sure you got some good  ideas on how to keep this place safe.  You don’t have to insult people to get them to listen to ‘em.”

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“They don’t care. It ain’t always about that.” They liked to harbour their point, they liked everyone to know they couldn’t be screwed with and that was clearly the point they were making with this. They wanted her to be scared, hell and scared she should be because he sure as hell was. Rick had just gotten good at keeping his emotions hidden a lot of the time, he was closed off with people he didn’t know but it was easier that way.

 Every time they let themselves be around new people they regretted it so he had learned. Sure, this girl was on her own – She probably didn’t mean him any harm but he wasn’t going to give her the benefit of the doubt, purely because he couldn’t afford too. “Ya’ can’t think like that.” Rick was being honest. “From the looks of things – Ya weren’t forcing him to come with you. Shit like this is happening all over, it doesn’t make it ya’ fault.” He knew it was rich coming from him, he struggled every time they lost one of their own but he had the role of leader. Yes, they had a council – It wasn’t just his decision but somehow he felt like it was on him. It was and he couldn’t escape that but she could.

 "I–“ Oh, he was going to comment but decided perhaps that wasn’t the best course of action. "Probably not. They got hunting grounds, marks – Don’t think they are out that far.” It was a lie but she was clearly freaked and he didn’t want to push any more of her buttons. “We all are right now." 

They were in the danger zone and Rick had a big fuck off target written on the top of his and his people’s head. "Ya’ cant come back with me to my people, ya don’t want too. Trust me.” His head sunk slightly, the weight of them on his shoulders – A weight he was happy to take but at the moment it was suffocating him. “I can walk ya’ to a path, try make sure it’s safe though. Give ya’ a good start from them?”

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He was right --- it wasn’t about practicality or doing what it took to survive for some people.  For some, it was about control and enjoying a world where the rules were thrown out the window.  It was sick really, how some were quick to embrace that line of thinking.  Made her wonder what they were doing before they could be open about it.  

She turned her attention back to him when he urged her not to blame herself for what had happened here today.  “You know, part of me knows you’re right.  But that part is getting it’s ass kicked by the more emotional side of me.” She felt silly for admitting it aloud.  One of the things Matthew Shaffer had told her time and time again was that an emotional response was the kind of thing that would get you killed in a time like this.  She had almost bought into his line of thinking until she had watched him turn cold at the death of his son.  She couldn’t be like that.  As much as she knew she might be better off for it.  

So, she’d let the blame settle with the rest of what swirled around inside of her.  She’d come to terms with everything one day, she reasoned.  For now, she supposed she needed a new game blame.  Taking a deep breath, she nodded.  “Good, the Shaffers...the people I was with before, they were nice people.  They deserve to get the hell out of this.” They probably wouldn’t (just like her family probably hadn’t either) but it was easier to think that they would.  

Ellie finally put some distance between she and the body.  She didn’t wander too close to Rick.  Though he had dropped the gun (and been nice to her), she didn’t want to risk it.  When he told her flat out that she couldn’t come back with him, it was hard not to be dejected.  That meant she’d be alone before long and she wasn’t looking forward to that again.  She had a feeling he was in over his head in his own way.  Yet he was still offering to give her a hand.  “I’d appreciate that.  We had been hoping to make it a few more miles before it got dark.  Now I just want to be sure I can work my way around not running into those people again.”  She pulled the strap of her pack up over her shoulder.  “Probably should find a way that avoids the main drag.  How well do you know this area?”

[mandy-milkovich]

“It’s a shell, actually,” Mandy pointed out. You’d think living in a world where basically everyone carried a gun and depended on it for their daily survival would mean they knew the first thing about firearms, but you would be wrong. She didn’t know how many people she ran into who couldn’t use sights to literally save their lives or who threw guns around like toys or who called magazines ‘clips’. One of the many things she missed about her old neighborhood where (most) people actually knew what the fuck they were doing.

“So what can you carry? What do you have right now?” Mandy interrogated, then elaborated. “On you. Let me see.”

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“It’ll save my ass when I need it too,” Ellie stated simply.  She wasn’t in the mood to play around with technicalities.  The other woman knew that sort of thing --- good for her.  Ellie knew how to point and shoot, which she figured was a bit more important than the name.  

Though she was at the disadvantage, she was starting to wonder just how much longer she was supposed to stand there.  “You want to see what’s in my pack?” She asked.  “A bit of food, a bit of water, a gun...” She slid it off her back slowly and then tossed it to the ground between them.  “If you want a close up, you can look for yourself.”

[headabovewalker-blog]

Apologies

For the spotty activity.  It’s been an exhausting week at work.  Thankfully I just have one more day before two days off.  I will be finishing off the rest of my drafts tomorrow and then I will be more consistent in replies! 

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                 Rick stops her with upturned hands , feeling the uncomfortableness starting to seep into his being . He hadn’t taken her first words OFFENSIVELY , but the phrase she now let slip from her lips made him feel awkward .

                                 ‘ It was all of us , not jus’ ME . My family’s                                    the one you should be thanking , ’

                Though they wouldn’t really accept the gratitude either .

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It’s funny --- how the whole lot of them don’t want to be thanked for what they have brought to the community.  She thinks it speaks to their character.  They aren’t doing anything for the recognition.  They are doing it because they think it is the right thing to do.  

    “I have thanked them.  Most gave me the same speech.  I get it ---       I’d probably feel awkward too.  Still, I figured that despite the       awkwardness it’s important you know that what you and your       family have done is appreciated.”

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“About 2-3 and half miles from here, if you want though we can try and rest right here.” Looking up at the sky, Maggie had noticed that evening was approaching rather fast. “We probably wouldn’t have much time, and I really don’t know how much more blood you lost since we left that buildin’.” Pacing around frantically as Ellie was placed down leaning against a tree, Maggie brushed a few locks of hair back from her face through her fingertips, letting it rest there while thinking on what to do with the wounded lady. “I think I have nough’ supplies in my pack to get you by, but you really outta’ have someone look at that. But if you insist on us goin’ then we gotta really try and pick up the pace. I hate askin’ that of ya cause I know yer gonna be out of it soon, Lord knows how much blood yer losin’ so I’m gonna ask you to make the choice.” She lowered down and met Ellie’s gaze seriously; “do you wanna stay or do you wanna keep walkin’? Cause yer gonna have to really pick that pace up, sweetheart. I’m so sorry for tellin’ ya that but it’s how it is.”

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Ellie calculated in her head how long that would take her to walk when she was in good health.  Then she doubled it.  It seemed daunting task but with the reality of the situation laid out for them, Ellie knew she had little choice.  She pushed herself away from the tree.  Sure she was shaky but she was focused on the idea that getting her to safety would mean that Maggie would be safe too.  If she thought of it that way she knew she could push herself.  “We’re going now.  I’ll be faster. We can’t stay out here with it getting dark.  It’s not safe for you and like you said --- I need to get this looked at.”  She took a deep breath and pushed back at the pain, the dizziness.  “Let’ go.  Let’s do this.” She began to walk, thinking of it as one step at a time.  Don’t think about the long run. Or the time it could take --- instead she knew she should just keep going to avoid anyone else (Maggie) getting hurt.

[safekeepiing]

Calli nodded a little as she looked at the kids behind her and sighed a little looking at the house, “We’ve been staying there, don’t know how much longer we’ll be here but you’re welcome to join us if you’d like.” she said to her lightly as she rubbed the back of her neck then watched as they went to lay back down in the small house she’d been keeping them in. They had sleeping bags lined up in the first room on the top floor - the house had been cleared and re-cleared by her every day just to make sure it stayed safe.  “The more the merrier, right?” Callista said to her gently as she looked at her, “We’ve been lucky, none of us have gotten sick we’ve had food - I hit a deer last week so we have enough to last the next few days but I couldn’t get enough meat off it before roamers came,”

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Kids --- she had never really been that good with them.  She had good intentions of course but it seemed like every time someone handed her one it ended in tears.  She had learned to avoid such situations. Before --- that was before.  Now she was standing in front of a whole crew of them thinking that she couldn’t in good conscious just wander off and hope for the best for them.

Even if they didn’t particular need her help.

“The more the merrier,” Ellie echoed.  “I could...you know stick around for a bit.  See if I can lend a hand and find you some things.  Maybe scout out a better place or help make sure this one is good.  If that’s what you need.”

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@headabovewalker liked for a STARTER !!

’ i could kill for a bottle of whiskey. literally, i’m afraid. ’

[headabovewalker-blog]

“ --- I don’t doubt it.          Though I feel like I need to point out that is a bit extreme don’t you        think?”