Why Am I Alone at After Tree?
I sometimes would blame my inability to effectively communicate with her.
It might be because of the way I talk or maybe she just didn’t like to hear the truth?
I used to be a highly-opinionated person, but I left that part of me years ago and now I’m thinking that she might still be alive and be triggered at some point.
Well, I don’t think so, because I’ve been practicing to speak softly and be mindful with my words.
And we all know that swallowing the truth has never been easy, some won’t even dare to try to swallow it. Try drinking water and drown, that would make even more sense.
So, I guess, the reason I’m alone is because she needs time to process her emotions.
Why Do Lovers Hate to Say Sorry?
The “Lover” in this chapter’s title shouldn’t be in there.
But you know why I had to put it in the title? Because she claims to be my lover and she’s supposed to love me.
She knows how to love me or maybe not?
I am not feeling it. My needs are not being met.
To be fair, she might feel the same way.
I’ve been contemplating as to why I get easily annoyed when she has done small lapses every time we’re together.
There were moments we would talk and laugh so hard only to fight after a few hours just like Tom and Jerry.
It’s never been easy having to deal with this feeling. I would sometimes block her on all socials just to get rid of it, but it never does.
As I am writing this, I remember the movie I’ve watched for the Nth time in college, it’s called “The Fault in Our Stars”, the woman who has a problem with her thyroid has been reading the same book over and over again, she highlighted that emotions are meant to be felt.
Which is kind of true, right?
It’s just not making sense to me that I keep on feeling the same emotion simultaneously.
I don’t think that’s fair anymore. This has to stop.
