how long has it been? a fair question, just not one he can answer as easily as caspian did. he tries anyway, mumbling a firm, “ ah, i've certainly changed since then. ” while the horse at his side huffs, demanding more of his attention. but caspian is like a magnet, pulling him in like gravity, and edmund finds himself caught there, noticing him properly for what feels like the first time.
he turns back easily, letting that warmth draw him in again, and flashes the man a crooked grin. his touch is warm and familiar — something he had not realized he could miss until he felt it again.
“ that's all i can tell you. it all went by in a blur, i'm. . . not who i was when you last saw me. yeah, i think the paleness speaks for itself. ”
narnia is a peculiar place. while time is, possibly, a human construct, narnian time is not bound to earth — it moves as aslan wills it to. edmund has never been able to grasp its inconsistency.
three times he had fallen out of it.
once through professor kirke's wardrobe, once at the old strand london underground station, and once again at eustace's.
a whole life lived behind starry eyelids. he'd grown into a sense of self and into his own body, learnt when and how to make decisions like an adult would. all of it gone when he would return again and again to a body that felt (and still feels) wrong.
oh, aslan! let it be right this time. “ i hope not! i'm not really in the mood for another one, and. . . i would rather just enjoy being back. ” edmund deadpans, falling into step beside him. “ but, if it did come to it, i think we'd be alright. ”
a huff follows. “ you're lucky it's just me this time, cas. peter wouldn't have been too pleased with that information. ” then again, nothing ever stays the same for long. “ i will say, though — talking about renovations as if it's nothing. . . cair paravel was my home. try not to disappoint me. ”