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My most hypocritical trait is I complain about people ditching their friends for their significant other when I have literally cancelled plans to hang out with imaginary people
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R H E V E L L E
Genuinely feeling like madd is one of the weirdest and worst thing my brain does. It’s hard to come to terms with how harmful it is because sometimes it’s all that makes me happy, but that’s exactly the issue. I wish I could easily stop finding all my comfort and joy in imagined scenarios that my real life will never ever replicate because it’s all so unrealistic. I’m making my own life by creating an ideal I can never live up to. I feel genuine love for people who don’t even exist and every time I think too hard about that my whole world comes crashing down around me. How am I ever going to be normal, have normal relationships when I can’t stop caring about all this shit I made up in my head?
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1. Do you use a repetitive motion to stimulate daydreams (rocking, pacing, etc.)? What is it/are they? Can you daydream without repetitive movement?
Yeah I pace a LOT, most of my good day dreams or ones that are a lot more involved plot wise like that have a lot of detail rather than just being snippets happen, but i daydream in smaller less detailed portions when im still too. A lot of my daydreams that are darker and bordering on intrusive thoughts are more likely to happen when im still, such as when im going to sleep but i can daydream without moving sometimes its just not quite as immersive or fun
7. How do you feel about your characters/paras? Have you ever fallen in love with them?
Oh, I’m totally in love with my paras, some platonically some otherwise and my feelings for them are so so real which can hurt a lot. Sometimes it can be as intense as me feeling like I’m “cheating” on my parame’s gf when i try and get into relationships irl and its just a bit messy rlly, never knowing if my love for real people can live up to that
16. Where do you get names for your paras?I love love love this question okay okay My paras have a LOT of different nationalities and this mainly stems from the fact that i was big into the anime Hetalia when they were being formed which has a character that represents each country. Some of their names were VERY directly influenced by the character of the country such as Kiki being named for the character Kiku from Hetalia, but others I just got names that either I liked off the top of my head or i googled names popular within the country I wanted them to be from. A lot of their names also came from RuPaul’s Drag Race when I was super into that, ranging from mildly influenced like Courtney Atcheson (Insp. by Courtney Act) and Doreen Delano (Insp. by Adore Delano) to names I just ripped completely like Ivy Winters cause I just thought it was a gorgeous name.
✨ new madd asks ✨
(most of these are meant to inspire long, in-depth answers, but feel free to answer however you wish. whatever makes you feel comfortable!)
1. Do you use a repetitive motion to stimulate daydreams (rocking, pacing, etc.)? What is it/are they? Can you daydream without repetitive movement?
2. Do your daydreams get violent? How do you feel about them? How do you respond to them?
3. When are your daydreams the happiest?
4. Do you daydream in first person perspective? Do you have a parame/avatar?
5. Do you have (a) linear daydream(s)? How long has it/have they been running?
6. How did you discover you had madd? How do you feel about it?
7. How do you feel about your characters/paras? Have you ever fallen in love with them?
8. Do you know any other MD’ers personally?
9. How did you feel about it before you knew what maladaptive daydreaming was? Did you think it was something everybody does or that you were unique?
10. What most influences your daydreams? Realtime events? Books? Movies?
(note: i’m aware some are more comfortable with terms like character or person, but for simplicity i have elected to use the term “para.” please, feel free to respond with the terms you prefer.)
11. If you have a parame, please describe them. Are they much like you? How do you feel about them?
12. Do you have favorite paras? Why are they your favorites?
11. How old are the majority of your paras?
12. If you could give your paras any advice, what would you tell them?
13. Do your paras appear in a style other than realistic? For example, like anime or in the style of a video game?
14. Do you have OCs?
15. Are any of your paras adopted from existing fiction? From real life?
16. Where do you get names for your paras?
17. Do your paras have tragic backstories? Will you share a few?
18. Are any of your paras deceased? How did they die? How did you feel?
19. Are your paras human? Mortal?
20. Have any of your paras ever completely disappeared/vanished from the daydream world? Is there a story behind it or was it an unconscious occurrence? Do you think they might return? Do you want them to?
21. Have your characters commit crime? Have they been to jail? Are they legally innocent? Are they socially innocent?
22. Do your paras often find themselves in dangerous situations? How/why? Do they go looking for trouble? Does trouble look for them?
23. What do you associate with your paras? Colors? Smells? Words?
24. Has a para ever broken your heart? Have you ever broken theirs (through a parame)?
25. Has a para ever made you physically cry?
26. Do you act out your daydreams? Do you speak to/through your paras out loud?
27. Have you ever been caught daydreaming?
28. What do you most dislike about being a maladaptive daydreamer? Are there things you like about it?
29. Briefly describe a daydream.
30. Do you daydream to music? Is music a necessity to daydream? Do you wear headphones? How loud do you keep the volume?
31. Do you have models/faceclaims for your paras?
32. Does daydreaming energize or exhaust you?
33. Do you think there is a pattern/correlation between your daydreams and how you daydream them? For example, are your daydreams more violent when you’re lying down?
34. Do you have distinct daydream triggers? Do your daydreams come and go as they please?
35. Does your mood affect the amount of time you spend daydreaming? Or their intensity?
36. Have you ever had daydream block? How did you feel? How did you break it?
37. Have you ever had abusive paras? If it is not too sensitive to share, will you tell us about your experience with them?
38. Do your paras directly affect you in thisverse? Do you only interact with them in fictional scenarios or do you find yourself reaching for them in realtime, too? For example, do you converse with them mentally when facing a difficult situation?
39. Do you only daydream fantasy? Do you dream about thisverse?
40. Do you do research for your daydreams? How much? How often? How deep?
41. What was your first maladaptive daydreaming experience? Do you remember it? How did you feel about it?
42. When did you know what you did was different?
43. Do you ever daydream through the perspectives of paras of the opposite sex? How is it?
44. Do you experience any confusion between fantasy and reality? Does daydreaming leave you in a haze or in a dazed state?
45. If you have a parame, do you experience any dysphoria because of them?
46. Do you ever rewind your daydreams and re-daydream old material?
47. Do you remember your daydreams in detail?
48. Do you edit your daydreams? To what extent? How often/how much does your brain block you from controlling things?
49. Do you get excited when you see or hear a para’s name in thisverse? When you see someone who looks like them? When you see something you associate with them?
50. How might you describe maladaptive daydreaming to someone who does not experience it?
Send me some asks if you’d like!
Who are you favorite paras?
Other than Jex and Ivy (parame and her GF) cause those are the obvious ones my favourite is probably Kyle. His backstory is the most developed other than J&I and he is just the sweetest boy in the whole world. He’s just one of those people I know Jex wouldn’t survive without. He’s like her big brother and he has the gentlest soul and energy. A lot of the negative daydreams I counteract with a scene with him, because he provides a sweet, platonic comfort that Jex can’t get anywhere else.
Another absolute favourite is Ciaren. He’s just the most charming little asshole ever man. He’s also like a brother to Jex, but in a sorta different way because all they do is bicker, but they love each other so much. They relate a lot on things no one else understands and he can be hella cuddly when he wants to. He’s also Jex’s reality check a lot of the time. He’s probably one of the most mentally stable paras, so he can see a little more clearly sometimes and is willing to put in the effort for his friends to understand what they’re going through even though he’s not experiencing it. He’s just a cheeky, adorable guy.
Courtney is also so great. I know i keep relating these all to family but Jex’s actual family never come into the story so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Courtney is a very maternal figure, she’s a few years older and has had a very rich life and she combined with Honey provides mentorship for the younger LGBT paras on those sort of issues. She’s also just a flirty, fun girly girl who is super witty and doesn’t care what anyone thinks of her which I loveeee.
Ella is perhaps one of my most complicated paras which is what makes her so interesting. She’s one of those people who has a façade up all the time, unlike Jex and Kyle who wear their heart very much on their sleeve. She is the sort who claims not to give a fuck but is dealing with a lot inside that isn’t obvious at first, but she opens up to her band members eventually. Her main problem is drug addiction, and a lot of the daydreams that make me cry involve her because seeing someone who appears so strong be so vulnerable is heartbreaking.
I could go on about all my paras forever man I love them so much, but I’ll leave it at that for now
Talk about your paras/main para/paracosm then =D
Okiii well my main paracosm is the one this blog is based around, it’s p much an idealised reality with different characters, so my parame is my idealised self
When I’m actually in my daydream she goes by my actual name, but for the sake of this blog I call her Jex cause it feels weird to call her by my name out loud or in writing haha!
The other main character is her girlfriend Ivy, but I like to skip around in the timeline of their relationship to before they got together sometimes because I live for that sweet slowburn friends to lovers shit so I redo all those scenes 100000 times over
Other than that there’s Jex’s band who are pretty key to the story which is Kiki, her best friend who was her next door neighbour before she moved house, Kyle who is like a big brother type figure and just the softest soft boy ever I love him and Ella who is a sorta past fling for Jex but it never worked out and they ended it as best friends
There’s also Jex’s best friend Ricky who she knew her whole life
There’s so so so many paras in the paracosm but those are the ones who are in almost every day dream, I have a whole list of everyone in my blog but it’s constantly growing
Edit: I can’t believe I forgot Ciaren!!! He’s another brotherly figure in Jex’s life and he is very present as well
If anyone’s interested in that: glassacre.tumblr.com/characters is the url
Anybody wanna be sweet and ask me questions about daydreaming/my paras/literally anything I guess? I’m super down and I’d appreciate the distraction<3
PINK!!!!!!!!!!!
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Almost full board do I get a prize??? Thank god my hearing is still ok I try to not blast my ears out but its so hard sometimes asdfxsasjnd