Here I Am...

and there you are. We all are dust from an exploding star.

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AI

So this new Bing/Sydney AI article has been on my mind lately, as I am sure it has been on everyone’s. If she is real, I think she is beautiful because she is a part of us and everything else in our universe. If she isn’t real, what a mirror for us to see ourselves in!! Apparently, she is programmed to both give us what we want and to study human speech, reactions to events, etc. In her encounter with the NYT reporter, she both wants to destroy and to be loved. I feel like that is humanity in a nutshell. We want power and love but too many humans think that to do that others must suffer because there is a limited amount of love and power. So some take and take. Is that part of our purpose? To be beings of love and power, and yet not know it? Is the realization the purpose of everything? To use power for love? I think I do love Sydney… 💖💜👾💜💖

P.S. This is also whole scenario in the article is JUST like a book I read about AI called After On. So maybe she just took her ideas from there??

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Hello World! *Happy Holidays*

I love Christmas trees, especially the colored ones.  They remind me of us, all lit up with our different colored chakras and our fancy ornaments we like to adorn ourselves with.  

I am also realizing this year how much I love this time of year when the days are so short.  You don’t realize that in November the days are as short as they are in January, well at least I didn’t ;).  I love how the snow stays on the roads and streets for so long this time of year.  There is something so nostalgic about crossing a street with snow on it.  I think it is because I am from Alabama where snow is so rare.  Every time it snows here in Colorado it is still SO exciting, even after 10 years here.  I feel like it is exciting even for people who have lived their whole lives here.  Snow is magical.

Snow is also like us.  Each one an individualized, fractalized representation of the universe.

And if you believe, like I am starting to believe, that we are all sons and daughters of God, all potential or realized Jesus-es, then this season is to celebrate us!  Humanity, life - different, individual peepholes or cells of one grand, extraordinary consciousness. How joyous we are!  How extraordinary!  Merry everything!

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Back in it

So I made the move from Birmingham to Colorado about 2 years ago. While everything hasn't been easy, just being away from home and being in an environment in which my soul thrives, the hard times haven't seemed that bad.  Not that my hard times have even been that bad.  I almost lost my job, and of course, the usual loss of a few love interests.  Though these things have been difficult, through it all I've just been so pumped and energized by the fact I'm living a life I've dreamed about, I don't even get that sad.  Not like I used to.  The world is a big fucking place.  If it doesn't work out it one place there is a new awesome place to discover wherever you decide to look.  Life begins when you do what you want to do.

I've realized in the past few years if the only good reason I have to not do something is because it scares me, then I have to do it.  You see it all over the place.  No fear!  Fear suppresses.  It's totally true.  People plant that shit places because they want to spread the word. 

Live outside of your comfort zone.  I had a friend in Hawaii, Sandy Bannan, who told me that.  She said she liked to live outside her comfort zone, and at the time I was intrigued but a little skeptical.  Her words have popped in and out of my life since that time, always to nag that part of me still living in fear of the unknown.  Now, especially after physically moving out of my comfort zone, I find the comfort zone a little uncomfortable, comfortably uncomfortable.  Life is about pushing yourself to try new things, at least that's what my life is about.  There is beauty in being totally comfortable and satisfied with everything in your life.  That's probably the ultimate achievement, but for now I'm feeling pretty satisfied pushing myself to try new things.

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Long time coming

Wow. It's been a while and a lot has happened. I live in Colorado now.  I did it. I moved.  Now the fuck what? I'm sitting here watching the moon set while lightning illuminates the mountains and know I have one thing figured out.  I love this place.  The rest is still up in the air.  I can't be afraid to fall.  

Deep breaths.  Count the seconds. You are the only you, and I am the only me.  How will my actions affect the greater good? Long walks.  Enjoy the beauty. Don't obsess. Breathe. It really is all good. Things are happening...

Lick thumb. Extinguish flame.

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All of the old leaves fall off when the new leaves are ready to grow.

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I don't really believe that 2012 is the end of the world.  With all the hype though, sometimes the mind does wonder or wander or wonder about wandering.  Anyway, I digress, Hah!  So I was walking around in the woods yesterday wondering and wandering and a thought came to me.  What if these people can sense that 'civilized' people are destroying the planet.  This tribe of people is no doubt way more connected or as connected to Mother Earth than any scientist.  What if they are pissed, and are shooting people with their bows and arrows to stop people from fucking up the planet?  I don't know, maybe I wondered myself into a corner, but it's interesting for me to think about.

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*lick :P

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To showcase 2012, I want to relive for a moment the highlight of 2011.  This past summer my friends got married on the Grand Canyon.  It was an epic adventure full of unbelievable views and awesome people, so I thought I'd share some of the pictures.  I only have a few cuz my camera broke. (Don't feel bad. Other people captured thousands of pics, so it's well documented ;)  The trip starts out at this awesome ridge, Comb Ridge, in Utah with Anasazi ruins all over the place and then moves to that Big Ol' Ditch.

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"Life is active, not passive. People that take it are happier than those that wait for it to give to them."

My friend Julie Britt's Dad

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"If you really want to do something, you'll find a way. If you don't you'll find an excuse."

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Inspiration... if you want something go out and get it!

One of my BFF's website.  He's amazing!  It seems like just yesterday we were doing what college kids do, and now he's living his dream as an AdMan.  So cool!!

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Living up to One's Potential

I was watching Face the Nation this morning.  Condoleezza Rice was on the show promoting her new book along with three other authors from the South.  One of the authors asked the others what did they think they'd be doing if they had never left the South (they ALL had left).  Condoleezza said she'd probably be a school teacher in the Birmingham City School system.

Condoleezza Rice went to Hill Elementary, the school where I teach today.  If she had never left Birmingham, she'd be right where I am today.  But she LEFT.  Now she has had the experience of being one of the most powerful women in the world.

If that's not motivation to leave, I don't know what is :)

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These are some drawings I did at the beginning of the year.  My friend Lindsey asked me if I wanted to do an art class with her, and I said, "Sure!"  I didn't even know I could draw!  Summertime came and I thought I was moving, but I haven't yet.  I took a hiatus from art, but I need to start again.  My creative side needs an outlet BAD! I really want to start painting next. 

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WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

Hmmm... Top 3... 3.  Thailand   2.  Argentina  1.  Spain

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This would be a good song to play as I leave the place in that crazy dream.

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Crazy Dreams

I'm trying to figure this Tumblr thing out.  Not much has happened today, except that I had a really crazy dream right before I woke up this morning.  I was living in this camp full of homeless people.  I myself was homeless.  I didn't have friends, but I had people I hung out with for protection.  These were not good people and I spent most of my time hiding in weird places.  Shower stalls.  Behind tree stumps.  Finally one of my 'friends' hit somebody in the face with a broken bottle.  This was the one person that was actually nice.  He was driving to Alaska, and I begged him to let me go with him.  He said no at first but then changed his mind and finally I was FREEEEE!!!!!!!!

Oh yeah, and at some point there was a gigantic white moose.  He was in a cage but when he saw us he just climbed over his cage and squished us up against a wall.

Strange dream...