Took the 501 from Princess & Anderson.
Ate a protein bar at the shelter for breakfast. I like my protein bars, but this one went down and then directly up to the right side of my skull.
It has broken down and wedged between bones in my face like a crow bar.
On the walk up to the bus stop, it felt like things were caulifowering - popcorn going from a kernel to flowering out - across my head.
I don't feel kernel beads in my head like I felt the barley. But I do feel the metamorphosis of something flowering out and taking up space the size of popcorn.
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Socialization is great. It is important.
However, it is extremely important to remember that socialization, suddenly into a space that is cleaner and safer than the one you were in before
Acts as a cushion of comfort
Makes us forget about the alcohol that we were using to break down lines of posion in the body
At first you feel great and like you belong better or the hospital will be more receptive to your massive fin crack in your forehead or the bolt cutter line in the rectovaginal septum
And then you realized the food crowbar that has been wedged between the skull bones able to break down
Unable to see without lines in vision because light is hitting through the skull cracks from all angles.
I wish I had alcohol on me.
I cannot forget the purpose of it, because I get too comfortable or feel to safe or join to far into the status quo of its harm.
You know when alcohol becomes harmful?
When I take a brain aneurism because I stopped using it to break down the brain aneurism lines to please the Joe Biden affiliates working in Canada on his behalf.
The red with yellow around it, is the massive impalement hole
Above my outter right eyebrow that recently opened up and scabbed over.
(You're telling me its not as big as the elevator impalment hole in my chest, but the rest of my body covers that, where the skull and the one above my eyebrow is much bigger on a much smaller scale.)
1)At my left ear there is a cross in the bone, up the top of my head & up under my left eye NOT across my cheek
3)The right side is closer to the front of my face yet still near the ear, and then it goes across my right cheek bones
2)The protein bar went to the right side first, and then wedged between the backwards L shaped crack, down my forehead then out to the ear
3)The left eye feels proximately higher than the right eye, as if the left side skull has blown up and out, or remains on the base and the right no longer is (nerve damage included)
4)The back left side has wedged open, the undercarriage/hammock shaped line in the back of the skull
5)I wish I had alcohol but I have work to do
6)This is exactly how people become homeless. Pushing one more day of work, not buying alcohol so they can arrive at work status quo instead of arrive at work alive ---its funny how they'd send me to a drunk tank or psych ward at home, sometimes to help, sometimes knowing it was a way to drown me in a bathtub and give up on everything so Amanda could get some alone time with her boyfriend.
Did I mention her boyfriend yells "United States Secret Service" and then turns like a revovling sprinkler with a finger gun up in the air when shit goes side ways
And the K9 unit barks at him
And then stops barking look at me and ask if he is really that dumb.
Question For K9 Units From Sea To Sea & Down South Too:
Has your dog ever stopped barking at someone in the middle of a call to look at them then look at you like this?
"Is this guy really that dumb?"
"Wow, this one is a new kind of dumb. I don't really know what to do here."
