DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT YEAR IT IS?

when anybody preaches DISUNITY, tries to pit one of us against the other, you know that person seeks to rob us of our freedom, and destroy our very lives. indie nea walker.  written by sky.  sideblog to hellthinking.

[heaventhinking-blog]

"Well I hope you had a blast while you dragged me along."

DEAR EVAN HANSEN | ACCEPTING

      blood drips off hands as nea laughs bitterly, her entire body quivering in rage as she throws the barely moving form of one of the other noah away from her.  she’s crying--crying IN THE SORROW ALL NOAH FEEL, when family is destroyed.

     “you’re a fool, thinking i take pleasure in this.”  nea says as she rounds on cry.  “but it’s okay, erroris.  when  you reawaken, you will understand why i did what i must.”

[heaventhinking-blog]

( cross ) ❝ Another masterful attempt ends with disaster ❞ // swe ats is this ok ay

DEAR EVAN HANSEN | ACCEPTING

     “suppose so.”  nea’s hands shake the slightest bit, her control over allen’s young, childish form weakening with every passing minute as the child stirs from slumber.  “don’t know if i’ll remember this conversation when we see each other next.  you look HORRID with the beard.”

[rp--meme--dump]

( ░ ❛ dear evan hansen → the sentence meme

*feel free to change any of the pronouns/names from the quotes to fit your muses. warning a couple of quotes are nsfw

❝ Can we try to have an optimistic outlook, huh? ❞

❝ Can we buck up just enough to see the world won’t fall apart? ❞

❝ Another stumble as I’m reaching for the right thing to say ❞

❝ Anybody maybe happen to know how the hell to do this? ❞

❝ I don’t know if you can tell but this is me just pretending to know ❞

❝ Another masterful attempt ends with disaster ❞

❝ On the outside, always looking in ❞

❝ We start with stars in our eyes. We start believing that we belong ❞

❝ And no one tells you where you went wrong ❞

❝ When you’re falling in a forest and there’s nobody around do you ever really crash, or even make a sound? ❞

❝ We pick a spot and shoot the breeze like buddies do, quoting songs by our favorite bands, telling jokes no one understands. Except us two ❞

❝ Feels like we could go on for forever this way. Two friends on a perfect day ❞

❝ We walk a while and talk about the things we’ll do when we get out of school. Bike the Appalachian trail or write a book or learn to sail? ❞

❝ There’s nothing that we can’t discuss like girls we wish would notice us but never do ❞

❝ There’s nowhere else I’d rather be ❞

❝ We’ve been way too out of touch. Things have been crazy and it sucks that we don’t talk that much ❞

❝ But I should tell you that I think of you each night I rub my nipples and start moaning with delight ❞

❝ I’ve gotta tell you, life without you has been hard ❞

❝ Kinky! ❞

❝ And I miss talking about life and other stuff ❞

❝ I love my parents but each day’s another fight ❞

❝ I’ll take your advice. I’ll try to be more nice, I’ll turn it around. Wait and see ❞

❝ ‘Cause all that it takes is a little reinvention ❞

❝ I’m sending pictures of the most amazing trees ❞

❝ Dude, I’m proud of you just keep pushing through ❞

❝ Our friendship goes beyond your average kind of bond ❞

❝ I could curl up and hide in my room. There in my bed, still sobbing tomorrow, I could give in to all of the gloom ❞

❝ Why should I have a heavy heart? ❞

❝ Why should I start to break in pieces? ❞

❝ Why should I go and fall apart for you? ❞

❝ I gave you the world, you threw it away ❞

❝ ‘Cause when the villains fall, the kingdoms never weep ❞

❝ After all you put me through, don’t say it wasn’t true that you were not the monster that I knew ❞

❝ There’s nothing like your smile, sort of subtle and perfect and real ❞

❝ You never knew how wonderful that smile could make someone feel ❞

❝ But we’re a million worlds apart and I don’t know how I would even start ❞

❝ And he wondered how you learned to dance like all the rest of the world isn’t there ❞

❝ Guys like you and me we’re just the losers who keep waiting to be seen, right? ❞

❝ No one deserves to be forgotten ❞

❝ If you never get around to doing some remarkable thing that doesn’t mean that you’re not worth remembering ❞

❝ No one should flicker out or have any doubt that it matters that they are here ❞

❝ Have you ever felt like nobody was there? Have you ever felt forgotten in the middle of nowhere? Have you ever felt like you could disappear? ❞

❝ ‘Cause when you don’t feel strong enough to stand you can reach out your hand and someone will coming running ❞

❝ There’s a place where we don’t have to feel unknown ❞

❝ I don’t need you to sell me on reasons to want you. I don’t need you to search for the proof that I should ❞

❝ I don’t need more reminders of all that’s been broken. I don’t need you to fix what I’d rather forget ❞

❝ What if it’s you and what if it’s me and what if that’s all that we need it to be and the rest of the world falls away? ❞

❝ But if you really see me if you like me for me and nothing else. Well, that’s all that I’ve wanted for longer that you could possibly know ❞

❝ So you found a place where the grass is greener and you jumped the fence to the other side. Is it good? ❞

❝ Well I hope you’re proud of your big decision. Yeah, I hope it’s all that you want and more ❞

❝ Well I’m sorry you had it rough and I’m sorry I’m not enough. Thank God they rescued you ❞

❝ Does it cross your mind to be slightly sorry? Do you even care that you might be wrong? ❞

❝ Well I hope you had a blast while you dragged me along ❞

❝ And you say what you need to say. And you play who you need to play. And if somebody’s in your way, crush them and leave them behind ❞

❝ All I need is some time to think but the boat is about to sink ❞

❝ So I just stand here sorry, searching for something to say ❞

❝ That’s not a worthy explanation. I know there is none. Nothing can make sense of all these things I’ve done ❞

❝ 'Cause what if everyone saw? What if everyone knew? Would they like what they saw? Or would they hate it too? ❞

❝ The house felt so big, and I felt so small ❞

❝ And I knew there would be moments that I’d miss. And I knew there would be space I couldn’t fill. And I knew I’d come up short a billion different ways ❞

❝ Dear Evan Hansen,​ today is going to be a good day. And here’s why: because today, today at least you’re you and—that’s enough.​ ❞

[icedmacha]

bastille // power

[vanish]

[heaventhinking-blog]

“We have more in common than you might think. The world thinks we’re both dead, for starters”

PERSON OF INTEREST | accepting

     the fourteenth can only smile at miku from where she sits.  that’s not entirely a lie, not really--BECAUSE MIKU IS RIGHT.  “i suppose we do have plenty in common.”  she comments.  “but the point remains--you’re still not wanted here, regardless of if you were friends with the host.”

[heaventhinking-blog]

bENCH PRESSES-!!!

     SCREAMS!!!!

[heaventhinking-blog]

@misfortunefated liked the call.

     nea freezes when she hears the man call out to her.  the way to get her attention has been gotten, BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN SHE’S HAPPY ABOUT IT.  she’s spinning around after a moment, pulling her hood off, to run a hand through short, messy hair.

     “DID YOU SAY SOMETHING, SIR?”

[heaventhinking-blog]

❝ i don’ have any friends. i don’ have any family lef', either. lef' 'em all behind. ❞

PERSON OF INTEREST | accepting

     “YOU POOR DEAR,” nea in allen’s body says.  her disguise is flawless, && SHE’S TAKEN TO COMFORTING ZUKI as well as would.  sometimes, though, she’s picked the wrong words, even as she goes in for the hug.  “you’ll be okay.  you have us now.”

[justanotherrpmeme]

Person of Interest: 1x01

“When you find that one person who connects you to the world you become someone different” “You wanna see a real gun?” “You bring enough for the whole group?” “You know, you could’ve done me a favor and let those guys land a couple more punches” “Seems like the only time you need a name now is when you’re in trouble” “So am I in trouble? I don’t know” “Do I owe you money? Because I’m, uh, running a little short at the moment” “You don’t know anything about me” “I know that the government, along with everybody else, thinks you’re dead” “I know you’ve spent the last couple of months trying to drink yourself to death. I know you’re contemplating more efficient ways to do it. Which would be a shame” “I don’t think you need a psychiatrist or a support group or pills” “You need a purpose. More specifically, you need a job” “At the end of the day, one of these people will be gone” “The right person in the right place with the right information could change everything” “Where did you get this list?” “Hey, sweetheart, what’s wrong?” “The information I have is incomplete” “You need to know what it would be like to be forced to listen to someone get murdered and not be able to do anything about it” “I guess you could call me a concerned third party” “Turns out career criminals don’t make trustworthy friends” “You got time to talk? I could buy you dinner?” “What happened, you get left behind?” “I know what it’s like to want to get out of a place so bad you’d be willing to do almost anything” “These people, they’re evil” “If the killers are out there, I’m gonna find them. It’s my job” “You haven’t told your mom you left your ex?” “I wish this weekend could go on forever” “I didn’t wanna take the chance that you wouldn’t be here when I got back” “Then I’m gonna buy a boat. And you get to be my first mate. But first we need some more tequila” “Something happened this morning” “You need to come with me” “You were gonna tell him all about us, weren’t you? Hmm?” “It was only later that I realized my mistake” “What did I tell you about sending e-mails?” “We’ve got all the parts. Question is, how do they all fit together?” “Are you here? Hello? You’re gonna keep me waiting? We don’t have time” “I’m curious was there a point where you knew you’d become a bad guy?” “So I’m working for you now?” “I don’t have any friends. I don’t have any family left, either. Left them all behind” “I gave him a choice and he chose wrong” “We have more in common than you might think. The world thinks we’re both dead, for starters” “If you stay and we continue to do this sooner or later, both of us will probably wind up dead”

[heaventhinking-blog]

OOC.  starter call.

[heaventhinking-blog]

@keptwalking

     SHE’S GONNA LOVINGLY EMBRACE HER SWEET BROTHER.  truly the best brother.  she’ll kill anybody for him.

[heaventhinking-blog]

OOC.  anyways im gonna make nea a trans girl instead and nobody can stop me.

[heaventhinking-blog]

@akhuleka | continued from ask:

​​┘♠┌  If there was one thing Allen disliked about Nea it was how touchy the Noah was, it made him feel uneasy and uncomfortable in more ways that one that was for sure. So long as the other left him alone the young man did not care what he did, well that is until this very moment as he had watched Nea walked closer to him.

At first, Allen assumed he was walking over to touch him again as per usual. Earning the normal reaction of the Exorcist taking a step back to avoid the physical contact, he wished that WAS what happened rather than the one that did right now! Once the kiss was placed onto pale lips his entire complexion flushed FLORESCENT RED in half a second, losing all manner of wording as he stumbled back after shoving Nea away.

❛Wa–Wha, WHAT THE H–ELL NEA!?❜

     nea grins as he watches allen after a few moments.  he lets himself be pushed away, only grinning wildly for a few minutes before he gets right back into allen’s space.  his hands press into allen’s sides, nea’s mouth getting dangerously close to allen’s own, before nea breathily says into allen’s space:

     “you’re just so PRETTY.”  it’s moaned out, nea clearly trying to seduce allen into something.  “why don’t you stay here while i take control, yeah?  you need your rest, allen.”

[heaventhinking-blog]

akhuleka:

​​┘♠┌  Great… This was the last place that he wanted to end up at, especially considering it means being near the man that was slowly and inevitably taking over the young man’s body. It did not help that Nea was cooing at him and even going so far as to touch him he felt like some mouse trapped within his own mind like this as he tried to push Nea off of him. ❛I did not come here willingly trust me.❜ If anything he wanted out more than in, anything to get away from this damn parasite taking over his body.

     nea smiles, all teasing && DANGER for a few seconds, before hands rest ‘pon allen’s cheeks, gently rubbing them for a moment, before he moves to properly face allen.  “but if you didn’t want to be here, YOU WOULDN’T BE.  trust me allen, that’s how these sort of places work.”  he lets go of allen nonetheless, before hands go to run through allen’s hair.

[heaventhinking-blog]

@memcriae liked the call

     “I OUGHTA KICK YOUR ASS.”  nea’s voice comes out of allen’s mouth as he properly looks at cross for the first time in thirty five years.  “really.  after the kind of shenanigans allen’s memories tell me you pulled--especially that entire GOING AND DYING THING?  yeah.  i’m going to kick your ass.”

     the noah doesn’t actually mean it.  much.  he’s too busy actually cupping cross’ face, making sure the man is actually alive, && THIS ISN’T SOME KIND OF HALLUCINATION OR DESIRE ON HIS PART.

[heaventhinking-blog]

@keptwalking liked the call.

     “MANA.”  nea’s hands instantly wrap around his twin, in a slightly possessive, but mostly adoring manner.  “you look so handsome today.”  nea likes to cover his twin in compliments, likes to make him feel good about who he is, BECAUSE IT’S THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD.

     “you’re gonna get the eyes of anybody you want, you hear me?”