ITβSΒ ALLΒ ABOUTΒ THEΒ YEARNINGΒ
βΒ you need someone.Β let me be that person.Β let me be what you need.Β β
βΒ look,Β i dunno if iβm the kind of person you need or even want right now.Β but iβm looking around and iβm the only one whoβs here.Β β
βΒ i never realized how much i needed you until you were the one person who wasnβt there.Β β
βΒ you asked me once,Β if i would ever take a chance on usβ¦maybe that ship sailed.Β but.Β ask me again?Β sometimeβ doesnβt have to be today.Β maybe tomorrow just.Β ask me again.Β β
βΒ i know i canβt protect you from everything,Β but i wish youβd let me protect you from the things i can control.Β β
βΒ i used to have so much faith.Β maybe not in deities or something but,Β in the world.Β the universe.Β i believed their was a purpose to it all.Β iβm not sure when i lost that.Β β
βΒ have you ever had somethingβ¦missing?Β like something just doesnβt feel right inside you but you donβt know what it is.Β β
βΒ sometimes,Β i just need the world to be beautiful.Β i know how dark and ugly it can be but i just want to see something good and focus only on it for a few minutes.Β β
βΒ i was sortβve hoping you needed me.Β is that selfish?Β β
βΒ people need someone to see them for what they are and not just see it but accept it.Β i want to be that person for anyone i canβ¦but it can be so suffocating to be that person and also remain unseen.Β β
βΒ sometimes i feel iβm being crushed under the weight of everything iβll never be.Β β
βΒ youβre looking at me but youβre not seeing me.Β do you know how that feels?Β just see me.Β please.Β β
βΒ i want to deserve you.Β iβm trying to deserve you.Β β
βΒ i know i fucked up.Β i know i did but donβt shut me out anymore.Β let me in.Β please let in.Β β
βΒ every time you smile at me,Β i memorize it.Β i remember each moment that i get to be the one to bring out that light inside you.Β no matter what happens between us,Β thatβs what iβll remember.Β Β β
βΒ i canβt help but think thereβs got to be something out there for me,Β somewhere.Β just some place where i actually feel like i belong.Β βΒ
βΒ the world is so big.Β why do i never feel like i fit into it?Β β
βΒ when iβm with you i feel like myself.Β i feel like every side of me is present and accepted.Β and i feel good about itβΒ i feel good about who i am when iβm with you.Β β
βΒ do you like me?Β i know you love me.Β i know you care about me but.Β do you like who i am?Β β
βΒ i want to look in the mirror one day and not feel uncomfortable with my own reflection.Β β
βΒ just take my hand and close your eyes.Β pretend weβre anywhere else but here.Β β
βΒ so,Β what would you be?Β if you had to power to change all the things making you unhappy,Β what would your life look like?Β β
βΒ do you even know what it does to me?Β every time i see you cry,Β any time youβre hurt even the smallest bit it justβ do you realize how deeply youβve imbedded yourself into my heart?Β β
βΒ i donβt feel like a whole person without you anymore.Β i donβt fucking care if anyone else would say about that.Β youβre part of who i am now.Β the most important piece of me.Β β
βΒ every time you walk away you take another piece of me with you.Β β
βΒ iβm only really living in the moments when weβre together.Β the rest is just existing until you look at me again.Β β
βΒ it feels like thereβs a string around my heart and itβs connected to you.Β everywhere you go youβre just tugging me behind,Β pulling me towards you.Β β
βΒ youβve got me in the palm of your hands.Β you could crush me and i would still thank you for touching me at all.Β β
βΒ i no longer know where i end and you begin.Β youβve wound yourself around my soul so tightly,Β youβre all i feel anymore.Β β
βΒ youβve stolen my heart,Β the least you could do is tell me what you intend to do with it.Β β
βΒ i donβt have perfect words.Β iβm not the kind of person who knows how to sound poetic and shit.Β so all i know what to tell you is that i belong to you.Β i donβt know if you want me.Β but iβm yours.Β and at this point however it is you need me,Β iβm here.Β β
βΒ youβre the only thing that matters anymore.Β i canβt eat,Β i canβt sleepβΒ all the goddamn cliches from every stupid movie and song.Β youβre all i think about.Β iβm useless except when iβm yours.Β β
βΒ i havenβt stopped thinking about the way you laugh.Β iβm hoping iβll get to hear it again.Β β
βΒ when your eyes are on me,Β i feel like something worth seeing.Β β
βΒ just let me look at you for a little bit.Β β
βΒ i would do anything for you.Β all my lines and rules.Β they mean nothing when it comes to you.Β itβd cross and break them all just to make you happy.Β β