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Eve | world’s foremost unend scholar | critical role and shadowgast | midst and unend | 28 | walking ace stereotype | white | she/they

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Eve’s Big List of Fanfic

Hello all! Here’s a list of my Critical Role/Shadowgast fics, for your reference and reading pleasure.

MOST RECENT FIC:

“a shared household”

Shadowgast

Rated G

1.1k words

Essek and Caleb have shared many things over the years, and during a quiet evening, they decide to share one more. (this comic provides a sillier but more detailed summary)

COMPLETED FICS:

“On the Nature of Love” series, or Eve’s acespec shadowgast cinematic universe:

“Miss You Dearly”

Shadowgast

Rated G

4.6k words (3/3 chapters)

My rom-com era 💕

At the close of Trent Ikithon’s trial, Essek is invited to a Mighty Nein reunion party on the Nein Heroez, and the wizards spend a fair bit of that time pining.

“All Things End, All Things Change”

Shadowgast

Rated T

2.8k words (2/2 chapters)

The wizards make a decision at the T-Dock, and Caleb gets a moment to grieve.

“How To Rest”

Shadowgast

Rated T

17.7k words (6/6 chapters)

Six snapshots across six months in the lives of two wizards falling in love. Each chapter can be read on its own, but all contribute to the broader narrative.

“On the Nature of Attraction”

Shadowgast

Rated T

7.5k words

My magnum opus. My beloved.

The wizards are ace (both of them!!!) and very in love. Boundaries are set and respected.

Fics, not otherwise specified:

“Home In Your Arms”

Shadowgast

Rated T

2.2k words

After defeating the Weave Mind, Caleb reunites with Essek.

“Above All”

Shadowgast

Rated G

1.3k words

Bells Hells pester Essek about his preferences and partner. (written pre-c3e96)

“admonition, admission”

Essek Thelyss & Leylas Kryn, background Shadowgast

Rated G

1.6k words

An examination of the Bright Queen’s feelings towards and relationship to Essek, before and after his betrayal.

“oh, by the way”

Beau & Caleb, background Shadowgast

Rated G

932 words

Caleb drops the “Essek-and-I-are-dating” bomb on Beauregard, and his timing is, as always, impeccable.

“The Shadowhand Becomes a Baker”

Shadowgast

Rated G

2.1k words

Essek bakes pastries and Caleb is soft about it.

First critrole fic. Inspired by the theory that the Shadow Baker from Campaign 3 is Essek in disguise.

WORK IN PROGRESS FICS:

—How to Rest coda fic

—On the Nature of Attraction follow-up fic

—A fic that is currently in the outlining phase, affectionately titled “kissy kissy uwu”, or the Shadowgast get-together fic. Takes place shortly after the wizards’ solo Aeor trip, featuring a BeauYasha wedding and “the joyful yet agonizing state of being in the same vicinity as your crush and knowing that there’s something there but being too scared to make any moves.”

I was originally planning on this being a fairly chunky one shot, but it has gotten much bigger during the planning stages, so it may end up being multi-chapter. We’ll see.

I am very excited to work on this one!

—A silly AU/crack treated seriously fic focused on the Thelyss brothers and their relationship. Maybe a hint of background Shadowgast if there is a place for it. Outlined fairly well, but on the back-burner while I work on “On the Nature of Love”.

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woke up in the wee hours of the morning with this image in my head

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I painted the Dot and Cleo kiss from my Afterlife sketch dump because I’m still thinking about it and Cleo’s hair is always fun to paint!

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They want to be alive for this, and so, here and now, they are.

I have been deeply unwell about this episode for the last two weeks, and I don’t see it stopping anytime soon. My heart is so full. I am overjoyed, delighted. I will never be the same 💕

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i can’t tell if this is in line with my tendency towards literalism or if this is a sign of growth in my ability to recognize and appreciate metaphor, but it’s really funny to see so many deltarune posts like, “the SOUL is like a demon/alien possessing kris! kris is fighting the player at every turn!!!” and i’m like, “idk i think kris is a teen who has gone/is going through a lot and is experiencing a lot of conflicting emotions and desires, causing them distress and depression. them ripping their heart out of their chest is the way the narrative is externalizing that conflict.” like i’m sorry, i just don’t see kris and their heart as fundamentally different characters. opposed, yes, but parts of the same person nonetheless.

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from my perspective, the boundary between myself and kris when i'm playing is blurry, permeable in places. i am playing kris in the sense that i control them in the video game, but i am also playing kris in the same way an actor plays a character. the way i approach the story does not position me above them; we are in this together, for all the conflict and catharsis the game has to offer

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okay last thing. the game starts with an opening sequence where you design a character that gets thrown out. it acknowledges you as a player, asks you to craft an ego, and then yeets it out of there and tells you no, you are kris. it literally tells me the terms it’s operating on. why shouldn’t i engage with it in that way?

okay that’s all byeeee!

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IT’S REALIZATIONS ALL THE WAY DOWN EVERYBODY GETS A REALIZATION (/neg)

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once again a character saying “this doesn’t have to be romantic” increases my odds of shipping of it

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THE MOTHER BOC

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i need to be sedated

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having a normal one

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the unend tuesday night teehees are POWERFUL this week, as evidenced by them starting on monday night and by a burbling excitement swelling in my chest every moment my mind wanders from whatever I’m trying to focus on

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i can’t tell if this is in line with my tendency towards literalism or if this is a sign of growth in my ability to recognize and appreciate metaphor, but it’s really funny to see so many deltarune posts like, “the SOUL is like a demon/alien possessing kris! kris is fighting the player at every turn!!!” and i’m like, “idk i think kris is a teen who has gone/is going through a lot and is experiencing a lot of conflicting emotions and desires, causing them distress and depression. them ripping their heart out of their chest is the way the narrative is externalizing that conflict.” like i’m sorry, i just don’t see kris and their heart as fundamentally different characters. opposed, yes, but parts of the same person nonetheless.

[hello-eeveev]

from my perspective, the boundary between myself and kris when i'm playing is blurry, permeable in places. i am playing kris in the sense that i control them in the video game, but i am also playing kris in the same way an actor plays a character. the way i approach the story does not position me above them; we are in this together, for all the conflict and catharsis the game has to offer

[hello-eeveev]

i can’t tell if this is in line with my tendency towards literalism or if this is a sign of growth in my ability to recognize and appreciate metaphor, but it’s really funny to see so many deltarune posts like, “the SOUL is like a demon/alien possessing kris! kris is fighting the player at every turn!!!” and i’m like, “idk i think kris is a teen who has gone/is going through a lot and is experiencing a lot of conflicting emotions and desires, causing them distress and depression. them ripping their heart out of their chest is the way the narrative is externalizing that conflict.” like i’m sorry, i just don’t see kris and their heart as fundamentally different characters. opposed, yes, but parts of the same person nonetheless.