Itās quite difficult to start with something... Itās been a long time since Iām trying to figure out what should I do and how should I do it... till now, I had no answers :)
A month ago I quit my job - as an account manager in a digital media agency. I donāt think thatĀ āquittingā is the best word for that, actually, I just acted like an idiot and making so manyĀ intentionally mistakes that my previous employers just fired me. Itās been difficult and such a long story about working place and people that I love, but I will say just that: Iāve been happy when I got fired :D
And now we can talk about this blog... When I was working I was thinking all the time about the all those things that I could but I didnāt have time for. When I was working for 10-11 h a day I was thinking Ā that I would have more time, everything would be great: I would take care about my music website and writing every day till it would become one of the most popular online magazine in my country, I would make sports everyday (jump rope, running, going to the gym and all those shit ), I would have healthy meals, I would be reading a book a week and learn three languages in just one year, I would take road trips every week and fall in love without thinking that I donāt have time for love....
All of these was just day dreaming because now I have all the time in the world but I still wasting my time thinking about tomorrow and hoping that something will change just like that, by doing nothing... I wake up every morning and think that somehow, someone is going to change everything... well, this s the biggest shit I ever though till now....
I quit my job more than a month ago... guess what?? I didnāt do anything special... no sports, no reading, no healthy meals, noĀ successfulĀ business with my website, no really happy moments... just nothing, just like that... Iāve been wasting precious time doing nothing: just dreaming and hoping that something will happen for no reason. Well, I can assure you that nothing is going to happen if you are just waiting and dream about it, itās just a big bullshit... Iām doing this for about 4 years... 4 wasted years :(((
I have no idea what would I like to do with work, I feel lost and thinking that nothingās gonna make me happy but Iāve stopped thinking about it... Iāve been overthinking and till now I have no clue what Iām going to do, so I just donāt care for the moment... all I know is that I want to work abroad and I hope this will happen soon
Anyway, the reason that Iām writing here is pretty simple: starting today Iām going to do something special for me every day - I have no idea what those things are going to be, but I will do it, I just need that special, unique thing everyday even itās just a huge bullshit: eating worms, learning ten french words, reading a book, wearing a fucking weird make-up, getting in a fight, get really wasted at a festival, making a cake (I donāt know how to cook), have sex in a elevator, meet the president, etc.
Just few things to remember:
1. I might fail - a seriously fail, as I did so many times before
2. If my English suck sometimes, donāt tell me that Iām an asshole with no grammar rules, just mention when I write a stupid fucking shit
3. If you are dreaming about something but you are a fucking lazy ass, just let me know... I canāt help you, but I can say what I did wrongĀ
4. Iām going to do this for a year... letās see whatās gonna happen :P
There might be another few things to mention, but itās enough for the moment...Ā
See you on your special tomorrow!
Kisses,Ā
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