winchester.

（ … ） you  want  to  live  a  different  story.

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independent,  mutually  exclusive,  and  low  activity  D.EAN  W.INCHESTER   by  jordan.    26,   they/them.   10+  years  of  experience.   previous  blogs  include  but  are  not  limited  to:  unsolvedcase,  mschiefed,  mlkvchs,  vridity,  murderache,  ripperache

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he’s so..........

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on a father's rage

catherine lacey // halsey, i would leave me if i could // @heavensghost, It lingers for your whole life

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me getting high and then asking everyone i’ve wanted to write with if they want to plot 

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what kind of touch do you possess?

lingering touch

you are home. you are the feeling of lasting peacefulness. it resonates in your bones and stabilizes your surroundings. you like routine and the familiarity of things. it brings you satisfaction to have a grounded life. you want to build something you're proud of and share the benefits with your loved ones. you are the glue of your friends and family and essential to the functioning of the group. others admire your responsibility and how they can rely on you for anything. you are amazing.

tagged by: @tricursed​

tagging: whomever !

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i still can’t believe someone stole unsolvedcase 

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ok hi i’m extremely high but i’m thinking about d.ean and m.iracle. and how in finding m.iracle and becoming attached to him and taking care of him it fixed something in him from the hellhounds and the trauma they caused. like allowing himself to love this dog and not be afraid he was like healing. that was the first step in his healing process and becoming More.

just made the entire situation worse. watched the 15x20 deleted scene. literal actual tears are falling from my face. he. he asked s.am if he thought the dog was okay. he asked about the reviews. of a doggy daycare. s.am suggested they just take him and “ON A CASE? no. pass. i love that dog.” he loves that dog. he loves that dog. 

[justjensenanddean]

Dean Winchester and Miracle | 15x20 Carry On 

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ok hi i’m extremely high but i’m thinking about d.ean and m.iracle. and how in finding m.iracle and becoming attached to him and taking care of him it fixed something in him from the hellhounds and the trauma they caused. like allowing himself to love this dog and not be afraid he was like healing. that was the first step in his healing process and becoming More.

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&. 𝐡𝐢𝐭 ‘𝐞𝐦 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  more  angst  to  devastate  your  writing  partners.  metaphorically.  )

❛ you’re a weapon, and weapons don’t weep. ❜

❛ you can’t save everyone. ❜

❛ it should have been you. ❜

❛ did i do good? ❜

❛ i’m sorry that i can’t save you. ❜

❛ wait for me, will you? ❜

❛ i can’t lose you again! ❜

❛ you were dead, i saw you die. ❜

❛ we won’t forget each other, right? ❜

❛ i’m real. i’m here. ❜

❛ you already know how this will end. ❜

❛ it’s always my fault, isn’t it? ❜

❛ i don’t want to go. ❜

❛ can you remember how you died? ❜

❛ i love you, but you’re not mine. ❜

❛ have you ever lost someone? ❜

❛ i didn’t ask to get made. ❜

❛ you’re as beautiful as the day i lost you. ❜

❛ i never meant to hurt you. ❜

❛ is it really you? ❜

❛ their blood is on your hands. ❜

❛ it would have been better to die. ❜

❛ i’m not ready to lose you yet. ❜

❛ i wish i met you sooner. ❜

❛ let’s just stay here. grow old. ❜

❛ you’re the first friend i ever had. ❜

❛ i told you not to fall in love with me. ❜

❛ you always push people away. i just thought you’d never do it to me. ❜

❛ everyone i’ve cared about has either died of left me. except for you. ❜

❛ i know i have a heart because i can feel it breaking. ❜

❛ they’re not coming back. ❜

❛ i’m sorry, have we met? ❜

❛ in my dreams, we’re still together. ❜

❛ you’re the one good thing left in this world. ❜

❛ i hate the way that i don’t hate you. ❜

❛ it’s okay. you can let go. ❜

❛ you mean nothing to me. ❜

❛ we’re on our own now. ❜

❛ you can’t kill me, i’m not alive. ❜

❛ it wasn’t supposed to end like this. ❜

❛ do you remember when we first met? ❜

❛ we’ll see each other again. ❜

❛ there’s nothing you could have done. ❜

❛ we did it. we won. ❜

❛ let’s not go back. not ever. ❜

❛ thanks for playing with me. ❜

❛ why does it feel like this is goodbye? ❜

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hey i know i haven’t been here and i don’t really have the entire blog set up yet but my multi is @burnedhope !

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can you believe d.ean w.inchester lives in a lil cabin in the woods and he has a family that he sees every single day and he cooks for because he loves them and he wants everyone he loves to be fed. he works as a mechanic but he still helps with hunts when he needs to because he can’t completely let go of that life and that’s okay. he doesn’t have to. but he does get to have a life outside of it. it took him over 40 years but he figured it out. 

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PATCH

@harvlle .

“alright, alright  --  ow,  fuck.”   the bandage being wrapped on his arm hurts like a son of a bitch.  the grip is tight on the bottle of whiskey in his hand,  a hard glance at her.   “jesus,  you’re rough for someone so tiny.”  he takes a sip from the bottle,  smirk slowly appearing.  “it’s fine,  barely a scratch.  you don’t have to go all super nurse on me.”  it wasn’t just a scratch and he knows that but it wasn’t the first time and won’t be the last. 

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“ you. i’ll always and endlessly fight for you. “ (:

@fallsaved .

why did you do that?  he asked after all the monsters are dead and cas put their life on the line for him.  again.  but the answer only made him angry.  he doesn’t know why it did.  a confession like that should make his chest feel all warm and gooey,  right?   except it just has the complete opposite effect.  he doesn’t deserve that.  to be fought for,   for cas to put their life on the line for him because angel grace or not,  there’s still the possibility of losing them.  he can’t deal with that again.  he can’t.  the angel is covered in blood for him and all he wants to do is make himself bleed because of it.   “don’t.”  rough,  aimed to cut.  “just back off, cas.”  

[dear-ao3]

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hi d.ean never stops wearing his fun lil jewelry 

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*   uncleanking​ .

@hellsaved​ :  “ we’re family. we don’t turn our backs on each other. “ 

family .   what a  strong  word that is .   blood would be the better term here .   yes ,  sam will do what he has to to keep him from dying ,  but the family schtick has been used enough .   it doesn’t mean anything to sam anymore and he couldn’t care less about it .   when he looks at his brother ,  all he sees is the man who raised him and maybe he  should  feel guilty about how things have turned out ,  but sam isn’t capable of that any longer .   in fact ,  any bit of guilt that may surface is quickly diminished by the ever-growing power in his veins .    ‘  we stopped being a family a long time ago ,  dean .   i dunno why you still won’t see that .   i’m not about to stop what i’m doing just to make you feel better .  ’    a pause ,  one long enough for him to breathe but not long enough for dean to respond .    ‘  i think it’s about time you realize that .  ’

take care of sammy.    take care of sammy,   take care of sammy.   it’s on repeat in his head,   over and over and over again.  he stares at the man in front of him and all he sees is the baby brother he was supposed to protect.  dean was supposed to stop this but he failed just like he fails everything.  swallowing the self loathing,  the guilt and the rage he shakes his head.  if he were smarter then he would throw in the towel.  if he were smarter than he would’ve turned his back ages ago.  if he were smarter this never would’ve happened.  but he wasn’t ever the smart one,  that was always sammy.  “c’mon,  you don’t really mean that huh? just bein’ a pain in my ass,  yeah?”   a pause.  he’s stubborn,  refuses to let go.  “sammy.”   it comes out like he’s begging and not hard and rough like intended.  great  --  now he’s begging,  begging for a man he knows is long gone.  he’s begging for the boy that he raised.    c’mon,  winchester,  fix this.  imagine if your old man saw this.  “you can snap back from this.  it doesn’t gotta be this way,  man.”