* ICY HOT .

the fire cannot harm me , for I have burned one too many times .

[helsaiwa]

            hello friends ! long time no see. <3 i logged onto this account to grab something, and to be quite honest, I don’t see myself returning to this blog as it gave me a plethora of anxiety even logging in. I’ve been away from tumblr since June? July? and while i’ve returned, it is unfortunately on a new blog and one that does not fall into the bn/ha fandom ( not an anime rpc at all in fact ). I wanted to leave a lil message before I went though, because I am so so thankful for the honor of meeting some of the people I met here, and I really, from the bottom of my heart, hope you all are doing well. ♥ thank you for giving me such a fantastic time on shouto, thank you for the memories, the laughs, and I wish you all the best in the future. ♥♥

[todorokiicons]

     under the cut are 102 icons of todoroki. you don’t have to like or reblog if you use, idc. these are leftover icons from when i wrote shouto, but have retired him. I hope these get some use for others in the future! ♥

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[helsaiwa]

             I see tumblr has once again pushed a new LookTM onto us, so until xkit works to at least give me back my mutual checker and such, I’ll still be on hiatus. I was planning on coming back this week but with the tumblr change and such I’ll probably hold off until next week. It’s my brother’s birthday on Friday anyway so it’s gonna be a busy weekend sjdfklsjdfksdf BUT NEXT WEEK I AM MAKING A RETURN!! ♥

[helsaiwa]

               peepin’ in to send my mutuals some good vibes only. ♥

[helsaiwa]

I've spent the last couple of days stubbornly clinging to the fact that I love shouto, I love the manga, and I've loved my time on this blog. But I just spent my birthday ( and my father's ) an anxious mess, and I think I've decided that I am going to put Shouto on hiatus for the time being.

I am NOT going to delete. Just need to step away for a little while. for now, you can find me on discord. we might be moving shouto to a multi - or we might just be giving him some time while I give tumblr a break. I’ll make a decision when I make a decision.

[helsaiwa]

MINI CONFESSION TIME: Happy birthday, Jordy! As a straight person, you're bending my sexuality which isn't a bad thing. 8) Stay well and I'll see you on discord! XOXO

Thank you Tori I am so flattered. B) ♡

[helsaiwa]

Happy fucking birthday! uwu

Thank you so much friend ! :^)

[yocheri]

He was worried

Based on a @wrongtododeku's tweet on Twitter

[helsaiwa]

Happy birthday!! I hope your day goes well!!

Thank you so much friend!! I hope you have a good day too 🎉💕

[helsaiwa]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!!!! I really love love love you jordy, I hope you have a wonderful day ahead filled with so much fun !! and lots and lots of cake!!!

I love you too ellie!! Thank you so much for the bday wishes I get to have cheesecake later which is my fave and I'm so excited 🎉🥳💕

[helsaiwa]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

Thank u so much !!!! I send u sm love 💕🥳🎉

[helsaiwa]

ITS MY DAY OF BIRTH THANK YOU GOOODBYE.

[helsaiwa]

ITS MY DAY OF BIRTH THANK YOU GOOODBYE.

[helsaiwa]

a Soft Thought: the fact that shouto hand writes his mom letters instead of just texting her. is it because she doesn’t have / isn’t allowed a phone in the hospital? most likely, but I still like to think he’d still write her letters the old fashioned way even if he could text her. he would 100% absolutely be the type to have a pen pal, or hand write love letters / letters to his friends. ♥

[lemonfume]

baby

[helsaiwa]

shotoc​:

      RYOU GAZE SANK INTO THE PAGES OF HIS BOOK ONCE MORE. as it avoiding locking gaze with shou after his invitation. even thought he was the one to bring the subject, couldn’t help but to feel slightly drain from his anxiety just thinking about it. it wasn’t he didn’t want to , he didn’t wanna seem that way, he wasn’t ready to face her yet.  ‘    …  no.   ’  said underneath his breath, a soft whispers as his would fear judgement from rejecting his offer. even though his he shou would never. since no one understood him better then him. 

‘    I … wrote her something a letter   ’    

            HE   COULD   UNDERSTAND   THE   HESITATION   ---   IT   HAD   TAKEN   SHOU   TIME      to   visit   his   mother   as   well,   a   maelstrom   of   anxiety   the   first   time   he   had   turned   the   doorknob   of   her   hospital   door.   he   would   never   push   ryou   to   see   her   ---   not   until   he   was   ready.   a   small   nod   was   given,   a   way   to   assure   ryou   silently   that   he   would   never,   could   never,   judge   him.

         ❛   a   letter?   ❜   his   curiosity   flared,   a   firefly   in   the   void   of   darkness,   drenched   in   the   quiet   tone   of   his   words.   when   he   looked   over   at   his   twin,   he   sought   to   find   a   clue   as   to   how   ryou   was   feeling   ;   he   was   not   so   lucky.  ❛   i’ll   take   it   to   her.   ❜   he   spoke   gently   ---   a   softness   he   reserved   only   for   ryou.

[helsaiwa]

             I am also going to officially state that I am unaffiliated with the b/nha fandom. I will be adding that to my rules as well.