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Life Lately

Its the last Sunday for the month of February! And it only means one thing. Another entry post for my The Sunday Currently! Can you believe it? We’re on to Vol. 5! Yey!

So it kinda feel odd that 27 days have passed just like that. There are many things that happened, at least for me, in my life. And, I want to share my thoughts about current events worldwide. I think I forgot to write it out earlier when I do my morning pages. So yeah, here I am, I’ll be rambling on and on about whatever thoughts cross my mind. Bear with me!

CURRENTLY

READING: A blog post. This is from my favorite kdrama blogger, @kfangurl. Let me share it with you. Here’s a link to the current post I’m reading. This is the perfect blog to go if you want to see some solid KDrama reviews, ask questions about fangirling and more. Hit the follow and subscribe button to send some loves!

WRITING: This TSC and also outlining my due article for The Finance Boost site.

LISTENING: The perfect music for when you’re typing on laptop and spewing random thoughts whilst oversharing what’s going on in your life: 

Easy by Camila Cabello 

I mean, the lyrics are so damn good! What an eargasm. It just hits you right into your heart! I love love love it, esp this one that goes:

All I know is you, heal me when I'm broken Heal me when I'm broken, oh All I know is you, saved me and you know it Saved me and you know it

THINKING: About what to write? LOL! Maybe I’ll start by sharing my account for the last three days.

SMELLING: Honestly, I can’t use my olfactory sense. Feelin’ I might have started a mild cold or something. Oh no!

WISHING: To make up for the lost time. Well, I’m 3 articles due and here I am stressing out about it because, I supposed to be in sync with my writing calendar schedule. 

I mean, for sure. There are many things that happened, just for this week alone. I trade time for money, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t go out there and have some fun, right? I was just a bit worried because I don’t want unending piles of unfinished business. 

But then, great things take time, right? Hence, although I’m stressing over my due articles, well, I can’t blame the lack of time. These articles top up 3k+ words and more, depending on the complexity of topic. I’m also out of words, most of the time.

My pomodoro method is like 20 mins of work and typing 500+ words then 2 hours or more of watching, eating, and doing personal stuff. LOL.

HOPING: For the Ukraine vs. Russia’s conflict to resolved. Nobody wants war. It scares the shit out of me; with all these potential WWIII that circulating over the internet. It got me thinking about the borrowed and temporary life and peace we enjoy today. I mean, our country may be far away from these lands, but isn’t the first world war started at that region as well,? Just the thought of these war going on makes me depressed and overthink about what other potential things could happen. What if China go berserk and go against us? I mean, what are the odds? 

Praying for Ukraine. For the innocent people affected by this adversity. For the leaders to unite, and for Putin to wake up and realized his actions. Hoping for everything to go back to how it used to be.

What the hell did Putin even want? Only he knows. 

I hope and pray for world peace. It’s something I’ve taken for granted for awhile now. All those war theme and The Diary of Young Girl, Anne Frank- comes back to me. I just hope that this war ends and everything will go back to normal.

We can’t afford it right now, esp us living in the third world country. We’ve barely even survived the pandemic and just starting out to recover and this upcoming worldwide crisis? We are at a huge disadvantage. 

WEARING: PJ’s brown checkered partnered with green basic tee. 

NEEDING: Extra time. I need more time to do all my stuff esp to catch up on my writings. Btw, I think I have shared already that I FINALLY GOT MY DREAM JOB! (can’t wait to update my LinkedIn profile hahaha!) And now I’m on the process of accomplishing the pre-employment requirements. What a blessing in disguise that my official program won’t start until later than next month. This means, more time to prepare and do all my stuff.

Finally! I’ve secured the job and this March, I’m looking forward to my month long preparation and coming to terms into peace for all those hobbies I neglect, must fix, and ditch. 

For sure, I’m going to miss the freelance work-from-home life and I’ve learned so much. But it’s also time for me to go and see the outside world, I’m missing working onsite and I’m all ready for that.

Actually, I’m going to disappear for a month and I’ll plan my March with an intention of MINDFULNESS. Now I know what areas to improve and I must fix, I’m going to make it right once more. We were given another new chances in life everyday, and all we can do is make the most out of it.

FEELING: Sick. Remember how I didn’t have a sense of smell? Well, I can confirm that I now have a cold. I also feel tired for no reason at all. I took a nap for two hours this afternoon and I still feel sleepy. My body wants to lay down. I hope this is nothing sort of serious. Maybe the stress kicking in.

Did I mention that Zuko get lost for almost 24 hours last Thursday? As the curious cat that she is, she forgot her way home. I thought Mama and Papa were just kidding, but then when we got home that day, she really wasn’t there.

All sorts of negative feelings came rushing through. Now I understand and realized, this must be what parent’s feels like when their child get lost or go away without words at all.

I was worried sick the whole night, I barely get sleep. I was wondering where Zuko went and how is she. Did someone took her, abuse her, or whatever. How did she eat- all that stuff. My heart just started to break down into tiny little pieces.

Thankfully, the morning after, she came back. Thanks to Papa’s extra effort to climb the roof, shout her name, and search for her. Zuko was just at a faraway neighbor’s roof, just standing still. 

I wonder if cats feel afraid too if they get lost? One thing is for sure. We’re keeping tabs on Zuko and we won’t allow her to wander again just like that. Although, it’s really part of her, you know, in heat phase, I can’t risk losing her. I’m so attached with my furry friends and I just felt enormous love and care for them. They’re like my practice child? HAHAHAHHA. But, kidding aside, I do love and care for my feline pets.

Another noteworthy to share is that we ate Kimchi Fried Rice! The idea was mine and I made at least 25% of the effort while Wendell did all the cooking part. Hahahah! Nevertheless, it tasted so good, we ate much to our heart’s content.

We also went on a carnival date with our friends. It was just fine. I didn’t enjoy much as I thought I would be. Its because of all these stupid Final Destination jokes and all that ridiculous stuff. It scared the shit out of me again! Of course, who wouldn’t? Not long after when I watched the recent incident in a theme park that week. 

So I was really you know, trying to enjoy, have a good time, but also getting too worried sick and cautious about all that “what-if’s.”

Wendell and I got henna tattoos! Mine was heavenly bodies alignment and his were a tree with full on branches and leaves.

It was romantic, noisy, exhausting, fun, all at the same time. I can’t wait to have more dates with my Pi.

So that’s all for me for this week. I did have a great time and life’s good.

I hope you had a great week too! Just keep swimming!

Always remember that your labor is not in vain.

Have a beautiful week ahead my friends!

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Bleed for me.

Sister, I've been bleeding for you the whole time.

[mysharona1987]

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This and also to climb the corporate ladder. Learn from the industry and people within it firsthand.

But I don't wanna die a bloke.

I want to own shares of the company I work for and build an empire of my own through accumulated knowledge and skils.

Make it better.

[rosacarolina]

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Life Lately

Hey guys! So this was supposed to be TSC 5th, but I didn't posted last week because, well, you know life happens.

I had a lot to do and even though I am really setting aside time to pause and reflect, write for myself, it's just that... stuff pile up pretty quickly and after crossing one to-do's, there's another one that I forgot to do way back two weeks ago.

See, procrastination deteriorates your productivity. So never again! If you have something you can do right now, at this very moment, do it right now.

Besides, if it's important to you, you will MAKE THE TIME.

Well, lesson learned. This safe haven of mine, my tumblr blog is important to me. Not only bc it makes my head clutter-free but also bc this is my only way of a creative outlet for now.

So, not gonna promise, but I'll try to be at least consistent here in this space. As if someone's reading here or stalking me or anything but, I could care less.

Curious? Let's get this Sunday rollin' baby!

CURRENTLY

READING: The Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert. I need a quick escape from my last reading, The 4-Hour Work Week... Still haven't finished it yet! Although I'm on the last part of the book, I need to desperately drag myself just to get by to one chapter a day. I don't want to give it up yet but Idk, I'm not in the right motivational space to continue either. I've been meaning to buy new books from my TBR, can't believe it's been two months and I'm still on the shelf-control and book buying ban phase.

WRITING: My pending article from my writing gig (hope to finish even just the rough draft tho!) I'm a week late but well, great quality writing takes time, yes?

LISTENING: Lady Marmalade (brushing my basic knowledge of the romantic language, French) yet I speak like a dummy 5 yrs old.

THINKING: A lot of things. It seems like every drawer on my highly-organized mind is open wide and I can't even proceed on how and where to start, what to share or whether what is okay to share.

SMELLING: Hand sanitizer neutral scent and my freshly clean furr balls!

WISHING: For extra hours beyond the 24 hours a day?

HOPING: That this coming week will be full of fulfillment, accomplishment, joyful intentions, good news, and abundance + blessings.

Well, I have one good news to share! I got the job offer!!! Still can't believe it. Idk, it seems surreal, I'm still in that shookt stage. But this is real, it's actually happening. I have accepted it and signed. I'll be committed into this.

I am ethereal grateful for all the opportunities that came my way, and God answering my prayers. He really does listen.

So it means that, this is it! This is the one big shot I've been chasing all my life and I can't wait to start working soon!

I've already secured and achieved my main goal for this Q1. I'm forever thankful, blessed, humbled, and happy. Patience is really something I got to work out! But in the end, it all turned out fine.

I feel like everything is now falling perfectly into place. I am contented in my life and glad about the little things. Even just having a warm cooked meal makes me melt.

This is it! This will be my stepping stone towards achieving that career.

I also hope that I'll be able to process the pre-employment requirements within this week. I'm just a bit nervous because of all the waiting game, the time it would take to get cleared and verified identification, all that stuff. I hope I can start afresh, renewed, and at my best. No more follow-ups, I hope I'll be able to complete it this week!

WEARING: An oversized sports tee, with comfy shorts.

NEEDING: More assurance, I guess? But where else I could have it? I have to train to calm my mind first and don't be a fucking nervous-wreck.

I also need a new haircut! Maybe I'll cut my hair short because new job, new look! And also I'm inspired by Aileen Xu of Lavendaire about cutting hair can also means cutting those old energies that are holding you back.

This will be a perfect opportunity for me to start fresh and confidently, of course. I think I also need to spice it up a bit by hair coloring. Any suggestions?

FEELING: Stoked! I have a lot to look forward this week and can you believe after that, we're on the 3rd month of 2022?

Today's a cool day anyway, 02-20-2022

A lot of 0s and 2s.. My boyfriend notice.

So anyway, looking back at the past week, I do enjoy our Valentine's. We eat out dinner at this aesthetically pleasing fishing vilage resto near the area. We exchanged gifts and we celebrated in love and peace.

It's also the week I received the best news in my life and I received a huge opportunity that I can't pass. I don't want to screw it up. No pressure because, I'm just plain happy, I got my dream/ideal job, it was offered to me, they were keen in selecting me. I was humbled by the experience, I don't want it to stay too much in my head.

What I'm really overjoyed is that this particular job is at the top of my list and all the parameters I set, it even exceeded my expectations of that. Location wise, career or job role wise, etc.

Dreams do come true, do they?

IDK anymore, all I know is this is it! I'm commited to this, I'll do my best. God let me have this once in a lifetime opportunity for a reason. The right reason.

My ticket to thriving career and successful life. Parents, friends, pi, self, I'm gonna make you all proud. This is all for you!

Another highlight of my week is we finally got the vaccine booster shot. Thankfully we were given a choice so I chose Pfizer, bc why not?

But then it made me weak for one whole day, my right arm swelling in numbness and internal pain. Some sort of mild side effect. But I'm cleared and all good!

So, I hope you had a great week and more amazing days to come.

I hope that whoever has read this, I hope you're in a perfectly fine condition. You are healthy, you're safe and I genuinely wish you all the best in life.

Let me leave with you this life verse of mine.

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Be patient, God moves in a very mysterious way and He uses people to get to you. Have faith that He will give what's best for you. He knows what your heart desires, now wait for Him to move in to your life.

Besides, if it's not meant to be, He will closed the door. Think of it as Him making a way to protect you from future pain. Trust that He knows better.

I'm not a religious freak but I believe in one certain high being. I know deep within that there's a more clear, calm, confident, and all-knowing voice guiding me.

Trust the universe and your intuition.

Believe me when I say that the universe couldn't care less about your shit. Get it together babe. No to conspiracy theories or whatever.

Happy and Blessed Sunday!

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And yes, my savings are still intact. I'm good! All is well. I may dip once in awhile, but it's okay, I can control, manage, and recoup this.

Hustle! Work harder and smarter! Fighting!

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Tight but growing! Learning! Embracing! Appreciating! Manifesting abundance and gratitude.

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And yes, my savings are still intact. I'm good! All is well. I may dip once in awhile, but it's okay, I can control, manage, and recoup this.

Hustle! Work harder and smarter! Fighting!

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These 1am thoughts... just don't go randomly shopping online.

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Just how many times have you betrayed yourself? Lately, I realized that I'm my worst enemy.

I barely remember keeping promises to myself. Probably it never lasts.

And this is where mistrust issues are rooted in. I've been telling myself it won't happen again, I will never do it again, I will not dip into my savings, will not look at it again, will slip and forget, will sleep early, will start again.. again.. and again.

Who am I foolin'? None other than myself.

It's frustrating not to trust and believe in yourself knowing how weak you can be.

I hate myself right now. But what the heck. It's love month. I'm gonna give myself some self-love. Don't I deserve some finer things in life?

Something that won't make me feel less, restricted, or strangled.

It's just the fear of addiction, of that complacency, that "just this once or one time" until it spirals into a loophole or a broken onrepeat mixtape.

But, as it bothers me so much, it also freeds me once I followed my guts.

I knew I need it, or maybe want it more or most. But imagine how my dilemma got solved. Add to cart, place order.

So yeah. I gave in to the temptation because I can't stop thinking about it.

I've been eyeing this dresses for awhile now and I'd really want something new for my growing slowly closet. It's not that bad right? Prices are within my budget range and I'd really want to look presentable and take a picture of mine with it.

I'll be young once so why not make the most out of it.

I really have to fix my relationship with money. I'm so toxic. I should find balance between abundance and spending for needs and for wants.

What good would it be if I just keep my money but I'm unhappy. What if the future I'm aiming is not meant for me or I will never experience of? Every thing is pointless.

I'd really have to make peace with money and practice abundance and gratitude.

--- From me to me. Validating my online purchases.

Yes, this is what my mind's state right now. And that is just for spending 20% for my "wants"

Wants aren't that bad! It's a source of joy.

Money is ought to spend, not to hoard.

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Life Lately

It’s the first Sunday of the new month, February!!! How are you doing? I hope that you, my reader is doing well in life and living at your best. Life’s good.

Idk if it’s just me, but I feel weird whenever the first day of a new month is a continuation of the week from the previous month. I’d like to treat my official start of February to be in the beginning of the week, say Sunday or Monday. In my opinion, that feels way more right. 

Overall it’s a moderate start. Did not expect quite a few job opps that I attended to anyway, but I’m feeling good because I’m starting slow and steady, finding my own rhythm. 

So let’s get straight into business! February’s first TSC and in Vol. III Lezgo!

CURRENTLY

READING: 

Emails--- or more like catching up. I’ve got quite a few unread messages and I’m not the type to leave my inbox with hundreds or thousands of unread messages (I always try to leave it to zero or not more than 20) Well, I still manually filter them because most of the emails I received are ads, promotions, social updates, and even messages from stupid websites I barely even remember I have agreed to signed on to. *Can you suggest of an email filtering app or system? Thanks!

WRITING: 

An initial draft of an article (from my freelance writing stuff) it’s due tomorrow and I’m mostly at 25% progress. 

LISTENING:

Making Love Out of Nothing at All by Air Supply. Well, I’m actually listening to this whole UV Express Playlist. Go check ‘em out!

THINKING:

Or more like hardly contemplating what to eat for dinner. I mean I’m resolving to be conscious of what I ate, turning into more greens and healthier options. Well, we do have a healthy dish tonight, but I’m craving for some noodles. Idk, even choosing what to eat is mentally exhausting! Makes me loose more brain cells. This is not right. I should limit my options and learn to eliminate then automate!

SMELLING:

My floral fruity shampoo fragrance in pink roses and berries scent. Yep, fresh from the bath it is! 

WISHING:

I’m at someplace, at the beach or any space where I’m all alone, eating my thoughts and feelings at the same time. Someplace quiet where I could feel inspiration will hit me and I won’t hear this annoying Rihanna’s S&M song from on repeat Tiktok dance (mama’s a hardcore dancer at Tiktok, I don’t even have a Tiktok account!)

HOPING:

For a fulfilling and productive week ahead. More blessings, guidance, good news, and opportunities on my way. I’m also hoping I’ll remember and live on on today’s gospel. I just streamed today’s holy mass online because I don’t feel like going out.

It was about trusting God and to remember not to be afraid. Because, God moves in mysterious ways, even the apostles are neither sure nor ready yet they learned how to trust and follow Him completely. 

I hope I can do the same. I know deep within, I love our creator, I believe in one supreme being. Yet, I’m a weak person, always succumbing to temptations. Hence, I hope I can embody today’s message and to learn how to trust more, to learn how to let go. I believe, I have done my best part, and I shall let God do his act and trust Him 100% because He knows what’s ultimately best for us. We may not understand everything or know why certain good and bad things happened, but it is what it is, right? 

You just have to take a moment, tune into your breathing, release and let go. Trust that everything is happening for a reason and is falling into the right place.

WEARING:

Nighty dress (ready to sleep!) with printed cute cat line drawing

NEEDING:

Assurance, peace of mind, solitude, silence. In material sense, I need a NEW BOOK. Buying books is much of a hobby as it is reading them.

I badly need to work on my “letting go” and “learning to trust” part. For someone with trust issues like me plus an overthinker, it’s really hard to chill and calm the train down.

I feel like time is running out, that I have tons of things to do yet, I’m not doing anything. Am I really busy or just lazy procrastinating sugarcoated as productivity?

The act of trying to completely trust and let the universe do its thing is a new feeling for me. I can’t help but to feel anxious, paralyzed by the “what-ifs”, terrified of the unknown and uncertainty. 

I’m sure I’ll be devastated if I feel like I haven’t done something or let go of an opportunity (because I don’t know how to wait patiently, or maybe I don’t know if this is what I really want, or this is the right thing for me). I’m frightened of the thought that this might end into futile efforts. But I know I need to move forward from it.

FEELING:

I’m in a cruel loophole of two step forward, only to find myself one step backward.

Last night, I had a late night convo with one of my closest friend. We initially talked about Marvel Heroes, particularly Spider-Man, (btw, I’d finished binge-watching all Spider-Man movies! My favorite is Tobey Maguire version, he’s the OG and a DILF. But I also loved the chemistry of Andrew and Emma, my heart sank when she died tragically, Gwen is better than MJ for me,--- am afraid I’m turning into a marvel hero fan! but my boyfriend and I agreed to watch and re-watch all Marvel movies in the right order of watching, so good luck with that)

So anyway, my friend and I talked about life and life back in high school. Opening up resentments is like an old wound perfectly sealed with a band-aid, but once ripped, it stings a bit, and feels fresh again.

Not too much damn hurtful, but it feels new holes are digging and opening up again. I’d really rather not reminisce the ugly parts of my high school, esp my resentments and regrets (currently working on with that) much more talk about it. But, it feels somehow still, nice because my friend and I are validating ourselves and we are on the same page, we understood each other. 

It surprised me that I shared this deepening thoughts pent-up within without harassment or judgment from the receiving line.

Right now. I’m also feeling a bit lost. I honestly don’t know what to do in this early 20s stage of my life. I can’t help but compare myself to others, wish I’m at other place, living a completely different life. I can’t help but to feel like there’s so much at my plate yet they’re intangible. I often muse about when I can live the dream life and how to get there.

How can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22?

I’m torn between finding the right balance of living as a responsible and matured adult vs. living as if it’s your last. How can you thrive and succeed while also enjoying every moment?

I often question myself whether I’m doing everything with the right reasons. Do I really care or do I really want this, or is this because what my family or the society or external people want from me that lives on my head?

Is this really it? Is there a powerful higher consciousness out there that knows better and is guiding me or I’m just living and listening to the voices on my head? I feel like actually living in 1984, with me as the bleak omniscient perpetrator.

Strange, but maybe I’m just hormonal.

With that, let me leave you with a photo of one of my other cat Zuko. Isn’t she adorable?

I hope your days are better and life’s treating you well.

Remember this poignant lyrics from the brilliant, Ms. Taylor Swift’s “Nothing New”

I know someday I'm gonna meet her, it's a fever dream The kind of radiance you only have at 17 She'll know the way, and then she'll say she got the map from me I'll say I'm happy for her, then I'll cry myself to sleep

Have a great week ahead! Fighting!

[hanavbara]

totally spies are back!  🌺 💄💫

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Life Lately

Happy Chinese/Lunar New Year! I’m supposed to post entry for TSC last Jan 30, but life gets in the way! The last week of Jan was full-packed, at least for me. It was a hella busy day filled with anticipation and fun memories with friends. 

Yes, I hang out with my hs besties. Will share more of it later. So, forget about the date discrepancies, I’ll just write as it is. 

Here we go!

CURRENTLY

READING: The 4-Hour Work Week by Tim Ferris. You know, I kind of have a love-hate relationship with this book. Actually, I am rereading it. First time I laid my hands on it was 2020 or is it last year? I don’t know, this book has a huge ego at its back, but I am taking every advice/tips with a grain of salt. You know how typical self-help book works.

WRITING:

Fresh morning pages from my journal entry.

LISTENING:

All Too Well (Sad Girl Autumn Version) by Taylor Swift. The long title cracked me up every time, but hey, I’m on acoustic Sunday mood. (I’d like to say I just switched from Toni Fowler x Makagago’s RAP SONG - Fake Friends.) #slaybhie not a fan but, curious what the fuss is all about. #opmisdead

THINKING:

About the goals I set for January, what was achieved and what was not (but in progress) too much self-torture later when I plan for Feb goals.

SMELLING:

Onion minced (pungent, sulfurous, onion-garlic type) Papa is cooking at the moment and I’m at a near kitchen spot. Wonder what he’s up to.

WISHING:

January to end! Haha! I don’t know, is it just me? I felt time’s moving so slow, at least for the month of January. Maybe because I have a lot of free time lately that I might be bored or aren’t looking forward to something?

HOPING:

To secure a job next month or within Q1. Update from my last panel interview, well, it went good. And just being shortlisted for a panel interview (2nd step) I’m utterly grateful already. I can’t believe I had experienced this amazing opportunity of a lifetime. I hope I’ll get through the next and final employment step (exam assessment) Tbh, this is really my dream job and I hope they will really consider me to offer me the role. If I’ll grade myself from my last performance, I’ll give myself a 9.5 since I do think and feel that I did my best and I performed to the best of my ability. Oh HR Gods and Goddesses! Please grant me this one already!!!

WEARING:

Peach V-neck tee and cotton shorts.

NEEDING:

A complete 8 hours of sleep + money. So, since I only have my side-hustle to sustain my living, it’s still not enough. I badly need a job right now to put my financial goals into reality. I’d considered many options but I’m trying to weigh it better and see for myself what and how it will work for me. *hoping for the new job to come and save me hah!

I spend the weekend watching the latest Spiderman movie with my high school besties. Not a huge marvel fan but I went through just because I miss these two, they’re my other set of friends in hs back then. It was fun, we reminisced about hs, shared our plans for the future, catch up with our current life, etc. 

Meeting them again was unbelievable. I mean, our last bonding was 6 years ago. We weren’t complete that day, we still have one other friend. We used to label our friendship #DAMS. Hahaha silly high school stuff. But catching up with them feels nice, we may have a lot of going on in our own lives, but I’m glad that we’re still friends, we just pick up where we left off. 

I felt like they hadn’t change (not in a bad way) The mannerisms, the way they talk, seeing them and hanging out with them feels like I’m back in high school. 

Surprisingly, I was fully-charged and energetic that day, I talked a lot, I even shared my resentments with them, my resentments in hs. This is like a big step up for me. Sharing my intimate thoughts with people whom I friends with but haven’t talked or saw frequently. We just know that we’re good friends within, and that’s more than enough. 

FEELING:

Renewed and calm. Definitely, there are points in my life that I want to keep the door shut and preferred to never talked about it again. But there are also points where I want to keep coming back for more. Surprisingly, I had the courage to do both and I felt like a mature adult.

I’m fighting anxiety by calming myself through meditation and stream of consciousness journaling.

Excited for February to kick in because I am claiming and manifesting that the new job is coming! My life is about to begin once again! It’s a new year after all, a new and perfect opportunity to turn things right and do things I missed last month.

I hope you start the week right and for February to be kind to you. Let me leave you a quote:

Happy Weekend! Cheers to a brighter and better February! Kung Hei Fat Choi!

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I'm just chicken you out

Southern cookin'

Makes you good lookin'

Fried chicken & gravy

Fixes everything!

Slow marinatin'

Breaded n Battered

You are the wind beneath my chicken wings

Fresh fixn cajun cookin'

LOVE THAT CHICKEN!

[thoughtkick]

“Who the hell said you no longer had it in you?”

— Charles Bukowski

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Life Lately

Welcome to TSC (The Sunday Currently Vol. I) Yey! I'd miss doing stuff like this for myself and just sharing whatever I'm up to these days.

This blog thread is initially from wordpress (sorry, I forgot exactly who he/she is but it's siddharta something, so all credits due to her)

TSC is like a mini journal format where you share what you've been up to at the present moment. It's also one way to reflect on your week and share plans for the upcoming days.

Without further ado, let's begin!

CURRENTLY

READING:

The Visual MBA by Jason Barron. I'm planning on entering grad school within this year so this helps kickstart and kind of prep me emotionally + mentally.

WRITING:

This TSC (more like typing) on my phone.

LISTENING:

Good Life by OneRepublic

THINKING:

Honestly, I can't think that much, I'm a bit sleepy 😴 it's a peaceful afternoon after all, I'll hit the sack right away!

SMELLING:

My scent from my new perfume- Imari Corset

WISHING:

I'm on a beach, soaking in the sun, reading a good book, while sipping piña colada or a vodka maybe.

HOPING:

To hear back from my previous initial interview (a delightful one pls) This is totally the job I desire; it's ideal, and all the standards I set matched with it. Location wise, career role/position wise, etc. Please hire me I need a job so bad right now!

WEARING:

Black floral sleeveless dress partnered with denim jacket and white Keds sneakers (accessorized with pastel shades + fake pink braid hair) I just went from a baptismal celeb from our close family friend. (my bills are increasing and so is my godchildren!) #adulting

Tbh, I don't want to attend and go there by myself (social anxiety kicking in plus I was informed late about the event, when clearly I had my own weekend plans) but I'm happy I did. I reunited with my old classmate, who also lives nearby yet we don't see nor greet each other that much. We're not that close, but I'm happy I have someone to talk to during that time. We just talked and talked, I barely even heard what the priest is saying nor the overall baptism ceremony and rituals stuff.

I only meet this person whenever there's someone we mutually know having a baptism celeb of their child or birthdays. This was the 2nd time and probably the last since all our mutual friends that lives nearby (closer to our house and neighborhood) has booked us already! 😆 'twas nice catching up with you again!

I also met another good old girl friend at the church. Hoping someday we could catch up too.

NEEDING:

To move my body AGAIN! I'm a couch potato since day 1. Had to sweat it out and lose a few weight.

FEELING:

Hopeful.

We're now living a post-pandemic world and slowly, we're making progress. I'm hoping for the world to heal, for my resentments to slip away, and for a healthier, better mental health.

I'm hopeful and patiently waiting for the right job for me. I prayed so hard for this one and I know God is prepping me for my big career break.

I'm hopeful for better days to come, a new week ahead fill with good news, blessings, opportunities, clear intentions, and abundance.

I hope you too, my reader, will have a productive week ahead. Hang in there, keep going! I wish you success, genuine happiness, healthy, abundant life.

Let's start the week right! (and now I'm off to sleep, a quick nap will recharge me after that more than an hour of socialization)

Ciao!

[nothingwithoutwords]

from "changing with the tides"