Gorgā Cītā

Welmi jod noqtis mene bheusti antjom. I wish my night will be end.

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Problem of Self-taught

As far as, to ensure one’s intelligence is concerned, self-taught is surely the good way to lift one’s confidence about his intelligence. However, as time passes, I cannot help but question that the actual efficiency of self learning is valid. For about sometimes, some people boasted their autodidactic-ness as their cleversome, however if one thoroughly looks through reality of that people, then it can become obvious that they were not actual self taught, but normally having had formal education at least on one area, or else still they had significant academic familial background or had some friendship with certificated scholars.  

 And it is also quite evident that all the discipline of human knowledge only can be transferred by means of language, be it any kind of language, not just natural language. However, as it is true, every language is a tool for interacting between individuals. So to self teach languages is quite absurd, even if many people use that term as signifying that they have never attended formal institution to receive some help from it, though at most case, they still have received some help from other user of target language. Thus with those all the considerations mentioned, it is a bit dubious that there is exactly the self taught. 

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Repose Post

I think I need some rest, real rest, to get back to where I can find the things which I have lost for a while.

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Introverted.

How can, then, the introverted people be survived from the time, if, as some say, that introvert feature is disastrous for being socialised, especially when, as we know, that introvert tendency is very likely the genetic inheritance?  If we are meant to answer this, we, first, should try to find what is incentive for being introverted, which is normally ignored by nowadays’ society. At first, Being introverted is not the first cause of determining factor of human act, rather more substantial feature causes one to be acting as he is introverted. That is to say, if someone is very sensitive, then he can actually feel everything more than others do, then it is quite evident that he can detect some potential threat before others can detect. In other words, because sensitive people normally tend to detect many small details, which are usually ignored by normal people, they become more hesitative, compared to them, the normal people, since it is very true that people do not believe the things which they cannot feel anyway. So, if that sensitive person failed to persuade others, as it has been usual, then, he himself withdraws from others, for regardless of others’ opinion, he can actually feel and detect something others cannot otherwise. 

Thus, which means, if that sensitive person’s opinion is accepted by others, then he actually becomes more prominent than others. For example, one can take for example as ancient shamans, for they were actually highly sensitive people, thus normally not able to be mingled in usual society, but to be remained as isolated, though it was still right to say that their social status was not so low, since they were the medium between deities and humans. So in this regard, it is not so impossible to pose that at some earlier point of human society, those sensitive people could have some important role, say alerting imminent danger, however, as human society grows firm, that threat itself has been largely diminished, thus their features has been also looked down as the introvertness.    

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Confined Life

In the end, all of us are just becoming content within the circle of small part of life. In other words, we are content in being confined in circumscribed world, by ourselves. To be more precisely, not just being content, but also wanting to become more restricted in small area, calling it as becoming expertise to something. However, some times there have been the people who tried to escape that small perspective, but to reach more wider view, by learning so many things. And ere people called those sort of ilk as the philosophers, if we can believe the treatise about the Pythagoras, who, in turn, was claimed to be the one who said the word ‘philosophy’ as the discipline, not as merely the specific pattern of life. 

But not so surprisingly, none of them were success to escape their tiny circle of life, because of the simple fact that when we make choice more and more, we are rather becoming defined, so as not to do anything we want, that is, the one we called as ‘responsibility’. Indeed, thus, when some one becomes more prominent, then he is constricted, even if not by himself, but yet by others.  

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Sadness and Nostalgia

Everything in this material world is simple aimless flux. So for the broadest sense, it is right to say that the end and the beginning of whole world are well predicted even by the common sense: ‘from the highest to the lowest’. Thus it is evident that the whole process in this universe is simply falling. However, here comes the interesting question: then what is the happiness which most moving being pursues for? In broad sense, as it is said above, perhaps it is also right that the final destination of all the moving process is also the totally at rest. Then it we plug this conclusion to the moving being, then the happiness would be dealt with the death. Ergo it is not so far from the earlier conclusion that all the humans must be stopped at the certain place where they are meant to be died. But, as it was also said, not all the people stop at the place where they die, instead they stop long before they die. And that place they stop at, they call as the place of their happiness. So in some case, it is a bit plausible to call the happiness as one’s death. For both of them make one stop to the certain place. Indeed, the people whom they by themselves call as the happy people, normally try to ignore the imminent problems which, eventually, gives some question which cannot be satisfied, if one is to be confined his own area. Then it would be not so impossible to say that there must be the something opposite to happiness which leads one to try to pursue the thing which is not in this world, likewise certain purpose and goal. And if that feeling is something like regressive, we can call it as the nostalgia, while progressive the sadness.  

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Emotion

By the way, how can we know we are yet lacking something? Sure enough, if so, then there would be some indication by which we notice we are yet completed. And this function, as it seems, the negative emotion can be served as. However, if some emotion can indicate material part of desire(i.e. hunger), then it is also possible that some other emotion should indicate spiritual part of desire. 

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Death before the Death

Previously, I said that the individual level’s patient led mankind most impatient species, given the fact that they cannot know what they are, what they want to be, and what they need - to be what they are meant to be. However, how they find their journey’s end is obvious - since one must face his own death - while this not always can explain why one must end his journey at certain place where he is not supposed to stop. Indeed, it is evident that not all the people stop to the place where they are died, but normally they stop to where before they are died, in other words, the place where they are not supposedly to stop. Then surely there must be something which makes them die - since one’s death and one’s stop are virtually same ‘meaning’, before they are biologically died. I will talk about that later on. 

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Individualisation and The Fear of Death

Individualisation was and still is in particular quite horrible phenomenon, since - apart from the fact that it demolished traditional society, which had been prescribed to the fixed pattern, which is in turn able to be called as the ‘myth’ which at first place, however, was just the descriptive explanation of certain unusual behavior per se to human race, employing the traditional circumstantial explanation, that is, polytheistic pantheon based culture - it demands man to confront the fear of death directly. Because, for the entirely social animals, each individual can be replaced by other individuals, thus one’s individuality is nothing but the status of part in his own society, ergo implying that one’s death and life is just the part of entire society’s circulation, while that very society must not be demolished, for it is the very essential of their purpose of existing. So it is happened, that even now in traditional society, they value more their society than their individual life, for they think they are subscribed to their society entirely, thus even if they die, they think their life can be continued by their lineage, especially when their lineage is wholeheartedly following what is called as their tradition which is, like some program, fixed. Hence, society like that does not make each individual worry about guilty, anxious of death, and the fear of others, as long as they are promised to follow that rule. 

However, as it happened that by the revelation of modern science and the consequent development of archeology, the myth is nothing but a story which has been even varied from time to time, and the human laws are, unlike the law of nature, not so fixed, but forcing each individual ones to be subscribed into, the base of tradition was just debunked as hollow. Thus from that time one, people are, regardless of whether they wanted or not, now dealing with the change of view which demands one to endure the great anxiety, that is, the perish of individual. So maybe it is not so surprising to know that at the first place religion was almost same to the norm of society, but still after the collapse of traditional society, religion can maintain substantial power upon individuals, because it still gives one the solace that the individual life is not to be ended by the end of appearance, but continuing through the unknown source. 

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Grief and Story

There are two kinds of people: one is the people who can make their own story, the other is the people who, regardless of how they want, cannot make their own story. And people see the former as unhappy ones, while the other as happy people. Why this conclusion ensues is as follows: every story’s first reader is, in any case, the author himself, by which I mean that there is not a single story which author did not want to create. However, sometimes it happens that the author does not want to make story that way, but his desire or mortal part of him reluctantly makes the story flow to certain way which he did not wish. In fact, thus in this case, the quality of story becomes low. Because he should answer the question he does not even want to know, for every story is, in the end, the process of finding the answer of which the author concerns so much. Thus, as I said above, usually happy people cannot write the story of their own, for they can actually find the answer in real life, thus do not have apparent reason for seeking the answer in rather transcendent area. So it is quite nice to observe that normally people try to read or create something when he loses something important. Thus, as Plato said, every poem is kind of nostalgic. 

However, even if I formerly said as if it is only for fictitous story, but it actually did not confine to fiction, but every kind of story, including the disciplines. For, as long as every disciplines are, even if they are regarding real life matters, dealt with the meta space, by which I mean the mathematical model, for we cannot forge anything profound without help of logic and mathematics, since both of them are the least criterion for human reason, the guide of intuition, - and as long as normally story is proceeding in meta space as well, if some one is able to find his own answer in naive view of world, he has no reason to go to that meta space. So it happens that men of action try to deign disciplines as not so effective as their own strength. But as it is already proven that what the men of discipline can do is normally superior to the achievement of men of actions, and even if the success of men of action is partly associated with how he can know at least part of that transcendental knowledge, it is right to say that, surprisingly, grief and sadness lead people, to make them become stronger. 

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Experience

As I wrote before, as long as you can describe your feeling, and any other things you think as yourself, whatever those are, they are not you, since there must be more internal one which can describe that features, thus able to be called as real you, or indespensable yourself. But still it is very true that strong emotional bound makes one hold back to the naive view of world, that is, the things one experienced, are actually there, without doubt, and the all material part of one’s existence is actually himself. So it is not so surprising to know that, when one’s experience becomes prominent, he cannot usually escape the view of his own, thus making his biased view rather turgid. 

And probably this is the one why we can say that experience normally leads one astray. 

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Freedom

If you speed up a stream from a valve, then you will, eventually, not be able to predict each water drop’s way. That is why sometimes you are struck by the unhoped-for water drop from a sink when you wash your dishes. Indeed, one can know from his experience that the stream normally does not flow certain way, but still some of individual drops can bounce to the unpredicted path, for, as speed exceeds its critical point, then each particle does not contact each other by organised way, but rather chaotically. 

And sure enough, it can explain why, while everything in this world must follow the law of nature, there is still the thing we cannot know in high precise.  

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Pain

Great change of environment always accompanies pain. But surely enough it does not mean that pain implies there must be a certain change, since it is unlike that all living being must receive pains from change, for there is no necessary reason for a change to be rendered as a pain. Regardless of it, normally change means that there is significance stimulation different from everyday life ones. While the greater any kind of stimulation, the closer to the complete mutilation of structure, it is not so hard to imagine why animals render changes to pains, if we presuppose that the pain is premonition. However here comes the question: there is, however, the pain which is not apparently physicals ones, but psychical. Then in this case, if one is entirely immersed that situation, it is possible that there would be still no physical harm. While in this case, the one who makes actual harm, is the one self, not any others. Then how can we explain this question? That is, so as to avoid something which would not be happening, to make actual harm himself? 

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Truth and Westworld

As long as now that TV show, the Westworld, finally came to end of one season, now I can talk about the thing which we shall concern about, since the story, as it seems, should be continued. 

 But before I go into detail, I should ask about it first: what if something must be truth, regardless of any circumstance, then how and what can it be? And this is the very question all the people always try to answer, as the absolute truth, since the time of antiquity. For, inasmuch as the morality is concerned, it must be supposed that it should be rooted in invariable truth, not some relative, alterable opinion, since in latter case, we are not able to stand the position by which one can urge others to keep the human laws, unless one is said that human must keep his own society, while in that case, the question of necessity is not yet answered, but just begged. 

 So, to adjust this problem, we should look around the argument which can never be false. Indeed, there are quite several arguments of this type, since it is not so hard to find type, but simple ‘circular argument’. That is, the argument which is supplied its own evidence by its own being. Then surely this sort of argument must be the argument, which is absolutely truth, even though it is possible that we do not know what is meant to be by that argument. In other words, the truth of argument does not depend on the content of argument, but the frame of argument. So in this regards, science must be the absolute truth, for science’s base is the intuition, and this very intuition also closes the circle of all the scientific arguments. Which means also that if something is internally truth, as the form of circular argument, then even if someone who stands outside of that frame, tries to rebut it, it cannot affect any harm to the truth state of that argument. Ergo, it should be stated, inasmuch as one is meant to find the absolute truth, the argument’s factual reliance is not even important, but that it can be self-sustained argument, that is, ‘circular argument’. 

 However, it has long been said that subjective argument never can be false, as regards of the one who is the owner of that subjective condition which leads him to make it. Then, regardless of what he is, it is evident that he is also the self-sustained being, at least, as regards of his own consciousness. And which is the very first beginning of modern philosophy, because the father of modern philosophy, who was Descartes, once implied that one’s consciousness must be self sustained, for if one is meant to doubt all the external world, but still the one’s conscious, then surely it must be suggested that one’s consciousness must be self sustained. 

 Thus in this regard, the turning point of Dolores’ inner voice scene was, even if quite expected, amusing, although it had been already well supposed in the original theory of Bicameral mind. And also by the same token, which I said above, we cannot say that William had been a good man, but changed by tragic accident, for as you see above, in the end, that conscious is not such kind of entirely depending outer environment, but the self-sustained, which means that William was from the very first having such kind of tendency. And this theory even can explain why Dr. Ford quit to have external existence, for only by that end, he can be entirely the end of full circle, thus can control over all forever, as the absolute truth. For, as it seems, as long as the world he created, is always working as he wished, then surely the world itself is he himself, so ever sustaining. 

 So it was quite nice to see this grand finale. But only one thing I worry about is that, as long as hosts are human shaped, but not actually humans, which is the very feature of zombies, this amazing TV show becomes just another variation of simple and plain TV show.       

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Madness and Artist

There is no such kind of person who is gone mad because of his profession, when it is simply regarding the intuitional ones. For example, when one is only regarding what is looking like and what would it be looking like, then he has evidently no reason to delve deep into more profound level. Because, as it is the case of most practical disciplines, in this case, one only needs to think how it works in real, phenomenal world. So for them, it is not important to know how the four space dimensional structures can be shown in real world, because no one can actually see those sort of things. However, as it is happened, sometimes human intelligence demands human to go further, likely say, even if all of their knowledge at first started from intuitions, but in the end, they wonder the thing which no natural intuition never can support directly, but only indirectly through the already gained principle by the deduction from natural intuition. As for example, one can see how mathematicians easily calculate poly dimensional structures just by adding axes, even if that result itself normally cannot be imagined. 

However here is the point where madness emerges. What if one, despite of the fact that it cannot be found in real life, tries to depict those sort? Then in case, one attempts to picture them by the appearances one can find in real life. But as soon as it is shown that it does not suffice, then he would go to further, but always finds that it can only be ended as failure. However, in spite of it, he does not stop, then what would he be? That is, becoming madness. For even if he can actually find what he want, it cannot be revealed as the one others want to see. So it is sometimes happened that some of artist falls into utter madness, in hoping that he can find what is ultimate valuable wonder. 

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Experience

In some case, experiences are the factors of knowledge. For only the specific experiences can give detailed content of knowledge. But what is surprising is that the very experiences lead one astray. Especially when it is very true that there is not the real life instance corresponding to the idea. Then is it right to say that experiences only lead one to false conclusion? I shall return to this later. 

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Fallacy and Free will

Speaking of knowledge, it is not so surprising to find true knowledge, but to find the specious, or false knowledge. Because every human knowledge is eventually based on his own conscious, so if there is no such kind of impediment, then human always know, thus deciding entirely true decision. But human cannot do like that, rather natural logic and mathematics are very hard subjects to study. Then it is probably right ti say that between the free will and the apodictic there lies the base of false. So in this regard, it is surely right to say that to lie is to the right for the being, who has his own discretion. 

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Living being and Moving being

As it is happened, that I should for a while restrict my thought, to prevent to be so complicated, I now talk about matters which bothered me for a long time: that is, if all the so called living beings and all the other so called not living beings are in the end worked by outer causes, then how can I say something as living being while other thing as not living being? Now the answer seems quite simple for me. Because, even though every animals, including humans, are conducting their own agenda incited by outer cause, likely say foods or etc, but it is not right that they are moved by that external cause directly. For example, there is not one animal which is moving because of ‘food pushing its body’ rather it eats it, and rendering it to energy- normally chemical and by which animal s moving. However, the non living being by definition does not do that, but the external cause directly leads it to move. So here comes the conception of free will, since the fact that the moving body and the cause of moving body must be different is the law of nature, fixed as not variable, but the matter of choosing what thing we shall change to energy is, because it is so complicated and surely non linear, chaotic, thus almost random, able to be called as free will.