[hermitcrabcakes]

also writing short fiction feels so pointless and nothing in fiction excites me anymore and i feel like im just rehashing the same few traumas over and over again and i dont even know why im writing anything anyore because whos fucking reading and also i am such an empty person with nothing interesting to say and i just feel like im on the verge of tears all the time and then i eat too much to make the voices go away and then i hate myself for eating too much and when i read things i cant process them properly because im just a slow person and why is life so hard why is life so broken why am i so incompatible

[hermitcrabcakes]

i think my mind body relationship is forever broken, my mom is on some extreme weight loss regime again, and none of my fiction is good enough and lowkenuinely do i give up on this timeline lolol also idk how to talk to ppl and also i hate my body and also i hate my face and also i feel so empty and also no one in my life sees me! yay life!

[hermitcrabcakes]

What do you call the gender where no matter what option you choose on the form it feels like a lie

[hermitcrabcakes]

from "Want Itself Is a Treasure in Heaven" by Theodora Ward

[ravioliet]

being aroace and nonbinary is so beautiful like i'm not doing any of that LOL

[hermitcrabcakes]

[hermitcrabcakes]

I need to sleep ahhhhh

[hermitcrabcakes]

chat its so cooked i paid money for a writing work shop and forgot how to fucking write ahhhhh

[hermitcrabcakes]

Thinking about the inherent angst of characters who cannot bring themselves to tell another person what they are going through while also fully recognizing they cannot fault others for not understanding their pain unless they voice it

[hermitcrabcakes]

not built for the white collar wagie life because when im in daily standup the video loop that plays in my head is actually that scene in divergent when tris is tapping the glass and thinking this isn’t real

the glass being the vaguely everything involved in a corporate meeting

[luvvvcreates]

“representation doesn’t matter!”

but jonathan sims being canonically asexual and it never being made into an obstacle, him still being in a loving romantic relationship, gave me the courage to explore and be more comfortable in my own identity.

but seeing one of my favorite characters, adrian chase in ‘peacemaker’, have an onscreen conversation about his very clearly aspec identity gave me a sense of euphoria to the point where i was smiling ear to ear while watching it, and the entire night afterwards.

but seeing the widespread acceptance of aroace ryland grace gives me hope that people like me do and can get a happy ending through genuine connection and friendship.

it always matters.

[cookie-nom-nom]

I’m probably [aroace] but I have [to be Stratt’s science lapdog] so I don’t have time to worry about that rn

[k4enobi]

“i put the not in astronaut!!” no dude you put ace in grace

[hermitcrabcakes]

I love aroace Ryland grace 🥺 allonormativity is not winning today

[hermitcrabcakes]

rly need to let go of my fears of Not Getting the Canon Right and maybe just fuck around and post some fics y'know? ._.

[hermitcrabcakes]

last of my hollanov fills for @iceouthr :')

[hermitcrabcakes]

another @iceouthr prompt fill :3