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[heroes-trash]

Heroes Comics (all 173, PDF format, grouped for volumes)

and minus ads!! the whole package

S1: part 1 - part 2 - part 3 - part 4

S2: part 1 - part 2 - part 3

S3: part 1 - part 2 - part 3

S4: (there’s just one part)

and bonus parts!!

[judasisgayriot]

that deleted scene where they’re looking at campaign photos and Angela says to Nathan ‘you look fat in that one’ is so out of pocket asdgjhkl she also chides him for saying the word ‘ass’ like he’s five years old. like scolding him for not being mommy’s good little boy while also shamelessly negging him HE’S THIRTY-EIGHT this house is a fucking nightmare

[sylarpet]

the petrellis having a normal, brotherly conversation in a public space

[judasisgayriot]

nathan: I've been selfish, arrogant... obsessive third one a little incongruous there!! the way he steps in close to peter while saying it. idk calling himself obsessive over peter out loud is crazy work

[heroes-trash]

@judasisgayriot i definitely endorse this reading

[mabesies]

…I know you, Nathan. Beneath the gruff exterior, you’re a sap. The moment that young girl looks at you with her sad little weepy eyes, you’re lost, you’re finished.

[sylarclaus-blog]

heroesvs week IV vote

peter

if we save ourselves, who's gonna save everyone else?

[perhapsblues]

@pscentral ▪️ event 41 – HEROES ↳ Heroes (NBC, 2006-2010) You saved the cheerlader, so we could save the world.

[foxstole]

do we think amnesiac peter divined that nathan is the most important person in the world to him thru simple context clues or do we think that when he saw nathan in that photo he was like Oh Hey, [Name Pending], I Love You

[heroes-trash]

@judasisgayriot listen forget about Ritual but i hope you've read a couple good fics like this bc i know they exist!!

[sylarpet]

[judasisgayriot]

obsessed w the way they cannot stop like necking each other and nuzzling and rubbing their faces on each other and kissing each others faces and having their faces 2cm apart while having every conversation and grabbing/caressing/squeezing each others cheeks and shoulders and waists (!!) no fucking wonder everyone around them is side eyeing the fuck out of them whenever they’re in the same room like this is me who doesn’t think they’re like actively fucking in canon timeline I think Nathan is trying his absolute best to maintain boundaries and proprietary between them and be a respectable big brother but his absolute best is still absurdly touchy feely by anyone’s ‘brotherly’ standards or even anyone’s ‘they’re Italian 🤪’ standards (@ showrunners lol) bc I literally don’t think they’re even aware of it. They don’t even realise they don’t have a concept of personal space when it comes to each other and it looks insane to observers because it’s too deeply ingrained in them to PDA all over the place and be that close. fuuuckkkkk

[sylarpet]

Who up 20 years old

[heroes-trash]

@sylarpet *would like to coax you back but knows you have to cry it out first*

[judasisgayriot]

it's not our fault that death's in love with us

[foxstole]

heidi begging nathan for some hope re: their marriage + asking if he even loves her and nathan being like 🫥 of course i do . . . . vs nathan telling peter, very often and usually unprompted, that he loves him, needs him, believes in him, etc

[judasisgayriot]

Truly Heidi Petrelli IS one of God’s strongest soldiers + hope her alimony checks are truly gargantuan + run girl run please get far away from the petrellis, but also the circumstances of her actually leaving make me really sad bc it’s at least partially influenced by Nathan for once in his life actually deciding to open up to his wife and tell her the truth (something he basically NEVER does lmao) and tell her about powers, what really happened etc, and then Angela in damage control mode swoops in and tells Heidi like yeah Nathan is insane. He’s fucking crazy. He’s insane and delusional run girl he’s losing his mind.

And then she taunts Nathan that he pushed Heidi and his kids away and he sure did but also YOU told her he was insane when he was actually trying to open up and tell the truth, the way that other people with powers tell their spouses and loved ones and get to have their support but none of that for Nathan I guess lmao, prevent that at all costs. It’s also sad bc his kids seem genuinely excited to see him all of the like 3 times they’re on screen and it seems like he’s a good dad but also the show (and subsequently Nathan) just straight up forget they exist most of the time sooooo. Yeah.

More to the point truly the lack of actual focus and love and prioritisation and thought Nathan has for his actual wife his dad picked out for him (who was, again, so right to get out of there lmao) and his levels of obsession with Peter above all things. Fuck everything he’s going to just lie down and die if Peter’s not there. Here’s to personal reasons. Alcoholic death spiral 👍

[judasisgayriot]

Also. Most importantly. Peter is his wife and Peter was there first.

[heroes-trash]

sometimes i forget Ritual isn't canon

(yk, Ritual. the Petrellicest-is-canon-and-they've-been-fucking-since-pre-show-times fic. in which he married Heidi mainly because he got her pregnant, which [in a way that cannot be summarized briefly] happened because she reminded him of Peter, and she divorced him after he went full 'fuck it' mode and confessed his whole entire relationship with Peter to her, and she mistakenly (!) assumed he was a pedophile.)

i mean this is good too ofc.

[just one note re: Simon & Monty bc it's always bugging me when the blame is placed on Nathan for not being there for them anymore post-S2: Heidi literally forbade it. took care to warn their teachers not to let him near them, even! this one thing is not on him]

[judasisgayriot]

there are so many (of Nathan’s) hangups in the way ik but if we got Nathan past all that post-treehouse (pause. great phrase, me. we live in a post-treehouse world. I live in a post-treehouse world. everything that happens in canon must be approached contextualised and understood as post-treehouse.) where was I right yeah if we got Nathan past all that they would absolutely fuck like their lives depended on it like brothers possessed like they wanted to merge physically and could achieve it if they tried hard enough. thanks

[judasisgayriot]

I’m in a real duality of mind about all of this because I love a tragedy + petrellicest feels like an inevitable tragedy especially for Nathan, like there was never a universe where he made it out alive he was just too doomed + I find that so sad and compelling for their story + I even poured my heart into a fanvid on this very topic, but ALSO.

I sound crazy saying this but Nathan never even had a CHANCE?? Haters will say wtf are you talking about Nathan had a million chances + massive privilege + squandered most of that, and I will say you’re 100% right Nathan suffered the most of anyone and haters will say you mean the generational wealth closeted gay republican and I say YES HEAR ME OUT.

nathan is the biggest tragedy because he was raised to be a fucking husk of a human, a vehicle for his parents’ plans and machinations and desires and nothing else (vessel alert!!), a disappointment from birth so much so that they experimented on him as a baby cause he didn’t turn out the way they wanted, somehow both expected to be the golden child and kind of treated as such but never actually living up to it (his dad had to shamefully bribe his way through college after he failed everything [possibly due to him having a mental breakdown after his baby daughter and her mother “died” in a fire and he was expected to just move on like nothing happened but veering into headcanon territory lol], his dad knowing his every thought and somehow knowing that Nathan is weak, doesn’t measure up, isn’t actually a ‘real man’, whatever) and growing into such a morally empty void who literally never got a chance to try and become a real person because every time he tried he got taken out back and shot for his troubles like.

I love the tragedy of Nathan and I still think Nathan deserved a CHANCE.

Oh and a chance to fuck his brother too obv 🙂‍↕️

[heroes-trash]

love the duality of us so much lol

[i do not love tragedy, at least not most of the time and def not for them, and in my mind, Nathan is always saved]

[judasisgayriot]

one has to imagine nathan petrelli sadly jerking off in peter’s bed in peter’s apartment in peter’s clothes in s2 and just sniffling pathetically the whole time and then when he comes he just starts sobbing

[judasisgayriot]

I love the scene with claire and peter at the wake it’s so sweet and I love that he’s so relieved to just hang out with her alone cause she’s the only person who could maybe possibly get it/he’s also super done with angela lol, but also she says something like ‘I bet you have loads of stories’ sort of as a solicitation for him to share/talk about nathan if he wants to and he doesn’t respond/engage with that at all and just changes the subject instead. even though claire might understand him most in that moment, there are still things he just can’t/won’t talk to her about. there are so many memories of nathan but they’re just for him.

just like the bullshit eulogy he gives in the previous episode (many thoughts on this, mainly that it’s bullshit), which is clearly just the pr version of his relationship with nathan for the masses. palatable. the things he wants to say about nathan and his relationship with nathan he could never say in front of all these complete strangers staring back at him. those things have to live inside his mind forever now. maybe he’ll sit on a rooftop somewhere and tell them to that photograph™️ of the two of them. he said in aforementioned bullshit eulogy that he was ‘ready’ now, for anything, but he is very much not ready. not even to acknowledge it really (as is the point of ‘let it bleed’ as an episode). not to face anything. will he ever be ready to face a world with no nathan? at least he’s doing better than we know nathan would be in the same position. nathan would not survive and we all know it

[judasisgayriot]

petrellicest fundamentally a tragedy and it always had to end that way especially for nathan he’s so doomed by the narrative #mydeadwife #petersdeadwife but in beautiful fanfiction land in my head peter finds some way to bring him back for real and after everything they’re together in a little house just the two of them after the chaos and one day nathan (greying at the temples hair getting long and fluffy lines on his face getting a tiny bit chubbier in middle age) sits on the edge of peter’s bed and they look at each other and wordlessly they know it’s finally Time and they silently cross that final barrier between them and then they’re never apart or in separate beds again they escaped they’re free