Floasis

💕✨This is my safe space for me.✨💕 💕Everyday we suffer through horrors.💕 This blog is dedicated to safely and freely let our host express herself. Flo with us if you please. -Flo System 🌈

[hersheythecure]

Warning. This blog is a trigger.

Please don’t reblog my journaling posts. I really need to stay alive and I don’t have places to put all of this without causing more stress for my already exhausted support system.

Doing my best.

Also please have some respect. This is not a space for your porn blogs, I prefer not to be followed unless you’re trying to learn more about your mind and how to be a kinder and more well rounded human.

I am a human having a unique experience after enduring a life of traumatic experiences.

I need to be loved for no reason. Encouraged for no reason. Spoken to gently for no reason.

[hersheythecure]

[hersheythecure]

Niggas will put on a show like this and then be a rapist and pedophile. A criminal. Will legit secretly hate you and try to harm you and your family. Then yall wanna say women should choose better. How the fuck did I choose wrong if this was what was given to me? Like. Make it make sense.

Why did you keep telling me I didn't have DID then say I do. What was the point of fucking with my head?

He enjoyed it. He enjoyed exploiting a mentally ill woman. I'm sorry my love. You did nothing wrong by loving someone especially when you couldn't see. But you hear that, that is what you do for the people you love. You show the full up against whatever he'll you face. And I love you so much for that. So much. I'm so sorry. It's not gonna make sense and it's hard to accept but you're safe now. You're actually living independently. You're driving again. You're still managing bills. You're raising our kiddo even though you thought you were too messed up to. He's doing well. We made a little support system and have women we lean on. We have therapies out the ass. Like we're doing it. And it's still really hard and we still have panic attacks and we're still having flashbacks but we have support more than we ever did and we made friendssssss. Eeeeeeep. Our home is decorated. It has all the things we ever wanted. We used our brain to solve our problems. We are capable with all of these disorders and I wish we didn't have to push so hard but we will because our kiddo is worth every effort. Every depiction of joy and strength in vulnerability. You did great. You continue to. I see you. I hear you. I love you.

[hersheythecurious]

Crazy

It’s like I’m in a maze And everytime I try to think A thought I once created Becomes faded 😔 And I’m stuck in a dark room Wishing it was illuminated That a hand would reach up And break free … Me That my natural light Would escape and make … Me That I’d elevate the pressure On no scale will measure My turmoil and 😪 I know myself I begin to pressure I often back myself into these corners I know I’m to blame But it’s like two people in the same Mind Why now? Go back to sleep I don’t want you to come out 😖 You make me confused And unsure That’s why I locked you away To be sure That I wouldn’t mess things up That I’d be happy And not just Why now? I used to think I was crazy But now I know I am I just want to be this lady This me I’m not ready to be you as well Yes I’m selfish Because I’m happy You always do something To mess that up I find myself backing down SHUT UP! I sit here and I just give up Fighting you has been hard I’ve almost forgotten What now? Why now? Go away…

[hersheythecure]

Wtfffff I've truly always been plural

Wow. Have no recollection making this.

[spicymochi]

they are on a date

[thereadmind]

[metamorphesque]

"Beautiful Losers", Leonard Cohen

[love-notes-to-survivors]

Remember that even good changes can make us feel depressed, because, as creatures of habit, we're resistant to change. That doesn't mean that it wasn't the right choice.

[randombookquotes]

everyone in this room will someday be dead- emily austin

[thepeacefulgarden]

[tomcruisingthroughlife]

[hersheythecure]

I enjoyed being challenged. 6 this instance, it was not what I thought it was. It was the breaking down of my psyche. But I enjoyed seeing my mind engage tbougth with another. The boundaries were pushed too far, but the damage is done. I do not regret who I am now. The universe must've needed me to be where I am. Knowing still, I would grow. I would coke back to myself instead of who he wanted me to be.

[wolfertinger666]

the black experience in every space is having people who are not black completely ignore your experiences/world view and completely talk over you. fun.

[hersheythecure]

Quite terrifying knowing I won't ever forget.

[moonlightsdreaming]

[whatbigotspost]

We would be in a significantly better place as a people if “old” and “fat” could be neutral descriptions of fact and not seen as insults by default.

[positivedoodles]

[drawing of a blue bird on a yellow background saying “It’s okay that I don’t have it all figured out.” in an orange speech bubble.]

[sudokuyomi]