Perfect Little Tragedy
I'M not sleeping
I looked at his picture and gushed over it 5 times today
I can’t seem to go a day without messaging him
this isn’t what I wanted I am hopeless
but…..
The big red button sits there between us
Whenever either of us want an out we have it right there
no hard or hurt feelings no remorse
It’s the beauty of an agreement where we are not going to make decisions for each other
I never want that again
So now we have a pact to each act selfishly in our own interests
I’ll use him how I wish
and he can use me
and we wont get caught
in a disastrous end all be all love that takes too much
I almost want to reject it from the start
It’s so risky playing this way
The more I think about it though…
It’s like in the Kdrama’s where the guy brings the girl into his world
Or they go into one that is all their own
right at the beginning of everything
You get to see how they fall in love and how great they fit together
Before the rest of the world comes in trying to tear them a part
This time round we are not going to fight the world
Just let this relationship exist in it’s own space
No fighting
Just bliss
and the enjoyment of a love that will end
but still will have happened
The perfect little tragedy
