GOD TEACHES ME HOW TO EAT A POMEGRANATE WHILE THE NEIGHBOURHOOD BOY TEACHES ME HOW TO SING, by @iloveyouandyoudontpayme (Me)
GOD TEACHES ME HOW TO EAT A POMEGRANATE WHILE THE NEIGHBOURHOOD BOY TEACHES ME HOW TO SING
It was two summers ago that I learned of pomegranates. I’d skip along to
God’s house, back when I would still visit,
And he showed me one. Red and crowned, glossy.
I met him that same summer. I would go to the basement
And we would sit on the couch and watch each other.
He told me that eating a pomegranate is the
Most difficult thing you’ll probably ever do.
You can swallow the dark,
You can smoke a cigarette.
But a fruit is the most complicated of His inventions.
More complicated than Persephone? I ask.
He says, “Relax your throat.
Breathe deeply. And remember,
Singing is about being free.”
I asked if he was free. He clasped my hand
I held the pomegranate, and it reminded me of Him.
I opened my mouth, and it reminded me of Him.
I wanted it. I couldn’t have it.
I would watch Him tear the fruit open
With superhuman hands. God did not
Own a knife. He was afraid of what he might do with it.
I would watch him while he sang. I would stare
At his lips to make sure I got every note
Exactly right. He would stare at mine.
That my eyes reminded him of knives.
One day, I slipped into God’s house when he was
Not home. I picked up the fruit and
Knifed, again and again. He
Fell apart like warm cake in my hands.
God found me. God saw the knife.
God saw that I was hungry and
I ate Him. He did not mind.
He did not yell. Or take the knife.
He gave me what I wanted: to consume him,
To consume anything, entirely, undebatably,
And yet be granted clemency.