Bre’s Thoughts

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About me

Name: Bre

04 liner

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Your favorite black kpop fan and anime nerd

Mostly random opinions and mood boards

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I have no voice, my feet hurt and now I have to drive back home. Enhypen you were fucking amazing

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I feel like everytime I blink I’m blocking someone new for saying jungwon and jay are toxic. So I ask are they toxic or are yall obsessive and reading to much into things that are NOT your business

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stfu my lashes are longer than your dick

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I want to add on to my original post about enhypen because it’s my account and I can I’m gonna tag it here so you don’t have to scroll to find it. Here

Now I wanted to keep them separate instead of adding on because I feel like this is the one i will more than likely get hate on. Enhypen and Heeseung don’t owe us anything. We were given a statement which in so many words was Heeseung left because he wanted something different, which was his solo career. I feel like it is safe to assume this means contract negotiations have already started and that is what he decided was best for him and his career. They gave us a statement and I feel like that is what so many people are missing. Everyone was so wrapped up in the notion of he was forced out and that this statement is not what people wanted to hear. We again do not went on behind the scenes and while I am nosy I have accepted the fact that we might never know and maybe that is for the better. Because what happens when you are given the full picture and you don’t like it, what happens if there is animosity or resentment. What happens if it is just what the original statement and letter said that he just wanted to go a different direction. Babe people change their minds. What if this allows him the flexibility to live how he wants. There are so many possibilities as to why he left and we were given one why isn’t that enough?

Also this is where I might sound like a bit of an asshole. The need some engene feel to put down the remaining members or to just be outright disrespectful is so insane to me. The only member I have not been able to find referring to enhypen as six is literally Jake who if I’m not mistaken was the closest to Heeseung. No one is asking you to forget 6 years of being a fan of a seven member group however people are asking to respect the decision of all seven members enough to not be an entitled cry baby about it. And I understand I am what most people would consider callus or emotional detached so personally moving on and respecting decisions of other is something I don’t really struggle with (thankfully, in my head it’s like damn that’s crazy but ok). But you can mourn ot7 and still respect what has been asked by the remaining 6. You can be ot7 and not be demeaning or demanding of all 7 members to lay out what was probably a very painful and difficult decision between not only bandmates but friends for 6+ years. I don’t think yall understand how hard it must be to be repeatedly asked for the reason of what was I am assuming a tumultuous conversation followed by a literal career and life altering decision. Yall are not engenes yall are bullies. Let them be because it’s almost always we find out later but 4 months in the middle of a world tour and comeback/debut is a major ask for people you don’t personally know.

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I already broke my one rule so I might as well keep it going. The reason people are having such a hard time with moving on when artist leave the group to the point of being hysterical is because they put more emotional investment into idols than they do themselves or people they actually know who know and care about them as well. At this point it’s like nobody just does the normal fan stuff anymore. What happened to going to concerts and enjoying other fans company instead of hating on objectively pretty people because they are pretty. What happened to dressing up and going out with a pc or plushie on your bag or belt loop just because it matched the outfit. What happened to celebrating other fans when they get to interact with their favorite artist. It’s rare to find people who don’t want to socialize and concerts and conventions without turning it into a whole knows the artist or media better. Also I know fandom wars have always been a thing but yall take it entirely too far. If you don’t like and artist don’t interact with them or their fans. This is me actively begging yall to go outside and make friends. Also can we please finally address how normal stalker/saesang behavior has become. Because why is it almost every time I blink someone is breaking into idols homes or trying to find out where they are so they can plan some fucked up version of a meet cute. Also why is fighting at concerts so normalized now

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Now I did say I would refrain from talking about heavy kpop topics but considering I see enhypen next week I might as well say this. Before we get serious though if you see someone with a birthday sash at Dallas day one please say hi.

We don’t know what happened with enhypen. However it feels like they have been hinting at the fact that they would like to be referred to as ot6 for months now. And it started when jungwon first said something on live then jay saying enhypen is enhypen, to now jungwon saying enhypen is six, and that’s just some of the instances because almost every member said it. Now we can guess and speculate and be upset about it but at some point you have to learn to respect it. While I think we would all like to know what happened at the end of the day they don’t really owe it to us. We probably will never know the full extent but that is because at the end of the day we are just fans. We don’t know them they don’t know us. It seems like they don’t necessarily want to be associated with each other publicly right now and it’s something that should be respected. Lastly closure is not something strangers can give you. I’ve been a kpop stan since I was 10 I turn 22 next week and most of the groups I loved when I was younger have disbanded or members have left. At some point people leave without a reason yeah you can be sad about it but you have to move on. And this toxic cycle of bullying the member that left or bullying the members that stayed are going to do nothing but hurt everyone and start unnecessary fan wars. And again yeah it sucks but at this point truly being ot7 means showing respect and support to both enhypen and Evan. Continuation here

But that’s all Bre out.

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Now I am a Fuma girl till the end but Nico at the end of their love song cover is infact burned into my brain

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✩blues✩

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The boys calling it a double standard is the very reason I dislike all of them. Because you can clearly say he was disrespectful but then completely ignore that’s the reason why the girls were upset. Nobody gave a rats ass about him exploring but they didn’t like the disrespect. And yall know the reason they booed him after casa was because they now had evidence of said disrespect. Then to say the attacked titi no she interjected with some bs and they let her have it too. Also if dishonesty ever sees me on the street he will need to walk faster.

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I am like fully over Stan culture. I can’t be the only person who feels like this. No I’m not saying I’m no longer gonna listen to kpop but I fully taking several large steps back from fandom spaces for a minute. Being a black kpop Stan who has been into kpop for literally most of my life at this point kinda just feels like a humiliation ritual. Because kpop has been westernized for years hell a lot of groups got their flow from from B2k, Janet Jackson, Tinashe, and Micheal Jackson. People hate rap but love groups like cortis and think bts during the proof era was peak but won’t acknowledge the black artist that pave the way. I have for the most part stopped listening to groups where it feels like they are in a never ending cycle of buffoonery and I don’t indulge certain groups fandoms for the same reason. But idk other than like occasionally concert and an rpd now and again when I go to conventions maybe but online and meet ups are just feel like a constant of who can be the most moral correct (not a bad thing but a lot of times they don’t hold everyone to the same standard), who is the bigger fan or who can be the biggest asshole. No on wants to see their favorite artist critiqued when the release objectively bad music, and suddenly everyone is five when they do something a fully functional adult should know better than to do. These outrageous think pieces, vocal comparisons and dance comparisons by people who know nothing about the fundamentals of either. The way fans treat other fans when they interact with a group. Yes this about how some atiny are treated Chase Infiniti and how engenes treated the bite me girl. It all feels like it’s no longer a for fun thing and more of a pissing contest of what fandom is the worst, what idol is the worst, or some messed up combination of the two. With that being said I know all of my mood boards have been taken down but after this unless it serious enough for me to put my two cents in this will be strictly a mood board account that I will try and post weekly on.

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How you feel about the men of this season of love island is infact a litmus test

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I’m so tired of the the who did it worse Olympics. Mark definitely knew what that flag means. He is one Canadian, two a grown ass man, three didn’t he live in America for several years. I myself am not Canadian but I do have Canadian friends who I asked and they did say that is something they learned about in school. However in defense of him I’ve seen people talk about other groups. Yall they are ALL wrong but right now mark is the one we are discussing. Not BTS, not kiof, not Blackpink, not riize, but mark lee.

Anyways nmixx crescendo mood board coming later

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The fandom police pmo so bad. Ok so I had seen a post for someone talking about how their biases often leave groups and she had mentioned skz and how her bias was woojin and someone is arguing that woojin had no fans when he left. Now I was a woojin from the show until he left the group. I love his vocals and even when he left I still kept tabs on him and ‘In The End’ is probably one of my favorite ost. And I had said something because while I have moved on and have a new bias that doesn’t change that woojin was once a part of skz. And I was then called a fake fan because “no real stay would have ever biased him”. I disagree because again I am a pre debut stay I listened to hellevator the literal week it came out which was before the show started. I watch ever episode of their survival show while it was going on not only that I tried to get into treasures music because I loved yedams performance when they did yg vs. jyp. Babe for crying out loud mirror and tortise and the hare are in my top three skz songs. I think I have more than earned my title as a stay.

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I have so many mixed emotions about Evan’s debut. Like ride or die is a song that i can feel is def gonna grow on me it’s not a song I love but I don’t hate it either and I absolutely adore overflow. Overall I feel like his debut is something that makes you want more. He has so much potential and I genuinely can’t wait to see what next for him. I also can’t wait to see what’s next for the remaining memebers of Enhypen (I can’t wait to see them for my birthday)

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