hard being w my mom
my mom keeps pointing out the changes, keeps pointing out what she lost n had to let go of. its all in a bad light and it makes my transition seem like something horrible. I’m fuckin tired of it. I’m tired of being treated like a fuckin zoo animal who just made his way outta the cage. I’m fuckin tired of hearing her be sad about how it used to be n hearing how everything is so different now that people that she had & family we had is gone because of me. I can’t fuckin help that shit and I don’t fucking care about it either because those people never meant shit to me so they’re all dead to me now. I don’t like how it makes her sad but she’s constantly rubbing shit in n pointing shit out. I can’t help the way shit happened over here. I know its all my fault but there was no other way for me to live life. I’m tired of being guilt tripped for being my fucking self
