Since then, I cant sleep, di ako makahinga ng maayos. But now is the time to say sorry. Nag sorry muna ako sa iba kung friends and napagtanto ko na I;m ready to say sorry to you. ā I really cant imagine why things went like this.I let myself fall and forget hopes and dreams. Pursuing life is getting darker. Surviving seems to be a dream that will never be achieved. ā That was on my mind for the past 4months. I really know that Iām sucha Burden for you so I thought that its better if you will just cast me out in the family. So I tried thisĀ stupidĀ suicide attempts, I was drowned by my own mistakes. DepressionĀ is killing me but I survived without you knowing it. But i FEEL sorry for you because you had a stubborn daughter, that you had a daughter that canāt able to fulfill any achievements. Maybe because, Iām a person who lived in the past. . Maybe because of this family issues. Maybe because I was longing for a complete family before But the thing is, my half of my life, NO ONE really cared about me. I was alone when I was in trouble. I grew up with my grandparents, but I never felt that theyād care for me. Because Iām not their priority. Itās a matter of āfavoritismā though. They always thought that Iām a Happy go lucky person, but they donāt know Im dying inside. Iām dying to have a little attention from the people I really loved. That was on my mind since I was a kid. Im living in the past thatās why I have this repeated mistakes. I realized things that in order us to live in the fullest, you have to live in the present. I think I should forget the past. And take a step to move one. Forgive myself , our surroundings who didnāt even care. and I should stop being self - pity. Sorry for being a failure. Maybe Iām not this studios person, maybe itās not really my thing.Sorry to those times i betrayed you. Sorry for betraying those dreams. Sorry for having this awkward moment when Iām with you. Sorry for everything. It may not be back the way it was, Iām thankful coz I have this courage to say sorry. I love you ma.