#hirap

[rainbow-hunters]

This is our loss, not theirs. SINAYANG NIYO! SINAYANG NIYO!

[hellowitty]

Nakaka burn out. Frustrated din ako. Dahil sa pagod at daming problema di ko na naiwasan kaninang sabihin sa nanay ko na NAHIHIRAPAN NA KO.

[theonethatgotawaynoway]

All this time akala ko ako ang may mali, pilit ko tinatatak sa sarili ko na madami akong pagkukulang sayo kaya ka bumitaw. Little did I know meron kana palang iba kaya sumuko ka nlng ng ganun kabilis. Sobrang sakit. Hindi ko naman inasahan yun.. "Love" yan ang tawagan nyo. parang binuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig nanginginig buong katawan ko. Bakit mo nagawa sakin ito. Sayang..sayang ang more than 3 yrs. sobrang dami na nting pinagdaanan na hirap at pagsubok nalagpasan natin yun pero bakit bumigay ka, bumigay ka sa kanya. Akala ko ba matatag ka..tayong dalawa. Hindi ka naman ganyan dati o siguro sadyang ganyan kana tlga. Lahat ng sinabi mo kinain mo. Lahat ng ayaw mo ginawa mo. Sobra sakit, para akong sinasaksak ng paulit ulit. Ang hirap mabuhay ng ganito. Paggising ko iiyak na naman ako parang kagabi lang nakatulog nako sa kakaiyak. Tapos eto na naman isasampal sa mukha ko ang katotohanan na ginago nyo ko.

[kasalananko]

Paalam.

Nandito ako, Nandyan ka. Hintayin mo ako, Hintayin kita. Naghirap ako, Naghirap ka.

Inakala ko, Inakala mo. Pinagpalit mo ako, Pinagpalit kita.

Pangako natin, Pangako mo.

[sometime-in-1995]

Carat Bong vs. NCT Lightstick 😭😭😭

[squeezethylemon]

anunae

ANG INSECURE KO ASDFLAJG;L

i can’t supervise it makes me agh ayokong mang-utos ng tao

but they’re efficient naman. ang weird kasi dito mas marunong siya kaysa sa akin, so ano pa ang sinusupervise ko :( i should’ve an org with a steady system first before doing smth like this. pero i mean idk there is a reason why im here right and I can be useful. I am useful i am giving my all to this org she’s so good at the job that i should learn from her!

ALSO that serious apprehension anxiety slight attack after recweek. that emptiness i felt. whew. parang I knew all along that restraining myself was a good idea, but I didn’t follow so after the high and excitement of joining orgs, the feeling of stress and despair*  came rushing back. and i felt the tears coming. I joined all those orgs last year, hopeful to improve myself and find a constant family that i work well with and improve and excel and they would need my skills, they would need me. BUT it didn’t happen and I had totally forgotten when i signed up.  *idk if this is an exaggeration but it just feels like the right word

but on brighter note i realized that maybe a.p. and the g.g. is that family, the family that needs me, the family that I need.

maybe that’s why i’m more insecure because i have close friends hat’m working with and i don’t want to destroy our friendship bc of demands of work

[icouldbeyourlostboy]

It sucks being stuck in the middle, if you do too much you might lose them and if you do to little you lose them,and if you stay in middle for way too long you lose them.

[rig0]

paano kung yung taong nagpapasaya sayo eh siya rin yung taong sisira sa kaligayahan mo? hahayaan mo lang ba o ititigil mo na?