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[highclassruins]

Anyone else have survivors guilt just for existing?

[highclassruins]

Why is it so hard to go to sleep? Why do I fear waking up? What to do when existence has become too difficult?

Where is the cause of all this? Why is this happening? I'm doing well. I'm making progress. Why do I feel worse? Nothing bad happened to me. I see people dealing with trauma all the time and I think to myself "Wow, that must be hard". But there was no trauma in my life. I've been relatively well off, I'm doing well, why do I feel worse again?

A few months ago, I was excited about the idea of eternal life, now I just want it to end.

[highclassruins]

I'm here now. No real reason, just kind of bored. I'm not here to escape Twitter. In fact I never used it at all. When it came out, I remember thinking what an useless thing it would be. Like the promo vas that you can just Twit out something like "I'm having a coffee at ___", and all I could think was, what a useless media to have, I don't want to just blur out whatever I'm doing. Anyway after that it fucken exploded and now it's imploding I guess? Anyway my point is that I've never been big on social media. Or social... anything for that matter. I've used Reddit for a long time now, but I never really considered it a social media. Just a place for memes and cats. But today I'm bored, so I thought I'd check this place out. So far I've seen a bunch of cats and some memes, so that's a start. Now what?