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teary eyes, pretty bones 💜

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THEY DON'T KNOW HOW I REALLY FEEL.

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i don't think they would understand. they probably wouldn't even care.

~nsh.

[honeybuttersthings]

FUCK EVERYBODY

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everything is different

i feel like people are switching up on me

they all seem different 

and i kind of feel weird or just sad about it

i don't know what to think at all, or how to think.. or how it even got like this

cus' they just aren't the same anymore

i feel like they're replacing me with new people

i guess so.

and now i’m here confused, or just lost

don't know what to do at all.

maybe it’s because i’m not a special friend like others

i don’t know why i feel this way

to be honest,

i don’t know why i feel

like i don’t have the answer to anything

or to the point where i’m really sad sometimes.

no wonder there’s "are you okay?" i just say i’m fine or just a bit tired.

but obviously, i’m lying

i struggle trying to think about it, i think i lost my friends all of a sudden

i feel numb for some reason, i barely cry

the last time i probably cried this year was about july 

but now i’m sitting here emotionless.

they tell me it will get better

whatever i’m going through, they said.

i try to listen to sad songs, didn't really help me, but just let water fill my eyes

fake friends, i keep telling myself to not worry about it at all

so i tried to shut them down

one of them felt bad, missed laughing together

wondered why i was always alone.

she never asked why in person, so i didn't care

sitting alone helps me think more

now shes gone with my other "friend."

not worrying about me, but thats fine.

i still feel alone but i have others, they're just wild.

its a lot of shit that happened this year, the reason why i feel like this

but i won't explain it, or go on

i just keep telling myself...

things will get better.

~nsh.

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don't ever waste ur time on someone who isn't grateful for what u do, and for ur hard work. cus' later, they won't care about u.

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can't tell if you're being a real friend.

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if someone doesn't care about you or your feelings, show them you are strong about your well being.

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i promise myself things will get better.

[bloodyfiend]

i see mountains,

thanks to you.

if there’s a time when you cannot breathe

use me because i want to be your air

and when my fingers are caught up in your hair

it reminds me, i’ll always be there

no one cares but its so unfair, i never got to see

light that shines as bright as the ocean is deep

in front of you, you’re in front of me

staring, you’re eyes glisten: effortlessly

and to think that you attention is invested in me

flowing against the current of society’s river

but you fall in love with me?

that i don’t consider, it’s a fantasy

i relive in my dreams every night

with you i don’t ever wanna fight

virbrations i send as you inch down my side,

how it’ll feel sooner or later when our worlds collide

on the same frequency, but on different times

all i know for sure is that you need to be mine.

— gwa

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!

don't give in to something if it isn't real. i did it before and i got hurt.

~nsh.

[xlilitu]

Hurt

I can give advice

I can be a great friend

I can be a great lover

I can be everything you're looking for

But the worst part

Is that I'm still my own worst enemy

But the worst part

Is that I still hate myself

But the worst part

Is that I still hurt

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i don’t think people know how i think or reflect on certain things.

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right now, i feel happy. then, ill be sad all over again.

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i don't usually tell or write down how i feel on the "internet" but im bored so.

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hello..

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don't really know how to feel rn.