If I was a stronger person, maybe I'd write about the time I wanted to grab bubble tea with my friend but couldn't because her street was closed after two people were fatally shot to death or maybe I'd write about how I watched a landmine go off.
Maybe I'd write about my little cousin coming home retelling the details of her day and how her was friend crying after that boy lost his dad a day prior to the military. Maybe I'd write about how my little cousin's best friends had to move away and how lonely and sad she was and is that all friends her age are gone.
Maybe I'd talk about how the worth of the Burmese currency has decreased and several people I know had to drop their education because they could no longer pay. Maybe I could talk about the rise of crimes like stealing and calming my cousin after her phone was stolen.
Maybe I could talk about how our healthcare is failing us and that summer of 2021 and everyday I woke up to news that somebody I knew died. Maybe I could talk about the trauma of learning my father with pre-existing health issues contracted COVID and I realized the very real possibility that I might have to tell my younger sibling that our father was gone, that my grandparents would be without their son, my mother would be a widow, our main source of income would be gone, and my nephew would be robbed of the chance to ever know him.
Maybe I'd write about the trauma of going through that and saying goodbye to my Dad because I genuinely believed he would die and he didn't and I was fucking lucky.
My friend's mother passed away that summer.
Maybe I could write about these in detail. Maybe I should talk about this and maybe I should be loud about this but the truth is I don't care at this point.
It's been normalized. It's the news I wake up to.
Nobody cares, the media doesn't care, the internet doesn't care, heck, most of the internet doesn't even know about my country let alone this issue.
Maybe I'd tag this as personal but it's not personal. this is an issue that the whole of Myanmar is dealing with and nobody even knows.
AND I'M PRIVELEGED. I AM LUCKY. SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE IT WORSE THAN ME.
I don't want to guilt-trip anybody into reblogging so if you want to, please do, and please do raise awareness about this issue as it seems like nobody else will.
I don't know how to end this post. Bye.