Ok I know this page is freaky freaked out gooner core but I was just thinking about when I got surgery a few months ago
I had to put the surgery gown thing on and it doesn't have any sleeves I was freaking out badly I tried to keep arm warmers on and asked the doctors to keep my long sleeved shirt underneath but for sanitary reasons of course that wasn't happening
At the time I wasn't clean from self harm and no one knew even my mum who was waiting in the hospital room for me so when I finally took the arm warmers off I felt everyones' stares on my arms terrified someone would say something
No one did until I was in line for it to start and I lay on the bed surrounded by doctors naked under the thinnest shit material known to man until one nurse held my hand while they put me under, since I'm terrified of needles, and her arms were covered in scars like mine
We shared a look in that moment and she smiled at me as I went under
I don't know if her being there was on purpose or not but I will be eternally grateful that she was it felt like I wasn't completely on my own and I don't know how to ever thank her
I've been clean for about a month now and its partly from wanting to be just scarred like that nurse not cut like I was then
So seriously thank you to anyone that shows their scars out it really helps guys like me that are really going throught it feel less alien and alone 🫶
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