HILARY CASTLES

I lose my shit over writing, history, comics, footy, and sending the appropriate gif responses to text messages. Currently working on Dark Discord

[purpleheartrainman]

Maggie Rogers | Fallingwater

[hilcastles]

This song shook my soul last April and made me sob my eyes out. 

[hilcastles]

[hilcastles]

Nose goes. #SeamusTheSchnauzer

[hilcastles]

"Love really isn't hell, but being alive knowing it can't save you is."

Ryan Adams

[hilcastles]

This aching breaches my chest and reaches up to find you. Through the layers of haze, pillowy clouds, and prisms of pristine light somewhere there is the space made for reunion. I am caught bargaining, rationing memories, hints of you left in the smudge of mess and worn existence. I find pieces of you in the worst of it, and reflections of you in the best. 

No steps to trace, no journey to retrieve or recover--you’re not lost. It’s a careful dance, timed, enjoyed, meticulous. Within is a hurt to settle me, if ever I could ease into the emptiness. But nothing is easy about falling away, and yet nothing is more romantic than the surrender to hope. And nothing is never nothing, this absence of you has taught me. 

The same blanket of ozone and airplanes above you is above me. There is no glory, there is just inevitability. A slow crawl, an agony to endure, and then a reunion, then a peace will settle. After the promises we made to ourselves, broken things can be mended. And then loved. 

[ancientorigins]

Stone House in celorico de basto, Northern Portugal

[hilcastles]

6/10 Albums that Influenced Me 4. Gold - Ryan Adams (2001) the beginning of a long and perfect love affair "Oh the night, here it comes again" 😭😭😭 5. Red Letter Days - the Wallflowers (2002) this album has EVERYTHING. Love songs. Songs about kids. Hate your enemies songs. Summer tunes. Upbeat yet melancholy laments about existence! 6. Sea Sew - Lisa Hannigan (2008) I found this gem late in the game after hearing her in the film Ondine. She blew me away. Like Damien Rice (who she sang with..) but so so much better. This album is so perfect, it maps the farthest reaches of my soul.

[bobbyfirminho]

For others it’s sport, for us it’s a way of life.

They have a stadium, we have a home.

They have songs, we have an anthem.

They have a manager, we have a guardian.

They have supporters, we are a family.

WE ARE LIVERPOOL.

THIS MEANS MORE. 

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[javierbardem]

[hilcastles]

3/10 Albums That Influenced Me 1. Eden - Sarah Brightman (1998) every year I listen to this, it grows to mean so much more to me. She is timeless. 2. State of the Ark - The Ark (2004) "Let Me Down Gently": the first song I ever heard Ola Salo's sassy, incredible voice, and sweet Swedish glam rock. 3. Maybe Memories - The Used (2002) one of the best emo albums ever, Top 3 IMO. It was my first taste of delicious, dramatic angst.

[bulletproof-gentleman-blog]

And I went home, Chasing twisters in the canyon My cathedral is the badlands Dust and devils on my conscience Come back to me darlin’

[elumish]

I just want to say something to people struggling with mental illness.

There were numerous things that needed to get done today. I’m going somewhere tomorrow and haven’t done laundry in…a while. My room (still) looks like it was ransacked by the world’s dumbest burglar.

Instead, I sat on my bed rereading fanfiction for 6-8 hours straight, because my brain said I shouldn’t do one thing until I had done another thing, and without doing that second thing, the first thing never got done, so I read fanfiction instead. This is one of the million ways that mental illness (in the form of executive dysfunction) works. Sometimes things just don’t work, or you sleep for 15 hours a day, or you sleep for 15 hours a week, or you have to stop yourself from eating an entire pint of ice cream and then a box of cookies and some chocolate because it makes you feel temporarily kind of good.

It’s okay if you can’t write sometimes. It’s okay if you can’t write a lot. It’s okay if you sit down to write every day for a year, and every day your brain flinches and goes, no, nope, not doing that today. Sometimes stuff sucks. Sometimes days go badly. And some days you’ll be able to clean that entire section of your room, or write 100 words (or 1000, or 5000). Just don’t let your bad days get in the way of your good, and don’t forget that good days–or good mornings, or good evenings, or good hours–will come.

[sadiiomane10]

❤️ ❤️ ❤️

[hilcastles]

Jordan Henderson went to the head of the guards and said he needed that banner from the stands.

[jordanshenderson]

i have a lot of Feelings about james milner captaining liverpool to the semi finals at the etihad, against the team that didn’t appreciate him enough who also happen to be the team that want this trophy more than any other

[jordanshenderson]

i have even more Feelings about james milner captaining liverpool to the semi-finals of the cl against the team that didn’t want him enough, and then going on to help lead liverpool to their first champions league final in 11 years and his first champions league final ever, especially after the worst luck a footballer could have over both legs

and i have even more Feelings about the way he collapsed at the final whistle in utter relief to the point where he was in tears and how he just lay there and let it sink in because he’s just done something that most people never thought he would and he wouldn’t be on that pitch if he hadn’t taken the decision to leave the security of the etihad

[hilcastles]

I have Feelings after he played at left back, out of position, for an entire season because we needed him there. After which, critics said he'd be rotation in the midfield. He's 32 years old and ran more than other player in that 2nd leg against City by a long stretch and has the most assists in a Champions League campaign.

[gollygaush-deactivated20181124]

Interviewer: Roma should have had 2 penalties

Van Dijk: who cares

[marvel-is-ruining-my-life]

Incredible

[thenormalone1892]

This is everything.