Hisanalana

Actor, Director, Singer, Artist, Cosplayer

[hisana123]

I'm so tired of living. I can't talk about anything with my family, otherwise I'm accused of tearing the family apart. I can't live my whole life bottling things in just for their comfort. They are asking me to choose between my morals and keeping the family happy. If it weren't for my husband, my cat and my friends, I would have killed myself long ago.

[hisana123]

My brother says I'm tearing the family apart in speaking out against Trump on Facebook. I'm utterly broken.

[hisana123]

Who will history forgive more?

[wazzappp]

I feel like people who didn't like Iron Lung because 'it all felt so hopeless' are not getting the right thing out of it.

The whole point is that even if you fail it matters that you TRIED. Humanity's desire to keep fighting through impossible, hopeless situations, not just for your own life but for the lives of others, is BEAUTIFUL.

I feel like I'm failing all the time. But this movie is a reminder to me that even if I do fail it still mattered that I gave it my all. And that actually gives me hope.

[hisana123]

Imma say it. The hate over Lupita being cast as Helen of Troy is so stupid. She is literally among the most beautiful actresses in the world, but because she is black, no one can believe she could be a "face that lauched a thousand ships." Why do people constantly debate black beauty? Why are people making racist characters of her like we're back in the early 20th century? And this isn't a self-named "documentary" to earn such hate. It's an INTERPRETATION of a MYTHIC FICTION from THOUSANDS OF YEARS AGO. How did we go from a childhood where people were chill with Brandy as Cinderella, but a version of a less-talked-about character with nearly zero lines is making everyone lose their shit?

[hisana123]

#DescribeAFilmBadly A kind, mentally ill and horny girl exists in a time where it is taboo to be mentally ill and horny, so she saves the world by fucking a vampire til sunrise.

[mcpayne]

Guillermo Del Toro's Frankenstein is about forgiving the person who brought you into this world without your permission when you do not want to be alive, and about forgiving yourself for being alive and accepting your life free of guilt and that is genuinely the most beautiful, validating thing I have ever seen in a film.

[russicnroses]

THE CREATION OF BLOOD+ & INTERVIEWS FROM THE ORIGINAL CAST

Saya Otonashi is a high-school girl living peacefully with her family... with one exception: she has no memory of her life except for the past year. One day, a startling event causes her happy life to shatter into pieces.

[hisana123]

I'm so tired of everything. Pretending to be okay at work is something everyone has to do, but as an autistic woman with severe depression, it's infinitely harder. I am screaming out for help. I am tired of masking. I am tired of living. I am tired of pretending everything is okay just so I can keep my job and not be put in a mental asylum and not be scolded my mom just for having negative thoughts. I am tired of being strong. I am tired of holding it all in. For once I wish I could fall apart and not be blamed anymore. But I can't. It feels like death is my only savior and I can't even choose that.

[hisana123]

How do I forgive the people who raised me, loved me, supported me in nearly everything I pursued and validated my feelings in times when I was down, when they still voted for Trump?

[hisana123]

I would be willing to have an end to the electoral college, the requirement to be 35 or over, and the requirement to be born in the US if we never have another Donald Trump in the White House again.

[mahgck]

you have to outlive donald trump

[mahgck]

imagine how funny the internet will be on the day he dies.

[themunflower]

Project 2025 ain't gonna roll out all at once. So what we're gonna wanna do is make passing each individual part of it as difficult as possible, so there's less to undo once we finally get this country back on the rails.

[tobiasdrake]

Resist every step and do not get distracted by stupid bullshit. Distracting people with stupid bullshit is one of Trump's favorite political techniques. We saw it all over the place in the first term.

Trump will say something like "You know the Hispanics actually punch kittens, it's what they do."

And the news will be like "TRUMP SAID HISPANIC PEOPLE PUNCH KITTENS" for three weeks.

And while they're doing that the Republicans in Congress have quietly deleted healthcare.

Do not get distracted by stupid bullshit. Trump is a dancing monkey whose greatest asset is the ability to yank the spotlight off of everyone else. Keep your eyes on Congress.

[animentality]

[hisana123]

Been non-permanently self-harming for years now, but I'm afraid due to current events it's going to escalate to actual cutting.

[hisana123]

I've never felt more alone in my life and at the same time not alone. Our country voted against their own people, and there are so many like me who feel marginalized and afraid of the future. Women will die of untreated miscarriages. The LGBT community will be stripped of their rights. We'll lose social security. Immigrant families will be torn apart. Climate change will get worse. More kids will end up in foster care. And I won't forgive those who voted for Trump.

[hisana123]

I've been in a bit of a bind here. I love men. I only occasionally like women. I know bisexuality has been called a spectrum more than it is 50/50, but just the term "bisexual" alone doesn't give me a sense of identity. Because I feel like I'd be wearing someone else's hat. Marching someone else's march. I was always told that the right label would give you comfort, but that word doesn't for me.

For one thing, my small attraction for women is not making me in a terrible urge to tell my parents. It slightly hurts, but I feel like I could go the rest of my life not telling them because they might think it was a bigger part of me than I actually feel it is. And I'm in love with my boyfriend(who is aware of my feelings), so I feel like there's no point in putting any seeds of doubt in my parents' heads that I'll end up with anyone but him.

For another thing, I don't have any sexual desire for women beyond possibly 2nd base.

I once heard the term "heteroflexible," and that feels closer to me, but people say it contributes to bi-erasure, and the last thing I want to do is offend. But can an identity be wrong if it's how I feel? Is there some other word that is out there for people like me who are not completely straight but don't feel comfortable claiming to be bi?

*Edit: It's been a couple months since I've posted this and the urge to talk about it kept rising and falling out of mind, until I finally started to accept that it was okay to call myself bi today(it still takes a little getting used to). As soon as I did that, I ended up telling my bros, and then the urge to tell my Mom was suddenly overwhelming. I thought I could hold it in forever, but I couldn't. I only felt comfortable enough to hint at it rather than spell it out, and she didn't ask any uncomfortable questions, she just wholeheartedly accepted me.

If anyone else is going through what I went through, please know that whether you prefer the term bisexual or feel it doesn't fit you in the moment, it's okay. No one knows your preferences more than you do. Just know that the right people will accept you with or without labels.