I know I can't be the perfect molly mormon they want me to be...

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[hissss-you-sinner]

the speech pattern and tone of voice used in general conference talks genuinely makes me want to lose my lunch

[fangirlinginleatherboots]

apparently this needs to be said but in no situation is it EVER appropriate to come into a religious abuse survivors space and try to justify a day of worship, a practice, or a belief as not bad or harmful.

you have no idea of the true extent of the atrocities that are committed in the names of god, faith, and devotion. 

there is a damn good reason why there is an entire classification of abuse called “religious abuse.”

NEVER ask a religious abuse survivor to view religion in a different light. you cannot expect them to find comfort in or respect for something that has harmed them so extensively.

[hissss-you-sinner]

as an exmo i couldn’t agree more. NOTHING will ever be appropriate or justifiable about a middle aged man asking a 12 year old if they play with themselves. i was one of those 12 year olds and it’s fucking disgusting. ive seen people try to justify it with “oh but they let the kids’ parents in the same room now” i don’t give a fuck if they allow the parents in the same room now it’s still wrong

[itsraining-somewhereelse]

I might not be a girl or a woman anymore, but I will never forget the way that 8 year old me had to wear a t-shirt under her summer sundress. She was told that it would be her fault if a man saw her shoulders and was tempted to sin.

I have seen little kids out in “immodest”clothing: tank tops with dinos, polkadotted short shorts, unicorn crop tops. You know how many of those children I’ve had sinful thoughts about?

None.

Imagine being such a spineless fucking pedophile that you blame the child for daring to have a body.

Remember when the men said to Christ, “the scantily-clad woman is causing us to have impure thoughts!”

They waited to hear “she must cover her body.”

Instead, Christ replied “if your hand betrays you, cut it off; and if your eyes cause you to sin, gouge them out.”

It’s high time to bring that back.

[moth-grrrl-mavis]

Being in a cult is like having this huge plant take root in your mind, and the longer it’s inner the bigger and more complex the root system.

Finally realizing it’s all a lie and getting out is like yanking the entire plant out of your brain, it’s tough and annoying until you take one massive tug and it’s out. And it fucking hurts.

And now there are holes where the roots used to be. But if you leave them empty the structural integrity of your mind will be damaged. You have to find something else to fill them with. Preferably something healthy.

And if the roots were complex enough, the one tug that pulled the plant out won’t have been enough to free all the roots. A lot of them are still in there, that’s all the toxic internalized ideas you still have stuck in your head. Unlearning them is like pulling those root fragments out, it’s slow and complicated and painful.

[catsnuggler]

Not enough people know the Mormons believe Native Americans are Jewish people who turned away from God and got cursed by having their skin darkened, or that Mormons literally have Manifest Destiny right there in the text, no extrapolation. I’m not Native at all, but frankly, it’s one of the most disgusting things of that faith that caused me to utterly reject it. It is a vile religion that is white supremacist to its very core.

[catsnuggler]

I know most everyone sees Mormons only as annoying missionaries who won’t get out of your face (including in the third world, where missionary work is a vital part of the colonization process), and some folks vaguely know they’re also big homophobes, and that is true, but they’re so much worse than, eh, “only” all that. They’re rabidly anti-communist, highly patriarchal, incredibly homophobic and transphobic, and highly nationalist - obedience to the state is one of their articles of faith, and it isn’t in there as a token gesture so they can get into most any country unmolested, either.

To be sure, most Mormons aren’t Nazis and don’t have favorable views of Nazis, but they are about as reactionary as Nazis, particularly with their obedience to the church hierarchy. Mormons like the conservative who hates everyone the fascists hate, but hates the fascists because “I’m an American, and we Americans love democracy and hate fascists,” obviously knowing nothing about, say, Chile in 1973, or how NATO was totally cool all that time working with Spain while Franco was still in charge, or how American industrialists coordinated with the Nazis before the war, or literally anything about the deeper history of America and fascism. But whether they know how fascist they are or not, they’re comfortable doing fascism, and a hiccup away from realizing they really do fundamentally agree with fascism, so long as their “prophet” is in charge.

I guess what I’m saying is, by all means, poke fun at Mormons, and make jokes about them. They really are ridiculous, and I agree as someone who was, unfortunately, raised as one. But they’re not only a joke, they’re also a threat wherever they are in numbers.

[coyotesmokebreak]

A note on mormon beliefs about natives: they believe that by marrying natives and having children with us that they can “restore” us to our supposed previous esteem.

A small excerpt from one of Joseph Smiths “revelations”

“For it is my will, that in time, ye should take unto you wives of the Lamanites and Nephites, that their posterity may become white, delightsome and Just”

[wizardfail]

i was raised mormon + its genuinely horrifying. like 

they also own the Polynesian Cultural Center in Hawaii and several elementary and secondary schools in mexico and the pacific islands. given the information previously provided in this post, this is particularly alarming.

during the obama romney election the leaders of the church sent out a letter to be read in every congregation that was like…remember to vote in a way that god would appreciate or else :) he may be upset w you :)

they also have $32 billion in business assets that they handle through church-owned finance companies (look up Deseret Management Corporation) so they don’t have to report their expenses. their holdings include swaths of land in utah, america’s 14th largest radio chain, and utah’s largest newspaper. oh and they’re just sitting on SO MUCH FUCKING LAND WHY DO HTYE OWN SO MUCH LAND????

tl;dr: the church’s racist rhetoric doesn’t just encourage racism in its members. church assets are actively used to “educate” + convert indigenous people and maintain political control in utah

[hissss-you-sinner]

gee, no wonder why I hate this fucking church. It protects pedophiles, rapists, abusers, etc. and imposes pedophilic standards on women (don't grow up, always be "sister" instead of elder, be like a little child, keep your interests childlike, and will begin pressuring you to marry very young the second you turn 18)

[hissss-you-sinner]

was told I should be happy I won't be autistic in the afterlife

fuck that I'm not ashamed of my autism and I see it as an essential part of who I am, I'd rather go to hell as myself than eternal sacrament meeting as a neurotypical mary sue counterfeit of myself

[hissss-you-sinner]

I sometimes wonder what I ever did in a past life to deserve being born in a cult

[hissss-you-sinner]

i really hope reincarnation is real because the m*rmon church ruined my life and after this life ends i'd kill to be born into another life that won't be ruined by a cult

was my previous life better?

[hissss-you-sinner]

I feel like I'm unable to feel guilt, I only feel shame at times where I'm supposed to feel guilt

idk if it's because my teachers in the mormon church didn't teach me about guilt when I was a kid, only "healthy shame" and "toxic shame" (all shame is toxic for fuck's sake)

[hissss-you-sinner]

[hissss-you-sinner]

holy fucking shit neurotypical mormons annoy the shit out of me

they think I can fully control what gives me sensory overloads and when I have them

[hissss-you-sinner]

i fucking hate how the church calls 11 year old children "young men/women"

like fuck no they're still children just because they're going through puberty or some shit doesn't mean they're a man/woman now, all you're doing is making them seem older than they really are (when i hear young man/woman i think of an adult around 18-24, not a fucking PRETEEN)

even before that i was still uncomfortable with being called a "young woman" after i turned 12, i only started feeling comfortable with it after i like turned 17 or 18

i feel like now that i'm a legal adult, it's a more appropriate time to call me a "young woman" but to them i'm just a "young single adult"

[ohyeah]

Reblog this to prove your blog was made before the February 2022 tumblr resurgence

[hissss-you-sinner]

being an lgbt member of the mormon church is like having wings, then some person comes and cuts your wings off and after that the same person expects you to fly

[former-mormon-scrapbook]

It is stunning to realize how many of my old beliefs were just coping mechanisms for the reality that life is very sad and very hard.

[hissss-you-sinner]

I feel like waking up super early for seminary robbed me of proper development in high school

I was unable to ever get the amount of sleep the average high schooler should be getting because of fucking seminary