Having listened to the anecdotes of the two men that I find interesting [both singers], it made me realize how boring my love life, and generally, my life is. There’s really nothing special to share or to learn from except maybe for the time that I got hit by a mini truck and that other time a thief hit me on the head with a gun and I had to get stitches. Funny experiences really but I don’t really want to have more of that kind of “interesting”.
It’s not that I didn’t have any experience with relationships. Despite having been single for a decade now, I’ve dated four different people at different points in time. But I don’t know. They weren’t that special or mind blowing, really. It’s just a relationship as it should be. No mountains climbed or oceans parted in the name of love.
Sure, there were good and bad times, but nothing worth romanticizing over when you decide to look back. Though, is there actually even anything worth romanticizing when it comes to past relationships? I mean, it is the past, shouldn’t you just move on from them? And if you’re still romanticizing about them, maybe it’s time to stop, discern and figure out why you’re feeling this way? But I digress.
When it comes to romance, as a form of defense mechanism, I always use my zodiac sign as an excuse. I probably feel so-and-so cause I’m an Aquarius and I’m normally emotionally detached. “Brain over heart. Logic over emotions”, I always say. Even when it comes to having a crush, I make sure to go through a grueling 6 months probationary period before spending on merchandise. But even so, does it have to be this mundane or have I been single for so long that I’ve become cynical to the concept of love?
To begin with, is love or the feeling of it even be necessary in life? I find that even if a person is single, we do find ourselves in situations where the heart is exceptionally excited, be it over an otome game, a relationship that we admire or an idol that we fantasize being with. Why is that though? Is this a normal function in the life “factory settings” or have we been influenced by media so much that the idea of being alone is automatically negated with a more, possibly, positive outlook regardless if it doesn’t involve us directly or if it does, it’s imaginary.
Going back to the two men I mentioned earlier… for the meantime, I’d like to think that perhaps, their stories are as average as mine. They simply appear more interesting because of the kind of people that they’ve become. The rift between the status of celebrity and fan has elevated their anecdotes onto a pedestal where we are reminded that they are still human despite all the fame and fortune.
Ugh. So many unnecessary thoughts as we celebrate, perhaps, the most romantic legend today [The Star Festival].
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