The Secret Life of Maria

to dare is to do

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The audacity of me to dream working in New York 🙄

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Here we go again, i have an upcoming travel and im feverish 🥵

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I wanna learn to swim ☹️

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Everyone’s ig stories are boring.

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Hey tumblr, I feel bored these past days and i dont understand why. There were unexpected things which happened recently tho, i talked again with this guy i WAS with. We exchanged messages for a few days then i told him yesterday what i currently feel. He didn’t even ask me why or how or anything. He freaking doesnt have any idea how things should be done, damn i will not be the one teaching him that.

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Saw a tiktok vid of a juicy beef burger, damn it’s like 10 pm and im craving for it

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Year 2016 which is ten years ago, i started doing my therapy. I got diagnosed with clinical depression so i had to take pills and do extra activities just to elevate my serotonin.

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I baked cookies earlier. Trying to learn new things is whats keeping my sanity now.

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It's 10:10 pm and I'm currently listening to Taylor Swift's daylight. Can't help but feel grateful and cute (lol so random). Thinking about the bad things makes me appreciate the good. Happiness radiates within me right now that I keep smiling oh God this is freaking funny. But I guess this is how someone feels when grace is bestowed.

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Got my left point finger burned when i touched the caramelized sugar. This is my first time making leche flan, hope it turns out good.

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My last purchase and gift to myself for this year is a convection oven 🙂

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I like my iPad homepage ❤️

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Glad I found this song. It speaks volume to me so I dedicate this to myself. My fave line goes “kalapastangan ang di ka ibigin, kalokohan ang di ka isipin”

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I'm back home from my UAE travel. I became different after this travel, different in a subtle way. The realizations are overwhelming but the person I am now is wiser and gentler. My experience there makes me more appreciative of what I am and what I have. I also feel hopeful of what's to come (even tho my molar tooth is hurting as i type), that as long as I'm alive and healthy I will be able to nurture myself into becoming someone I want - to keep learning new things, to travel and explore new places, to be in an environment where I can grow positively, to educate myself better, to be richer financially and in values, EVERYTHING! So I thank God since He made me capable of doing things as I want to. I may travel alone but never did i feel i was.

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When puma speedcat ballet got released, i was really tempted to buy. But i had priorities so i keep delaying it. Last aug i was trying on this red ballet and waited until i finally bought this today. My heart is forever grateful ❤️

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Got great news earlier, my dubai visa got approved ❤️

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A few months back, i posted that Grace is getting married this year. And here she is, so beautiful on her wedding day.

And here is me during the make-up session and during dinner. I like my make up, sleek and simple which is so me.

Most of the time, im with Cheska (the maid of honor) and a friend since highschool. We have the same hobby of collecting cameras; she has more cams tho. I can say that we both like to take photos and perhaps thats why even when we dont hang out all the time we still feel connected.

After the program, i did not go to the afterparty. I went home straight as i felt so tired and sleepy already. Nevertheless, it was a happy day for everyone 🙂