my name is mari! and I really wanna get into the whole tumblr author thing so this is kind of like my introduction!
I'm 16! (yes that's really young but like I used to read fanfictions when I was like 8 so does it really matter, no)
I'll genuinely write anything but I mostly find myself writing like love stories or just like really cute things abt characters n stuff! (I think they count as headcannons I'm not sure)
I'm mostly interested in arcane, billie eilish, and tlou! (the last of us) so I will mostly write about those things!
my requests are open! but again, I mostly write about stuff I'm interested in, BUT feel free to pop in and talk to me or ask me questions!
pls pls pls don't expect my writing to be perfect! I usually write really late at night and I might have some spelling mistakes! (I apologize in advance)
I won't always be frequent with uploading fics :( I have school n can be really busy at times! I'll try my hardest to upload and be as quick as possible with writing :(
I'm a proud lesbian, so most (if not all) of my fics will be wlw relationships! (GO LESBIANS RAHH)
as the holidays/vacations come by I promise u guys I'll try to get some things out, but for now I'll see u guys soon!!
warnings: smut (obvi), phone sex, fingering (briefly mentioned for billie, mostly described for the reader), lingerie (is that even considered a warning?..), nipple play (reader doing that to herself), poor writing (it's like almost 1 am when I'm writing this, i'm tired), badly written ending bc i suck at writing endings - enjoy sillies
your girlfriend, billie, was on tour.
you get it, sheās a famous singer, and obviously, singers go on tour. youāve joined her on tour before, had fun, met some fans, joined billie backstage, enjoyed her show a couple of times, fucked on the tour bus, etc.
billieās next couple of tour dates took place in Japan. this one time, you couldnāt join her because she had been told that events were already planned for her when she would arrive, unlike every other time, where you guys get there and then do whatever.
both of you were upset, billie more so because you couldnāt see her and how far away the two of you would be, and then you, because you really wanted to explore Japan with her. Itās something you talked about for months.
one key factor you both agreed on was the sex you two would have after shows.
billie said it was some form of relieving her stress. of course, you didnāt doubt her word. why would you exactly?.. youāve seen how mad she can get on stage.. even though sheās facing a crowd of fans, you would expect them to at least respect the singer they spent money to see.. but no, from people ruining her loop for āwhen the partyās overā to pulling her during the barricade run. sometimes you sit and wonder how she does it.
itās not like she doesnāt complain to you, because she very much does so. it bothers her, so when the showās over, you patiently wait backstage for her and make sure to comfort her. and then, after letting her get how she feels off her chest, she gets all touchy and then fucks you till you canāt think for yourself.
itās not like you hated it, but now that billieās in Japan, youāre definitely missing it.
so now you sit in billieās room, scrolling on your phone, occasionally checking to see if billie read your text. I mean, is she even awake right now?
you pull up google, āwhat time is it in Tokyo, Japan?ā Itās 4 AM over there; youāre not getting a response anytime soonā¦
but an idea slipped your mindā¦
phone sex was something you and billie had never done, but youāve talked about it.. same thing with sending nudes and videos over text, but billie was always there with you (or vice versa), so nothing but regular, heartfelt messages were exchanged through text.
but that would change today.
you were yearning for your girlfriend, and it was genuinely making it impossible for you to do anything. the ache between your thighs grew with every movement you made, and it was killing you.
so, instead of doing what any normal person would do, you decided to doll yourself up and be a tease.
it would benefit both you and billie anyway..
so now here you are, in this baby blue lingerie set billie bought you a while back, hitting different poses on her bed while snapping pictures of yourself. (your chest, the set you were wearing, and especially your dripping cunt) You looked hot, and billie was going to lose her shit. (when she wakes up, obviously)
you ended up taking a nap (who knew posing lewdly could tire you?..) and woke up to your phone buzzing; it was billie spamming you.
she hearted every single photo you sent her
āholy shit.. you missinā me that much, mama?ā
āi need you billsā¦ call me, please? :(ā
incoming facetime: my baby bills
you accept the facetime.
billie whispers under her breath, āturn on the camera, let me see you.ā
you turn your camera on, face flushed, chest on display for her, before speaking up, āI-I canāt get off without you, billie.. I need you..ā
billie scoffs loud enough for her microphone to pick it up, ābaby, thatās pathetic.. but go ahead, show me how wet you are for me.ā
you nod and carefully position your phone where your whole body is on display, especially your dripping cunt
āis this better?..ā you whisper (it is 11:30 pm, you know..)
billie speaks again, āway better baby. now spread your legs, and rub at your pretty clit for meā
you nod and slot your hand between your thighs, fingers rubbing circles on your lace-covered clit. you could feel your slick dripping out of you, soaking the fabric.
you canāt lie, it embarrassed you, but the thought of your girlfriend watching you play with youself only turned you on even more.
lost in the thought of pleasure, you barely make out the sound of billie shifting herself on the hotel bed, small whines escaping her lips.
āare you?-ā you ask innocently before billie cuts you off,
āyouāre just too pretty for me not too.. plus- oh fuck- it makes it feel more realā
You pause for a second before slipping off the matching panties. ātell me what to do, like how you usually do backstage..ā
billie smirks, āfuck yourself on your fingers, like how I make you do it. I wanna see your fingers get all soaked and messy while your perfect tits bounce- picturing it makes me so close already-ā
she stifles a moan before forcefully pulling her fingers away
you, on the other hand, youāre shoving two fingers into your cunt and rocking back and forth on them, just how billie makes you do it.
eventually you start bouncing on your fingers, hitting all the right places. free-hand pinching and tugging at your nipples while your other tit moves along with the crash of your hips.
billie watches from her phone, trying to match the same rhythm you fucking yourself to, in hopes that both of you would cum together.
then you say the magic words, ābillie- i-iām gonna cum-ā
a sigh of relief escapes her lips, āgo ahead, cumā¦ wanna do it with youā
the moment she said that, a switch flipped in you. cum immediately gushing out of your cunt and soaking your fingers (and the bedsheets beneath you). moans spilling from you as you ride out your orgasm.
billie watches your face scrunch up as you cum before finishing herself. whines and curses quietly leaving her mouth as she also rides out her orgasm.
āholy shit, you did so good for me..ā she praises you
you let out a soft hum before grabbing your phone and collapsing on the bed, screen faced up as you quickly fall asleep.
billie canāt help but laugh to herself; she already wants to go home and see you. maybe fuck you too.. but not until she smothers you in affection.
did u guys know I'm almost at 100 followers? cause i didn't! but it's honestly really cool to know 95 (exactly) people like my writing (even though half the time I feel really insecure about literally anything I write about). I think once we reach 100, I'll release like a special or something! idk yet, but I have a feeling I will definitely have enough time to think about it..
also, I'm trying to get back into "consistently" posting things for u guys again! I randomly came up with this fic when I was lowk daydreaming abt something (I don't remember what it was exactly about..)
another thing I'd like to mention is that my inbox is open again! (wink wink nudge nudge) come talk to me! reach out to me personally or do whatever! I loveeee talking with u guys
till next time! mari, out <3
content warning: smut (obvi), public/maybe semi-public sex? fingering (r!receiving), oral sex (r!receiving), grinding (but for like one line of text), dom!billie & subish!reader
the nightclub throbbed with the heavy beat of classic club music, with whatever lyrics syncing with the flashing strobe lights.
sweat-slicked bodies on the dance floor, people rubbing against each other, lovers making out in the corner, and people too socially awkward to actually dance on the club floor.
and then there was billie, leaning against the bar counter with her cropped tank clinging to her curves from how hot the club was, her black shorts riding high on her thighs, and a non-alcoholic drink in hand.
in reality, she never saw herself wearing something like this to a club; people always saw her in baggy jeans and t-shirts, but tonight, the LA heat hit differently.
she scanned the crowd, looking for her friends who had promised to be there ages ago. yet, there was still no sign of them
tonight was supposed to be a fun night.
after being on tour for so long, her friends decided to all treat themselves to a night in a random club in LA you would assume most clubs had good ratings since all party goers live here, but no, the highest rated club was a whopping 3.5 stars..
while daydreaming, billie spotted you across the room: a woman with hips that swayed like she knew exactly how to party, long hair cascading down her back, and an outfit that just screamed āparty girlā (like, in a charli xcx way)
billie immediately knew she had to talk to you, that magnetic draw pulling her away from the bar as quickly as possible. she pushed her way through the massive clump of people blocking her path to you.
the bass vibrating up her spine, until she was close enough to catch the scent of your perfume mixed with the club's musk.
āhey..ā billie said, voice low and teasing as she settled next to you, your arms brushing.
you turned, lips curving into a slow smile, your gaze dropping to billie's exposed chest before flicking back up.
āyou're hot, you know that, right?..ā you comment before shooting a rather innocent smile towards her.
the music swelled, āI'm a showgirl, take it all off in the floodlightsā
as the song played, billie let her hand trail lightly along your arm, feeling the goosebumps rise.
āthis club is terrible.. but after seeing you, I have a different opinion,ā she murmured and bit her lip before leaning in and placing her hands on your hips.
anyoneās first instinct would be to pull away from this stranger, but you didnāt. Instead, you shifted closer, your thighs pressing against billie's in a sense of need.
āglad to know I changed your trajectory without getting to know me,ā you smirk before moving both of you to the edge of the floor. the crowd parting just enough for you two to exchange a couple of kisses (and maybe hickeys too)
after dancing on the sidelines, billie's hands found your waist yet again and pulled you back against her chest. she could feel the heat radiating from your body, and with the way your ass nestled perfectly into her hips, she was in fucking heaven.
ātie me up, I'm lazy, I want you to do the work, I wanna feel you deep and dirty like your tongue is on my-ā
the chorus played through, and billie nipped at your earlobe, whispering, āyou hear that? it's exactly how I feel right now.ā
your head tilted back, exposing your neck, billie took that as an invitation. lips brushing your soft skin, tasting salt with a mix of your perfume.
āgod you're such a freak.. I like thatā you giggle and follow her hands with your own.
her hands roamed lower, fingers splaying over your stomach, dipping just under the hem of your top. a soft gasp escaped you, as you arched into her touch, one of your own hands reaching back to grip billieās thigh. the tension coiled tighter with every beat.
billie's clit began throbbing, her arousal seeping into her shorts as she rocked against your ass, playing it off as if she was just dancing with you, the friction was teasing but not enough for her.
ālet's get out of this crowd,ā billie suggested, voice rough with want.
āwhatever you say, pretty lady..ā you reply softly
she led the way to a dim corner booth, the shadows offering a sliver of privacy. the both of you slid in close, thighs pressed together as billie captured your mouth in a slow, lewd kiss. tongues met hesitantly at first, then deeper, wet and insistent, mirroring the song's theme still thumping in the background.
billie's fingers traced your inner thigh, inching higher until she felt the damp heat through your skirt. āfuck, you're dripping,ā she muttered against your lips, slipping under the fabric to stroke your slick folds.
you moaned, parting your legs wider as your hand fumbled to cup billie's breast, your thumb flicking the hardening nipple through her thin tank.
the buildup shattered as billie pushed her back against the booth's cushion, hiking up your skirt to expose your glistening cunt. she dropped to her knees on the sticky floor, spreading your thighs wide.
her tongue flicked out, lapping at your swollen clit, tasting the sweet arousal that coated her lips.
āokay, I'm licked, take my pic - something you can jack off toā
the lyrics echoed faintly, spurring billie on as she sucked harder, fingers plunging into your tight, soaking cunt.
you gave up, your pussy clenching around the intrusion, juices flowing freely down billie's hand. she curled her fingers, stroking that inner wall until gasps turned to cries. not satisfied, billie added a third finger, stretching you out, pumping in and out with slick sounds that drowned out the music. billieās free hand rubbed herself, shorts shoved aside, fingers circling her throbbing clit as she devoured your folds.
you ground your hips down, fucking her mouth beneath you, while one of her hands pinned your arms down, dominating you in the small booth.
billieās fingers thrust deep, hitting that spot that made your vision blur, your walls fluttering as your orgasm built.
āplease let me cum-ā you begged before digging your fingers nails into her hands.
āmake a mess all over my fingers, baby..ā her tongue flicked relentlessly, and you shattered, gushing in hot waves that soaked the booth and billieās chin.
needless to say, she carried you out of that club and happily took you home with a shit eating grin on her face like she had won the lottery or something..
- hi my loves! itās been a while since iāve wrote something and it honestly feels good publishing for once š
- judging from the title, i already feel like people are going to expect more from this fic.. (i realized this after i typed like the last line) but this fic was very much inspired by song so donāt like, diss me or something š°
- for anyone wondering what song this fic was inspired by, it is:
(and for more people wondering, yes i did use some of the lyrics from the song in my fic, this song is way too good not too..)
anyways iām good anon, how r u babes? i havenāt had an anon in my inbox for foreverrr i wish some of you guys would talk with me more! but like i literally havenāt used tumblr in forever.. (u guys might just catch me re-uploading my stuff in ao3..)
stalker ex you said you still liked- i unblocked you but thatās because i do believe in chances.
yes! stalker ex, emphasis on the stalker part! because how wouldāve you known that i specifically called you my stalker ex?..
i could be referring to one of my other exes!
and also fyi, after i broke up AND cut things off with my first ex - i still liked her, and then after i eventually healed.. i didnāt like her anymore! (who wouldāve guessed!!!)
you only want me because you canāt heal by yourself, iām not a therapist for you to leech off of. iām a real human being with emotions
now i know you guys are probably wondering where iāve been after my whole.. crashout.. (i guess you could call it that..) and the truth is that im fine lmao
idk if anybody was really wondering or waiting for more chapters to come out for my sorority!billie fic but i did want to give an update on that!
my laptop broke a while ago and thatās where ALL (yes all) the upcoming chapters were š
now hopefully iāll be getting a new one soon but another thing i wanted to say/ask was if anyone had any idea on what they wanted to see in this fic/series because while working on the chapters before my laptop broke, I encountered writers block.. (ALOT)
i love hearing what people have to say and I donāt get a lot of requests much! so I think it would be really cool to get a public opinion on this š
have u met anyone boo i saw u had a messy breakup b4
im gonna be soo fr.. no i havenāt
lowk tho that messy breakup was kind of my exās faultā¦ BUT, i am like really open to getting to know people and like shooting my shot if ykwim š
Anyone else feel a bit disappointed and almost deceived over the billie and nat thing?
Like I'm not saying that she isn't interested in men at all but her recent activities felt very wlw to me. For example, lunch and guess are so clearly female inspired, flirting with Amelia on chicken shop, calling haley baley (i dunno her last name, the tiktoker one) hot as balls, the video of her sucking odessa tongue, and dancing/grinding on odessa and quinn. She seemed to be acting for the queer community (tbh thats how i got into her music, billie bossa nova came up in my spotify gay mix thingy) which got her a lot more fans . and then got a boyfriend
She doesn't owe the public a explanation or daily updates about her love life it just feels like the way she's been acting or been portrayed was very quer. I honestly thought she was slowly revealing a wlw relationship.
I don't get the people who are angry at her or saying she's queerbaiting. but i think it left a lot of people (including me) feeling a bit confused and kind of lied to. Like everytime she seems to be hinting around queerness she dates a boy, e/g billie bossa nova and then Jesse, or lunch and guess and now nat.
I feel like theres also a chance that its not all her, like its her team doing these things to get a new group of people interested in her. She's clearly a private person about her romantic relationships and she would know that the pap would be looking at the balcony so kissing on would 100% end in a photo being taken. It's like her media team are doing this to keep her name super relevant
i'm sorry you're get attacked boo omgš¤¦š¾āāļø. as much i love billie i TOTALLY get your side too, i really don't even know what to think anymore because it is very confusing.
itās literally so refreshing when someone understands what iām trying to say and iām so glad you get my side but unfortunately iām getting so tired of defending my own opinion when nobody wants to listen or be logical
i totally get how you feel right now and i can assure you that itās okay to feel confused and literally donāt let anyone on here tell you otherwise š«¶
as a lesbian you cant just ''aw man guys, im so disappointed that this musician that i love but don't actually know or understand cause im just a fan, not her FUCKING WIFE, has come out saying that she's dating a guy even tho said musician has literally stated that she is interested in BOTH men & women
like u literally have no right to be upset for incorrectly labeling her with ur own projected sexuality
sure, billie's never stated anywhere that she's bi, but that ALSO means that she has never once said that she's a lesbian, only that she's interested in both men/women
it's not billies fault that u randomly decided that she's just no longer allowed to love a man 'cause her recent songs have been about women, talk about parasocial ... girl u dont know her on a personal level lol, stop acting like u are her fucking manager
u assuming that lunch means literally nothing now just 'cause she's dating a guy is, wow, who would have guessed it, bi erasure!!! bet ur the same type of person who thinks bi ppl have to choose sides, too
just cause u find it too confusing, (poor baby :'(), when bi ppl decide to date ppl of differing genders, doesnt mean she did anything fucking wrong, u just dont fucking understand bisexuality/pansexuality
cant believe you're spewing this shit during pride month of all months, lol jk ofc i can, ur brain isnt even fully developed yet
holy yap session oh my fucking god, you know with that many words you couldāve filled out a job application?
iām so sick and tired of repeating myself on the same thing EVERY single time people like you come into my inboxā¦
literally scroll and youāll see me talking about EVERY single thing you went on and ranted about
and trust me if you need clarification for your small fucking peanut sized brain iād gladly fucking give it to you
iām so tired of people literally spitting back the same shit to me just to get their point across when iāve already shut it down
eat my fucking cunt i could care less about what you have to think because iāve already explained it to another brain dead person š«¶
to the people who donāt understand why some people are upset/shocked with billie kissing nat and all that stuff
iām gonna give my opinion on why iām personally upset
- yes, billie has said sheās interested in boys and girls but that doesnāt say what sexuality she is. you guys can assume she bi but in reality sheās just queer. there is no label whatsoever, she just falls under the queer category
- iāve told a lot of friends that i think itās weird how sheās dedicated most of her hit me hard and soft era towards women but then all of a sudden comes out with a guy. writing songs like lunch and wildflower are obviously so women centered. mind you lunch is about eating pussy. if thatās not gay than idk what is
- being photographed kissing women (which a lot of people say sheās not photographed doing so but thereās photos of it), expressing your interest solely towards women, telling the media youāre more interested in women than men, and even writing a song about how sex with your ex was bad kind of hints to the public that youāre interested in women
- people are allowed to be upset/shocked. as a lesbian girl, i was genuinely upset when i saw the pictures. it literally made me nauseous because this whole time i thought she was more interested in women. i really donāt care if thatās overdramatic but it was a genuine reaction
- my friend had also said this āi understand being bisexual but if you're that forward about being attracted to women and are painting yourself in that light, people are going to be upset that you just go and date a man after all of thatā and i honestly agree with this so much because as much as i love billie, this is exactly what she did and i donāt really support her for that
- i donāt control who she gets with but sometimes there needs to be some sort of thought process. you canāt just express your love for women and women only and then date a man just like that.
- i also hate the argument of āoh it was always obviousā no, not really because mind you, she was telling/hinting to people she was more interested in girls whenever she posted a picture of her and nat or was even SEEN with him.
- people saying ālunch aged like milkā
i kind of agree with this because one thing i noticed is that once those pictures of nat and billie came out, people automatically went and looked back at her old posts and instantly claimed āit was obviousā or āshe was including her bf and we didnāt know itā
so in the end what does lunch truly mean? is it like billie bossa nova where the song was just a fantasy? or does billie really mean the meaning of lunch
- this is a long rant but i feel like people arenāt getting it at all and i just wanted to share my perspective of whatever is going on
iām crying this is so dramatic. She clearly stated she likes BOYS AND GIRLS, which means she can pop out with either. It doesnāt matter if she popped out with Natt or not she still is interested in women lol. We arenāt married to her nor know her personally so who are we do judge what she does..our job as FANS is to support her with whatever she chooses lolā¦but itās ok to be shocked :)!
you were shocked which is okay but you did a lot of extra shit saying how she canāt say she loves women then go and date a man..lol she has free will btw..sheās an ADULT btw. Most of her songs in HMHAS werenāt labeled besides lunchā¦
i literally said that it was sudden and itās lowk random how she dedicated most of the hmhas era to women (and when i mean to women i literally mean showing interest towards women and so on) and just pops out with dating a man when obviously making her image to the media women-interested. literally thatās all iām saying and it doesnāt take much to realize that. yeah sheās an adult, i donāt control her age nor her actions but im allowed to have an opinion and feelings like a basic human being
ā¾ā.Ė mari @hitmeharderandsofter - Tumblr Blog | Tumgag
